D69
Dagobah Resident
Ok guys this is my first attempt to fight this <i dunno how to call it>
Ill try to describe this.
Whenever i have something (IMO) in mind that is important , then i have the tendency to forget it.
At first i found this very uncomfortable (before sott , before ark blogs , before whole "the wave" ) just because it looked like memory looses. I never had a tendency to remember dates of birthdays etc etc , and i was pretty surprised when i found out that a lot of my friends/colegues does in fact remember those dates (including mine :/ )
Later it moved to workplace. I couldt remember simple (but important ) stuff from normal, daily social life in work , i only had that all written down somewhere in back of my mind - in other words , i knew it happened , but i could not recall exact situation.
And then Sott/wave/and other stuff came into my life. Then i started to realize that maybe i have just bad memory or maybe untrained memory. That feeling feeded me for long time. I bought books to fight this "short memory" problem but i always kept on forgetting to read them :/. And i dont really think its a lazzyness problem here :/.
Finally , and in fact , actually a while ago i realized that something external tries to "help"me on forgetting stuff.
Why do i think that way ?
Well , i think i drive a private war against myself , at least i used to think it is myself , but now i am slowly moving to the point where i am thinking its ME against something that is NOT ME.
............
Funny thing here , i had to make a small break just to go to toilet and viola!
I simply forgot what i meant and what i wanted to write :/
......................
There is more to cover.
I also have these "inside talks" problem. Earlier , i used it as shield against the world.
Now i understand world totally different. So the shield is useless now , and now i really know that was a bad shield - shield based on other people misery , other people misunderstanding etc etc .
These "inside talks" tries to tell me that i am so good and so great that i dont need anyone as a friend. As a contra , there is other voice that argues with that anti-everyone. Well i know it sounds very strange , but remember that my regular english is really poor and that i dont have all proper words to describe it all. Also it may sound a little bit like schizophrenia.
Anyways , it happens all the time ,whenever i want to write something (again IMO ) important on Sott , i just simply forget it a second ( LITERALLY ) after i thought about it.
I am curious if any one had similar problem.
I would like to hear your comments guys about this whole thing.
Is it just my short memory problem ? or is it something more ? Or is it something my "bad" alter-ego tried to make up ? :/
Ill try to describe this.
Whenever i have something (IMO) in mind that is important , then i have the tendency to forget it.
At first i found this very uncomfortable (before sott , before ark blogs , before whole "the wave" ) just because it looked like memory looses. I never had a tendency to remember dates of birthdays etc etc , and i was pretty surprised when i found out that a lot of my friends/colegues does in fact remember those dates (including mine :/ )
Later it moved to workplace. I couldt remember simple (but important ) stuff from normal, daily social life in work , i only had that all written down somewhere in back of my mind - in other words , i knew it happened , but i could not recall exact situation.
And then Sott/wave/and other stuff came into my life. Then i started to realize that maybe i have just bad memory or maybe untrained memory. That feeling feeded me for long time. I bought books to fight this "short memory" problem but i always kept on forgetting to read them :/. And i dont really think its a lazzyness problem here :/.
Finally , and in fact , actually a while ago i realized that something external tries to "help"me on forgetting stuff.
Why do i think that way ?
Well , i think i drive a private war against myself , at least i used to think it is myself , but now i am slowly moving to the point where i am thinking its ME against something that is NOT ME.
............
Funny thing here , i had to make a small break just to go to toilet and viola!
I simply forgot what i meant and what i wanted to write :/
......................
There is more to cover.
I also have these "inside talks" problem. Earlier , i used it as shield against the world.
Now i understand world totally different. So the shield is useless now , and now i really know that was a bad shield - shield based on other people misery , other people misunderstanding etc etc .
These "inside talks" tries to tell me that i am so good and so great that i dont need anyone as a friend. As a contra , there is other voice that argues with that anti-everyone. Well i know it sounds very strange , but remember that my regular english is really poor and that i dont have all proper words to describe it all. Also it may sound a little bit like schizophrenia.
Anyways , it happens all the time ,whenever i want to write something (again IMO ) important on Sott , i just simply forget it a second ( LITERALLY ) after i thought about it.
I am curious if any one had similar problem.
I would like to hear your comments guys about this whole thing.
Is it just my short memory problem ? or is it something more ? Or is it something my "bad" alter-ego tried to make up ? :/