abstract said:
You say thats who i am , is that really who you are?
No, just trying to pointlessly justify my f-bombs.
Personally I would have tried to remove the foul language first and then do your thing i.e. write a scrip first
in all honesty and sincerity, I do apologize if i offended anyone, however it seemed okay at the time. all there is are lessons.
Now...for those of you who saw it before i took it down: foul language aside, did we see the point i was trying to make? I think you all did, i forget sometimes that
foul language can be a turnoff. but like i said in the vid, i hadn't slept and i was full of energy and i just wanted to vent and place blame on something.
Hi Abstract,
I did not view the video so cannot comment on that.
I have however read your posts with interest. :)
What strikes me at first is how you continue the same behaviour throughout this thread, namely placing caveats that somehow justify.
You say that 'all there is are lessons'. True. Yet this bothers me for it seems as if you have reached for this 'caveat' as well in trying to explain away what you did and the responses (conscious feedback) received.
What is more disturbing is that it could very well be the case that you simply ignore the poignancy behind this phrase by shuffling the experience away as "oh, well, it is all just lessons."
I hope to make myself clear here, for I have seen this A LOT before and am wary of the potential for such an attitude within myself as well. Namely, starting to use a little bit of knowledge we may have against ourselves rather than using it to work towards gaining more knowledge! It is very easy to use the WORDS but do the WORDS make the DEED? In other words, to SAY we 'learn our lessons' is one thing, to LEARN those lessons is another! And to reach for the phrase as an excuse is another matter altogether.
You clearly have an abundance of enthusiasm concerning the work on this forum, which is commendable, and nobody is questioning your sincerity. Yet have you ever read any Oscar Wilde? His humour is so irrreverent, which of course makes it superb and spot-on, but the point I am getting to is one quote in particular:
'A little sincerity is a dangerous thing, and a great deal of it is absolutely fatal!'.
As I understand this he is commenting on that mechanical or fanatical approach towards life that just 'nods in agreement' without due consideration or recognition of the facts. What is said. REALITY. Yet who might this be 'fatal' towards?
Have you ever read your own posts? I mean, really READ them, as if they were written by someone else entirely? This may help in seeing what I see and 'jolting' you as it were. Start with this thread. Where did you say one thing (as if it were done and dusted, i.e. learnt) yet continue with the same behaviour?!
Frank Herbert wrote something along the same lines as Oscar Wilde, though it is a bit more 'esoteric'. That is, it cannot be taken literally, per se.
Ready comprehension is often a knee-jerk response and the most dangerous form of understanding. It blinks an opaque screen over your ablility to learn. The judgemental precedents of law function that way, littering your path with dead ends. Be warned. Understand nothing. All comprehension is temporary.
with kind regards,
~Leoursa