My Abduction Experience

Caecus

Caecus

The Force is Strong With This One
Hello,

I'm not sure if I've posted this in the correct forum?... My experience did not include 'Aliens' (in the overt sense) or UFO's, but was definitely an abduction scenario in my opinion, but I do not FULLY commit to this; as I'm aware of the possibility I could have dreamed-up the entire event. However, I cannot seem to reconcile this event as just another dream, albeit an extremely vivid one; something in my mind will just not let go of this event...

Background: Middle-class kid from North Texas, from about 7 yo. - 12 +yo.
No history of any major trauma, etc., an otherwise "normal" childhood.
Parents divorced when I was 2 yo., that's about the extent of my childhood 'trauma' (pretty mild).
I was well cared for, had/have a good network of family & friends, and experienced very little, if any, stress outside the norm of everyday life.

I've seen odd things at night since I was very young. Mostly shadow figures, or a type of black smoke/fog that moved in very peculiar ways and maybe the occasional ghostly figure/wisp. Also, I became (I guess?) somewhat proficient in lucid dreaming. I began by causing myself to float, then with practice elevate, and eventually fly around the world like superman. Interestingly, I developed this skill by 'popping' my ears (while asleep), and once proficient I would constantly be 'popping' my ears to affect my flight skills. All while developing lucid dream skills of flight/travel, combat, manifestation, etc. I would have recurring dreams. Over and over, the same scenario of me flying around fighting-off evil giant robots that were trying to destroy the world. I had the previous experiences in the years leading up to 'the event', but my lucid dreaming skills wore-off around about high-school (thanks to MaryJane probably), but I have had some other 'high strangeness' happen sporadically since.

'The Event' -
I was appx. 10-11 yo. (sorry I'm really bad with dates) and it was a typical late-summer evening I went to bed (not recalling anything out of the ordinary previously). After going to sleep, probably for some several hours (it felt), I suddenly awoke in what I perceived* as our side-yard area just outside my bedroom window. (*I say perceived because I couldn't actually see any familiar markers, I only saw the grass around my feet, but somehow KNEW I was standing in my side-yard?) My view upon awaking, as my eyes rose from my lower field of vision rose to my upper field:
Grass around my feet (extremely familiar feeling with the setting)
3-4 Individuals standing in a semi-circle in-front of me (only visible from about the thigh/knee downward)
The individuals were dressed as ...scientist? (shiny black shoes, black trousers, and I could make out the bottoms of what looked like white lab coats)
My upper field of vision was obstructed by some type of dome/helmet/toroid device that had been lowered over my head.
The device appeared white/opaque on the interior, and had a 'band' or sequence of multi-color lights that would flash around it in a circular/horizontal mode.
When the lights were 'activated' I would experience an extreme pain and intense sensation of heat in my head.
It did not take long of this for me to pass out from the pain.
I awoke (shortly, I guess?) afterwards with an excruciating headache I have never felt anything like before or since.
Also, the heat sensation remained for several hours upon waking.
My memory of the timeline is fuzzy, but I'm sure that either just before/during/after this event I was experiencing frequent nosebleeds.
That's it. No other perceived* (*that word again) effects or repeated instances.

As I said; I've seen some high-strangeness in my later years, but NOTHING has ever come close to 'The Event' in regards to a direct impact upon my psyche.
I've scoured abduction/UFO reports, and posted this story elsewhere, in an effort to find some correlation, connection, or similarity out there, but so far nothing yet...

Perhaps this was all just a bad dream of a child, but something DEEP within me cannot accept that for some reason? I have NEVER 'felt' a dream such as this, and I had some pretty darn vivid lucid dreams, this was not that. I do wish it were a dream; the implications of it being otherwise are pretty unsettling.

Anyhow, thanks for letting me share my experience. I do hope this network might be able to shed some light on my experience, but at the very least maybe my story will be of interest to others. Please feel free to ask any questions and I will do my best to answer.

