This is something which was bugging me for 9 years now....and this is the first time for me telling other people about it, only my sister knows about it.
When I was around the age of 10/12 I always had this dream that I was on the clouds, with stairs leading UP but you could not just walk up , you had to jump to each stair, eventually when I was all the way up it seemed like there were more than 1000 doors there was no end , but somehow I was always entering one of these door every time , it was a HUGE golden door and when I opened it , I saw people waving at me and there was a girl who told me too sit and eat with them, and somehow I was in a tent with this girl I saw her talking all the time , telling me things, but I could not hear what she was saying.., then suddenly I was leaving the door and I woke up, I also always had the feeling of being chased by shadowy figures after some serious creepy events in our house we decided too move out to another place
then around the age of 13/14 I was back on the clouds going up again..but this time when I entered I saw the entire place being devasted everyone was dissapeared, they were all gone, at that moment I felt empty and so sad that I suddenly really woke up with tears in my eyes, without even knowing that I was crying.
I was telling myself that I was becoming crazy and that my own mind was fooling me and I wanted too forget about it...then 2 years later at the age of 16 or 17? I dont remember anymore , I was back at the clouds going up again and trough the door, and I saw a big red glowing object/star or whatever it was hitting the place immediately , some were dead instantly and others were somehow vanishing, after that I was never being able to go back, how hard I even focused, I just could not get there anymore and I always had this empty feeling inside so I thought that my quest was to find some girl in real life, that could help me with what I was exactly looking for? which horribly failed.
then at the age of 18/19(now) I somehow realized that I was looking the wrong way, and I came accros (the secret-you create your own reality) but lol...I walked exactly into another trap, then something in my head told me not to stop searching, then I came accros (I knew the cass transcripts earlier but did not pay much attention to it and was reading it more like a comic than how I was supposed to read it now ) , and I had this feeling that I had too post this ''YCYOR'' on this forum to wake more people up lol...but I thank god or whatever it was that I did post it and found out that this was another illusion and then I started to read carlos casteneda, all Cass transcripts and everything started to make sense , I lost that feeling of being empty , I started to see the real world , the horror and illusion in which we really live.
and then I also found a message on the back of my pictures when I was 13 years old.. and I did not even knew about it , but my mom gave it to me: the message was as follow:
Bo, (my real name) my life will change completely, I promised, and I will destroy all evil that exist.
that was really a breaktrough and a inspiration to increase my knowledge.
then this reminded me of what the C's said about that one decided to reincarnate in this time with some knowledge about
the upcoming event unconsciously?
and I think that that the ''cloud dream'' meant that when I would find out the truth I was not going to like it, and this is just the beginning? I would like to know what you guys think the dreams exactly meant?
P.S -_- my grammar sucks
When I was around the age of 10/12 I always had this dream that I was on the clouds, with stairs leading UP but you could not just walk up , you had to jump to each stair, eventually when I was all the way up it seemed like there were more than 1000 doors there was no end , but somehow I was always entering one of these door every time , it was a HUGE golden door and when I opened it , I saw people waving at me and there was a girl who told me too sit and eat with them, and somehow I was in a tent with this girl I saw her talking all the time , telling me things, but I could not hear what she was saying.., then suddenly I was leaving the door and I woke up, I also always had the feeling of being chased by shadowy figures after some serious creepy events in our house we decided too move out to another place
then around the age of 13/14 I was back on the clouds going up again..but this time when I entered I saw the entire place being devasted everyone was dissapeared, they were all gone, at that moment I felt empty and so sad that I suddenly really woke up with tears in my eyes, without even knowing that I was crying.
I was telling myself that I was becoming crazy and that my own mind was fooling me and I wanted too forget about it...then 2 years later at the age of 16 or 17? I dont remember anymore , I was back at the clouds going up again and trough the door, and I saw a big red glowing object/star or whatever it was hitting the place immediately , some were dead instantly and others were somehow vanishing, after that I was never being able to go back, how hard I even focused, I just could not get there anymore and I always had this empty feeling inside so I thought that my quest was to find some girl in real life, that could help me with what I was exactly looking for? which horribly failed.
then at the age of 18/19(now) I somehow realized that I was looking the wrong way, and I came accros (the secret-you create your own reality) but lol...I walked exactly into another trap, then something in my head told me not to stop searching, then I came accros (I knew the cass transcripts earlier but did not pay much attention to it and was reading it more like a comic than how I was supposed to read it now ) , and I had this feeling that I had too post this ''YCYOR'' on this forum to wake more people up lol...but I thank god or whatever it was that I did post it and found out that this was another illusion and then I started to read carlos casteneda, all Cass transcripts and everything started to make sense , I lost that feeling of being empty , I started to see the real world , the horror and illusion in which we really live.
and then I also found a message on the back of my pictures when I was 13 years old.. and I did not even knew about it , but my mom gave it to me: the message was as follow:
Bo, (my real name) my life will change completely, I promised, and I will destroy all evil that exist.
that was really a breaktrough and a inspiration to increase my knowledge.
then this reminded me of what the C's said about that one decided to reincarnate in this time with some knowledge about
the upcoming event unconsciously?
and I think that that the ''cloud dream'' meant that when I would find out the truth I was not going to like it, and this is just the beginning? I would like to know what you guys think the dreams exactly meant?
P.S -_- my grammar sucks
