Ever since I was a child some dreams I know it's meaning. For example, when chase or threatened by the dogs in dreams I encountered problems in real life.
I got money or found money, then I get money in real life.
One dream, I saw my Grandmas deadbody in the room and there was few people sitting around. It was so sad, I cry loudly and shed of tears like shower. I cried and cried then I heard that someone is crying too. I looked around to see who is this person and become aware that this person was myself, still tears streaming from my eyes and I am in my own bed. The pillow and bed was soaking wet from tears. And I know that my Grandmother just died.
Other dream, there was so many people gathered around the open space. I looked around to see what they're doing in there. Then I realized that I was in dream and I said to myself this is dream and in That moment I awake from dream then I muttered, how come I know I was dreaming in dream?
When I separated from my first husband in New York and thinking about moving to LA, even though I didn't know anyone in there, I started to have repeating dreams. In dream I am ready to go out from house and looking for shoes to wear and I see so many shoes, different sizes shapes and colors. I look and look, when I see a old-fashion Korean shoes then I said to myself, oh there is my shoes, when I put that on, just that moment I wake up. This dreams are almost every night, different places but looking for my shoes and put it on is always same. In reality I don't remember I ever have Korean shoes, nobody use that for long time except some old fashioned wedding maybe.
And then around 1978 I moved to LA and found APT in Korean town, then I met one Korean lady and she moved to my place to share the cost. And this lady have brother and bunch of her brother's friends comes and take us to beach or mountain to entertain us. Meanwhile the shoes dreams continues. Then one of the tallest man in the group overly kind to me but rest of other man didn't cares, maybe because I am taller than most Korean or American women.
When I married to this man, the dream stopped. This marriage lasted 19 years, 2 kids and I have once again divorced.
About 10 years later I start to have shoes dreams again. The only difference is, this time I puts on American shoes, this is about 6 years ago.
And one day at the laundromat, a man introduced himself as retired schoolteacher and his house is near by. After that I run into him various place. One day I met him about 3 times and become very upset. I staring into the space and said. Listen whoever you are, I made my mind not to marry this man or any other man. I don't care sex, money, house whatever. Do not bother me again.
Then wondering did I offend God? But I don't like to be puppet anymore, I had enough of dreams, now on I will make my own life. So I made my mind right there.
That night the shoes dreams stopped and strangely I never saw that man again even though we live in same town and go to Trader Joe's for groceries.
After that I was pondering what is dream, who is trying to manipulate me. Is there really is a God? But surely God doesn't do small thing like matchmaking, but then who knows God?
I read whole Bible long times ago just once to see what it is, and I remembered it says God like to smelled aroma of burnt animals on the altar and thinking to myself, what kind of God is that? Something queer about God.
It is so amazing that I have finally found all of the answers that puzzle me all my life. I am so lucky.
Thank you, C's, Laura, and everyone.
I got money or found money, then I get money in real life.
One dream, I saw my Grandmas deadbody in the room and there was few people sitting around. It was so sad, I cry loudly and shed of tears like shower. I cried and cried then I heard that someone is crying too. I looked around to see who is this person and become aware that this person was myself, still tears streaming from my eyes and I am in my own bed. The pillow and bed was soaking wet from tears. And I know that my Grandmother just died.
Other dream, there was so many people gathered around the open space. I looked around to see what they're doing in there. Then I realized that I was in dream and I said to myself this is dream and in That moment I awake from dream then I muttered, how come I know I was dreaming in dream?
When I separated from my first husband in New York and thinking about moving to LA, even though I didn't know anyone in there, I started to have repeating dreams. In dream I am ready to go out from house and looking for shoes to wear and I see so many shoes, different sizes shapes and colors. I look and look, when I see a old-fashion Korean shoes then I said to myself, oh there is my shoes, when I put that on, just that moment I wake up. This dreams are almost every night, different places but looking for my shoes and put it on is always same. In reality I don't remember I ever have Korean shoes, nobody use that for long time except some old fashioned wedding maybe.
And then around 1978 I moved to LA and found APT in Korean town, then I met one Korean lady and she moved to my place to share the cost. And this lady have brother and bunch of her brother's friends comes and take us to beach or mountain to entertain us. Meanwhile the shoes dreams continues. Then one of the tallest man in the group overly kind to me but rest of other man didn't cares, maybe because I am taller than most Korean or American women.
When I married to this man, the dream stopped. This marriage lasted 19 years, 2 kids and I have once again divorced.
About 10 years later I start to have shoes dreams again. The only difference is, this time I puts on American shoes, this is about 6 years ago.
And one day at the laundromat, a man introduced himself as retired schoolteacher and his house is near by. After that I run into him various place. One day I met him about 3 times and become very upset. I staring into the space and said. Listen whoever you are, I made my mind not to marry this man or any other man. I don't care sex, money, house whatever. Do not bother me again.
Then wondering did I offend God? But I don't like to be puppet anymore, I had enough of dreams, now on I will make my own life. So I made my mind right there.
That night the shoes dreams stopped and strangely I never saw that man again even though we live in same town and go to Trader Joe's for groceries.
After that I was pondering what is dream, who is trying to manipulate me. Is there really is a God? But surely God doesn't do small thing like matchmaking, but then who knows God?
I read whole Bible long times ago just once to see what it is, and I remembered it says God like to smelled aroma of burnt animals on the altar and thinking to myself, what kind of God is that? Something queer about God.
It is so amazing that I have finally found all of the answers that puzzle me all my life. I am so lucky.
Thank you, C's, Laura, and everyone.