~Caecus
 
Caecus said:
Hello,

I'm not sure if I've posted this in the correct forum?... My experience did not include 'Aliens' (in the overt sense) or UFO's, but was definitely an abduction scenario in my opinion, but I do not FULLY commit to this; as I'm aware of the possibility I could have dreamed-up the entire event. However, I cannot seem to reconcile this event as just another dream, albeit an extremely vivid one; something in my mind will just not let go of this event...

Background: Middle-class kid from North Texas, from about 7 yo. - 12 +yo.
No history of any major trauma, etc., an otherwise "normal" childhood.
Parents divorced when I was 2 yo., that's about the extent of my childhood 'trauma' (pretty mild).
I was well cared for, had/have a good network of family & friends, and experienced very little, if any, stress outside the norm of everyday life.

I've seen odd things at night since I was very young. Mostly shadow figures, or a type of black smoke/fog that moved in very peculiar ways and maybe the occasional ghostly figure/wisp. Also, I became (I guess?) somewhat proficient in lucid dreaming. I began by causing myself to float, then with practice elevate, and eventually fly around the world like superman. Interestingly, I developed this skill by 'popping' my ears (while asleep), and once proficient I would constantly be 'popping' my ears to affect my flight skills. All while developing lucid dream skills of flight/travel, combat, manifestation, etc. I would have recurring dreams. Over and over, the same scenario of me flying around fighting-off evil giant robots that were trying to destroy the world. I had the previous experiences in the years leading up to 'the event', but my lucid dreaming skills wore-off around about high-school (thanks to MaryJane probably), but I have had some other 'high strangeness' happen sporadically since.

'The Event' -
I was appx. 10-11 yo. (sorry I'm really bad with dates) and it was a typical late-summer evening I went to bed (not recalling anything out of the ordinary previously). After going to sleep, probably for some several hours (it felt), I suddenly awoke in what I perceived* as our side-yard area just outside my bedroom window. (*I say perceived because I couldn't actually see any familiar markers, I only saw the grass around my feet, but somehow KNEW I was standing in my side-yard?) My view upon awaking, as my eyes rose from my lower field of vision rose to my upper field:
Grass around my feet (extremely familiar feeling with the setting)
3-4 Individuals standing in a semi-circle in-front of me (only visible from about the thigh/knee downward)
The individuals were dressed as ...scientist? (shiny black shoes, black trousers, and I could make out the bottoms of what looked like white lab coats)
My upper field of vision was obstructed by some type of dome/helmet/toroid device that had been lowered over my head.
The device appeared white/opaque on the interior, and had a 'band' or sequence of multi-color lights that would flash around it in a circular/horizontal mode.
When the lights were 'activated' I would experience an extreme pain and intense sensation of heat in my head.
It did not take long of this for me to pass out from the pain.
I awoke (shortly, I guess?) afterwards with an excruciating headache I have never felt anything like before or since.
Also, the heat sensation remained for several hours upon waking.
My memory of the timeline is fuzzy, but I'm sure that either just before/during/after this event I was experiencing frequent nosebleeds.
That's it. No other perceived* (*that word again) effects or repeated instances.

As I said; I've seen some high-strangeness in my later years, but NOTHING has ever come close to 'The Event' in regards to a direct impact upon my psyche.
I've scoured abduction/UFO reports, and posted this story elsewhere, in an effort to find some correlation, connection, or similarity out there, but so far nothing yet...

Perhaps this was all just a bad dream of a child, but something DEEP within me cannot accept that for some reason? I have NEVER 'felt' a dream such as this, and I had some pretty darn vivid lucid dreams, this was not that. I do wish it were a dream; the implications of it being otherwise are pretty unsettling.

Anyhow, thanks for letting me share my experience. I do hope this network might be able to shed some light on my experience, but at the very least maybe my story will be of interest to others. Please feel free to ask any questions and I will do my best to answer.

~Caecus
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how old are you now?
 
Wowsers, these unexplainable things cause us to want to rationalise and normalise as much as possible the scenario, which is good to some extent because it helps us live more normally but on the other hand may be it creates blocks so we don’t investigate and notice ourselves and programs.

Have you read the substack material?

There’s quite a great compilation of material there that may be you’ve already covered, or not, to get a deeper understanding of the possibilities and what that could mean to you.

