Life is a pinball game

[jacygirl]

Stupid title, eh? Let me explain.

You begin your journey by being pushed through a narrow passage into a mayhem of bright lights and loud noises. With increasing speed, you bounce from one hard object to another, without any clear direction. Every now and then you get stuck ricocheting back and forth between two objects with bells that ring constantly. (Maybe that explains tinnitus? You're stuck in a ricochet!?)

You become aware that there is an escape hatch, a black hole at the bottom of the table. But it's guarded by 2 flippers that smack you back into the chaos, escape has been denied. After endless bouncing around you eventually limp past the flippers and drop into the escape hole. Ahh, finally sweet nothingness. But don't get too comfortable, the game is not over.

During that nothingness, you are infused with all the secrets of the universe. (Can I stay here?) Nope. Suddenly you are back in the chamber being propelled once more into the mayhem. So what good did that brief knowledge of everything do for you? You are back in the game, clueless that you keep repeating the chaos until the game table is destroyed or the external 'players' give up on this particular game.

That sums up life and reincarnation to me for now. But I have a weird sense of humor and love to write stories, so I hope this analogy amused you.

 

[broken.english]

I have a weird sense of humor

Sounds good to me.

 

[BHelmet]

Well, you also come to a point where you face the distinct possibility that you are the one pulling the spring back to propel the ball into your own machine and the hall is immense and full of many machines and players as it sits on pinball row which is in Gamesville and was built by Distractions Incorporated somewhat loosely regulated by the Department of Spiritual Development which is underfunded and has its hands tied by SelfishBank which is owned and operated by the Royal House of Inbreds who are leasing the Great Clown Planet and so on and so forth and on and on it goes.

 

[jacygirl]

Well, you also come to a point where you face the distinct possibility that you are the one pulling the spring back to propel the ball into your own machine and the hall is immense and full of many machines and players as it sits on pinball row which is in Gamesville and was built by Distractions Incorporated somewhat loosely regulated by the Department of Spiritual Development which is underfunded and has its hands tied by SelfishBank which is owned and operated by the Royal House of Inbreds who are leasing the Great Clown Planet and so on and so forth and on and on it goes.

I like the way you think, lol. Yes, you could be right. I have pondered that 'future me' is riding the Wave, eating metaphorical popcorn while giggling and telling me that "learning is fun" as I get my butt kicked. I currently blame her for signing me/us up for this mission and have vowed to kick her in her ethereal shins while pulling her ethereal hair.

 

[BHelmet]

I like the way you think, lol. Yes, you could be right. I have pondered that 'future me' is riding the Wave, eating metaphorical popcorn while giggling and telling me that "learning is fun" as I get my butt kicked. I currently blame her for signing me/us up for this mission and have vowed to kick her in her ethereal shins while pulling her ethereal hair.

I can relate but it’s time to merge with and own that b!tsh.

 

[broken.english]

I can relate but it’s time to merge with and own that b!tsh.

It needs one tough old son of a b.... to do so.

 

[jacygirl]

It needs one tough old son of a b.... to do so.

Ugh, well I'm still here (licking my wounds) so I guess I qualify, lol. ;)

 

[BHelmet]

Interesting. We’re talking the relationship with the higher self and it being adversarial. Not what you might think. But there are reasons. Partly depends on your stage of development and acceptance of these concepts. Partly stems from the higher self being a bit of an exacting taskmaster (“you got stuff to learn, some of which your ego and pre-conceived notions won’t like; get to work and quit lollygagging. The wave is coming!”) LOL a bit like the old joke “Jesus is coming. Look busy!” But oh so much more.

 

[jacygirl]

Interesting. We’re talking the relationship with the higher self and it being adversarial. Not what you might think. But there are reasons. Partly depends on your stage of development and acceptance of these concepts. Partly stems from the higher self being a bit of an exacting taskmaster (“you got stuff to learn, some of which your ego and pre-conceived notions won’t like; get to work and quit lollygagging. The wave is coming!”) LOL a bit like the old joke “Jesus is coming. Look busy!” But oh so much more.

 

[jacygirl]

Great message BHelmet...but if it was directed to me I need to explain myself. I actually adore my higher self (except that she never shuts up and keeps me awake!). She has a wicked sense of humor, is absolutely an exacting taskmaster with me, and I can't complain because earthling me is exactly the same. She has always guided me, and regardless of how traumatic my life was, she managed to keep me safe. (I think perhaps my sense of humor is misunderstood until you get to know me/us, lol)

To be honest, I'm worried that her constant chatter and jokes are going to get her thrown off the Wave and we'll both be down here, saying "Look what you did now!!" But I do have faith in her so I'm not worried about it (much).

 

[broken.english]

her constant chatter and jokes

How is your communication with you higher self? Do you hear spoken words?

 

[jacygirl]

How is your communication with you higher self? Do you hear spoken words?

 

[jacygirl]

I'm not sure how to describe it. I hear my own self/voice in my head and realize that I am basically talking to myself. But recently after reviewing so much of the C's material, I started referring to me as "present me" and my higher self as "future me". I ask and receive answers that are very aligned with who I am...but sometimes I'm aware that I did not "pre think" the question or the answer.

I don't sleep well so when I go to bed I write stories in my head to focus on one thing instead of dozens. Sometimes the story is so funny that I literally laugh out loud, and I can't possibly credit "present me" with being that funny. Then I'm 'told' to go to sleep and stop worrying about everything. (I hope that doesn't sound crazy because I keep reassuring myself that I'm not, lol!)

 

[Fluffy]

Cool analogy.

I can see the lizzies all lined up in the pinny parlour banging away at the buttons, having a ball, literally.

So how do we get out?
I’d hate to be one of the balls that get stuck in the elastic up behind the 10,000 points island.

 

[jacygirl]

Cool analogy.

I can see the lizzies all lined up in the pinny parlour banging away at the buttons, having a ball, literally.

So how do we get out?
I’d hate to be one of the balls that get stuck in the elastic up behind the 10,000 points island.

How do we get out? Good question. (your lizzies analogy is cool too)

I'm not sure that I'm qualified to answer that, but I can think of a few things that may help.
Be the best version of you. The only thing you control here is yourself, so don't waste time worrying about other people (you do you).
Get more knowledge, cuz apparently learning is fun but knowledge is power. Realize that there are a ridiculous amount of people/entities/etc. trying to kill us, so a sense of humor will help with that brutal reality. Keep looking/moving forward because the past is gone and there is only now.

I personally plan on raising my frequency so high that I can pull in foreign radio stations, and blast it to anyone/thing that tries to scan my brain (hoping that will at least confuse them). I am practicing saying "I'm never coming back again" in case I get to have a say in the matter too, lol. I hope I don't meet you behind the 10,000 points island. That would be...disappointing for both of us I think!