confusedone
A Disturbance in the Force
Just wanted to know your thoughts on those that "come back" after a clinical death, and the changes they undergo. I was dead for 7 minutes with a major health concern in '09. I have not been "myself" since. At least, I have not been anything like the version that died.
I find myself with an almost totally different personality, and set of ideals and priorities, tastes and preferences. Almost everything that could be different, is. Meanwhile I have to act like nothing has changed. My family insists nothing is different/I am the same. It's because so many of my changes are not the kind I would share with them. I don't want them to know I doubt my religious beliefs now. Or that I think the idea of marriage is an antiquated one that I no longer subscribe to in my heart.
To confuse me further, I went to a card reader a year or so ago. She pulled me into a different room and told me she saw spirits all around me, and she wanted to know why. I told her about my experience, then she said I had brought those spirits back with me from the other side. And they were influencing me, even though I didn't realize it. She explained it as almost like having multiple personalities. I want to say she was a nutcase, but she told me some other things she couldn 't have possibly known or otherwise deduced.
So I don't really know what I think. About any of it.
I find myself with an almost totally different personality, and set of ideals and priorities, tastes and preferences. Almost everything that could be different, is. Meanwhile I have to act like nothing has changed. My family insists nothing is different/I am the same. It's because so many of my changes are not the kind I would share with them. I don't want them to know I doubt my religious beliefs now. Or that I think the idea of marriage is an antiquated one that I no longer subscribe to in my heart.
To confuse me further, I went to a card reader a year or so ago. She pulled me into a different room and told me she saw spirits all around me, and she wanted to know why. I told her about my experience, then she said I had brought those spirits back with me from the other side. And they were influencing me, even though I didn't realize it. She explained it as almost like having multiple personalities. I want to say she was a nutcase, but she told me some other things she couldn 't have possibly known or otherwise deduced.
So I don't really know what I think. About any of it.