Many of us have had abduction experiences that we don’t remember, then some of us remember, may be so we can bring awareness to others. It’s an extremely interesting topic.

substack.com

The Cassiopaea Experiment | Substack

The Cassiopaea Experiment is a project of the Fellowship of the Cosmic Mind, a registered 501(c)3.
substack.com substack.com

See what you think.
 
Fluffy said:
Wowsers, these unexplainable things cause us to want to rationalise and normalise as much as possible the scenario, which is good to some extent because it helps us live more normally but on the other hand may be it creates blocks so we don’t investigate and notice ourselves and programs.

Have you read the substack material?

There’s quite a great compilation of material there that may be you’ve already covered, or not, to get a deeper understanding of the possibilities and what that could mean to you.

Many of us have had abduction experiences that we don’t remember, then some of us remember, may be so we can bring awareness to others. It’s an extremely interesting topic.

substack.com

The Cassiopaea Experiment | Substack

The Cassiopaea Experiment is a project of the Fellowship of the Cosmic Mind, a registered 501(c)3.
substack.com substack.com

See what you think.
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Agreed.
No I haven’t, but thank you for the recommendation, I’ll check it out…
 
Caecus said:
Perhaps this was all just a bad dream of a child, but something DEEP within me cannot accept that for some reason? I have NEVER 'felt' a dream such as this, and I had some pretty darn vivid lucid dreams, this was not that.
I do wish it were a dream; the implications of it being otherwise are pretty unsettling.
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Whether it was a dream or not, I see that you are anticipating that it is a dream and therefore creating a block. I suggest you read some of the sessions that talk about anticipation and desire, something to do with the right and left brain to develop connections and creative potential. In other words, strengthening the parts of your being that seek balance to unveil without fear or prejudice.
 
It could have been an abduction experience, apparently there are many different types of them. The mind is a mercurial thing and often obscures an objective truth via screen images, and these can be employed by 4d STS agents as well. I've had similar experiences, including chronic nosebleed episodes. I've often wondered if the sinus cavity is a common placement for implants? I'm pretty sure I've read in the early Cs transcripts that it was mentioned, and it might also be in the articles mentioned by @Fluffy above. I've actually bookmarked the abduction series of articles to read over in depth. They help to put the Cs sessions into proper context, much like The Wave series did.

I understand that anomalous moments/experiences like this can gnaw at the mind, the desire to truly know what happened can nag away at you for ages. It might be an idea to try meditating on the subject? Also, do you keep a journal? It's a very handy resource for figuring out old events and memories from the past in one's life.

Dreams can be very powerful experiences too, and they can mask other more nefarious things floating in the ether. So in order to protect your mind from trauma at a young age, perhaps you needed the dream's imagery in some sense? I first had an abduction event at the age of 4, and it was terrifying; it's actually one of my earliest life memories. I actually think it helped to wake me up at a relatively early age (for instance I've never trusted authority figures), and got me into questioning orthodox beliefs too. As the Cs have stated, suffering can cause DNA receptors to "switch on" in the host body. Sure, it's a trauma, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

So I'm not going to definitively say it was a "Gray event", but it could be. Anyway, I wish you luck in figuring this little mystery out....all the best to you.
 
Liliea said:
Whether it was a dream or not, I see that you are anticipating that it is a dream and therefore creating a block. I suggest you read some of the sessions that talk about anticipation and desire, something to do with the right and left brain to develop connections and creative potential. In other words, strengthening the parts of your being that seek balance to unveil without fear or prejudice.
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Thank you for your comments. I am confused by your statement regarding anticipating this was a dream. I can see by my text saying I wish it were, but don’t understand how that outweighs my multiple inferences that this was indeed Not a dream…. And almost 30 years of anticipating NOT a dream. Perhaps I’m creating a block in the ‘opposite direction’? Again, I may be confusing the matter… but thanks for your feedback.
 
