Cyre2067
The Living Force
This weekend was crazy so i figured id post a bit cuz well, im bored and at work.
This weekend i went up to nyc for a friends birthday and it just so happened to also be Pride, which means tons of party's, people, and intoxication. Needless to say, it was a blast. It's interesting to see how ill "work" during the week on G's system and then the matrix offers up an insanely fun weekend in order to bring me "back down" to ground level.
I also went with the expectation of finding one thing and ended up getting another, well that's not accurate. I got both, but the later came before and unexpectedly whereas the prior (which was expected/anticipated) took forever and was the source of much frustration. The question begs, if i had no been expecting it would it have arrived more timely?
Experimenting with expectations is difficult, because once the seed of the expectation is in your mind there's no way to eradicate the expectation completely, especially if it something one desires. Therefore i've been pushing expectations out of my mind as much as i can, if it yields results remains to be seen. However i've noticed the best results come when one is not expecting at all, it seems the possibility exists in my mind but conscious awareness is lacking.
I also noticed how we intend to do something and the law of accident intervenes and pushes us one way or another. I've always tended to adapt, to go with the flow of events, and it is clear to me that this accident isn't entirely accidental. What i mean is, from here and as far as our intentions go, it is clearly accident, however from above it seems as if something higher, lizzies, myself in the future, whatever may have orchistrated events in order to push me in a certain direction. Thus far the results have generally been to my liking. What could that indicate?
This weekend i went up to nyc for a friends birthday and it just so happened to also be Pride, which means tons of party's, people, and intoxication. Needless to say, it was a blast. It's interesting to see how ill "work" during the week on G's system and then the matrix offers up an insanely fun weekend in order to bring me "back down" to ground level.
I also went with the expectation of finding one thing and ended up getting another, well that's not accurate. I got both, but the later came before and unexpectedly whereas the prior (which was expected/anticipated) took forever and was the source of much frustration. The question begs, if i had no been expecting it would it have arrived more timely?
Experimenting with expectations is difficult, because once the seed of the expectation is in your mind there's no way to eradicate the expectation completely, especially if it something one desires. Therefore i've been pushing expectations out of my mind as much as i can, if it yields results remains to be seen. However i've noticed the best results come when one is not expecting at all, it seems the possibility exists in my mind but conscious awareness is lacking.
I also noticed how we intend to do something and the law of accident intervenes and pushes us one way or another. I've always tended to adapt, to go with the flow of events, and it is clear to me that this accident isn't entirely accidental. What i mean is, from here and as far as our intentions go, it is clearly accident, however from above it seems as if something higher, lizzies, myself in the future, whatever may have orchistrated events in order to push me in a certain direction. Thus far the results have generally been to my liking. What could that indicate?