SlipNet said:
It could have been an abduction experience, apparently there are many different types of them. The mind is a mercurial thing and often obscures an objective truth via screen images, and these can be employed by 4d STS agents as well. I've had similar experiences, including chronic nosebleed episodes. I've often wondered if the sinus cavity is a common placement for implants? I'm pretty sure I've read in the early Cs transcripts that it was mentioned, and it might also be in the articles mentioned by @Fluffy above. I've actually bookmarked the abduction series of articles to read over in depth. They help to put the Cs sessions into proper context, much like The Wave series did.

I understand that anomalous moments/experiences like this can gnaw at the mind, the desire to truly know what happened can nag away at you for ages. It might be an idea to try meditating on the subject? Also, do you keep a journal? It's a very handy resource for figuring out old events and memories from the past in one's life.

Dreams can be very powerful experiences too, and they can mask other more nefarious things floating in the ether. So in order to protect your mind from trauma at a young age, perhaps you needed the dream's imagery in some sense? I first had an abduction event at the age of 4, and it was terrifying; it's actually one of my earliest life memories. I actually think it helped to wake me up at a relatively early age (for instance I've never trusted authority figures), and got me into questioning orthodox beliefs too. As the Cs have stated, suffering can cause DNA receptors to "switch on" in the host body. Sure, it's a trauma, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

So I'm not going to definitively say it was a "Gray event", but it could be. Anyway, I wish you luck in figuring this little mystery out....all the best to you.
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Thanks for sharing this…
Yes, this event has quietly nagged at the back of my mind since it happened…

I try to meditate most nights, but I have difficulty going beyond the calming state. I’m also an untrained novice in the art. Rarely I will have very vivid/intense flashes of (?) various things.

I’ve only kept a journal for a few brief periods in my life & none recently, but I agree; this can be most beneficial.

I feel past the point of standard recall of the event…. It’s like some foggy island in my distant past. I’ve never tried hypnotherapy, but open to it.

Your account sounds very traumatic, that’s so young… appreciate you sharing that.
 
Caecus said:
Thank you for your comments. I am confused by your statement regarding anticipating this was a dream. I can see by my text saying I wish it were, but don’t understand how that outweighs my multiple inferences that this was indeed Not a dream…. And almost 30 years of anticipating NOT a dream. Perhaps I’m creating a block in the ‘opposite direction’? Again, I may be confusing the matter… but thanks for your feedback.
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Well, I gather that when you say ‘I wish it was a dream’, it's as if you're saying ‘this wasn't a dream’ and that's because you're protecting yourself from what really happened and you genuinely don't know, you obviously don't have the full picture. Just from that brief line you write I can guess that it makes you anticipate possibilities that haven't allowed you to resolve it properly. And if it was a bad dream, maybe something happened to you that wasn't necessarily an abduction, was it? And if it was...and if...
I know it may sound contradictory, however I suggest you read up on anticipation and expectation and try to get into balance to strengthen yourself (stalking) and seek answers as outside help, but first I suggest you do more action-work on yourself.
Have faith in the universe and I hope with all my heart that everything works out as it should.
 
Liliea said:
Well, I gather that when you say ‘I wish it was a dream’, it's as if you're saying ‘this wasn't a dream’ and that's because you're protecting yourself from what really happened and you genuinely don't know, you obviously don't have the full picture. Just from that brief line you write I can guess that it makes you anticipate possibilities that haven't allowed you to resolve it properly. And if it was a bad dream, maybe something happened to you that wasn't necessarily an abduction, was it? And if it was...and if...
I know it may sound contradictory, however I suggest you read up on anticipation and expectation and try to get into balance to strengthen yourself (stalking) and seek answers as outside help, but first I suggest you do more action-work on yourself.
Have faith in the universe and I hope with all my heart that everything works out as it should.
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Thank you for clarifying; I can understand the concept now, and will try to read up on anticipation/expectation. ….but ‘stalking’?
I hope you mean walking!
 
Caecus said:
Thank you for clarifying; I can understand the concept now, and will try to read up on anticipation/expectation. ….but ‘stalking’?
I hope you mean walking!
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The art of stalking the predator within or externally- other people!

If, when you have time, I know you’ve got a lot of reading on your plate already, read Carlos Casteneda The Fire From Within, it’s one of my favourites too.
 
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