Hello Everyone
I have never understood why it is that I kept standing at the door of change and never entering the door. Until a question was posed to me on this very forum. The question was "Is the glass half empty or is it half full"? For some reason the question hit me so hard that I went into a searching of why am I projecting things as half empty. The question actually turned my life upside down or right side up however a person may look at it. Over the months I went through the loss of a relationship because those half empty thoughts that manifested finally took a toll on my best friend (still is) for years. We both sought something greater than ourselves and she had to move forward. This was very painful for me because I really loved her. Their was many truths that I learned from our interaction. I saw a lot of how uncaring and selfish I was while going through the acceptance of this. I at one point in tears one night realized that I did not know what to do. I had nothing to do. All I had have had was just relationships after relationships. I did not know anything about myself. I did not live with purpose. That night in tears I found something, something greater than myself but that was giving and all giving. I don't know if this is a program but this is what I felt. It was nothing but love and all it showed me was to give more love. It was Life to me. I realized I never learned to live by giving life or making life decisions I was living in a death mentality. I was searching for an answer and I allowed it to manifest in my day to day life and it did. It was very overwhelming and I stood at the door while I was going through it. I allowed it but it was terrifying that I had to really look at who I was. At this point I refuse to do anything from a death state "half empty" mentality. Rather I will stand with half full knowing that the glass is there. A friend of mine aided me through this and he told me something when I told him I am not the same person anymore. He said this does not happen overnight and he knows I haven't changed fully. He is correct because I have not started the physical (taking action) development of my will to be who I Am fully. So this is why I am back on this forum. I did not feel worthy to be here at first so I projected worthiness. Projected worthiness has no substance and eventually anyone can see through it. My importance is no greater than the next person and all must work towards what they need to. One of the things I realized going through this is I have be active in Life. Words mean nothing when it is not backed by action and so Life means nothing unless it is lived. I have just cruised through my life and barely made anything of it for anyone or myself. I don't even know if this is the right place for me as yet but I am not discounting it because what is here resonates within me. I am choosing to learn as much as I can here and anywhere else. If I am to move on I hope that I have helped everyone as much as I have been helped so far. For that I thank everyone.
To Laura
I understand as much as I can at this point of my Life and looking forward to understanding more. Before I saw your picture on your website years ago I knew what you looked like. Your work was one of the only things that resonated with me for a long time now. So one of the reasons I came to the forum was to have an interaction with yourself. I took a lot of things into consideration before I decided to do this. Your words although written was very powerful and I knew I would take into consideration what you had to offer. That is exactly what happened. For that I am truly thankful.
I would like to share something with everyone. This helped me a lot through this time in my life. It is from a movie called Coach Carter.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking,
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you
We were all meant to shine as children do
It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone
And as we let our own light shine
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same
As we are liberated from our own fear
Our presence automatically liberates others
----From the Movie: Coach Carter
Eon
My worthiness comes from knowing I was blessed with Life.
Life binds all things as it is a gift from the All.
As the All gives this gift I give this gift it is all I have to give.
As I give I will be replenished as Life which is Love
Love is not to be held unto but to be shared with all.
In this sharing we achieve the greatest virtue.
I am Life and Life is Love.
I am worthy.
I have never understood why it is that I kept standing at the door of change and never entering the door. Until a question was posed to me on this very forum. The question was "Is the glass half empty or is it half full"? For some reason the question hit me so hard that I went into a searching of why am I projecting things as half empty. The question actually turned my life upside down or right side up however a person may look at it. Over the months I went through the loss of a relationship because those half empty thoughts that manifested finally took a toll on my best friend (still is) for years. We both sought something greater than ourselves and she had to move forward. This was very painful for me because I really loved her. Their was many truths that I learned from our interaction. I saw a lot of how uncaring and selfish I was while going through the acceptance of this. I at one point in tears one night realized that I did not know what to do. I had nothing to do. All I had have had was just relationships after relationships. I did not know anything about myself. I did not live with purpose. That night in tears I found something, something greater than myself but that was giving and all giving. I don't know if this is a program but this is what I felt. It was nothing but love and all it showed me was to give more love. It was Life to me. I realized I never learned to live by giving life or making life decisions I was living in a death mentality. I was searching for an answer and I allowed it to manifest in my day to day life and it did. It was very overwhelming and I stood at the door while I was going through it. I allowed it but it was terrifying that I had to really look at who I was. At this point I refuse to do anything from a death state "half empty" mentality. Rather I will stand with half full knowing that the glass is there. A friend of mine aided me through this and he told me something when I told him I am not the same person anymore. He said this does not happen overnight and he knows I haven't changed fully. He is correct because I have not started the physical (taking action) development of my will to be who I Am fully. So this is why I am back on this forum. I did not feel worthy to be here at first so I projected worthiness. Projected worthiness has no substance and eventually anyone can see through it. My importance is no greater than the next person and all must work towards what they need to. One of the things I realized going through this is I have be active in Life. Words mean nothing when it is not backed by action and so Life means nothing unless it is lived. I have just cruised through my life and barely made anything of it for anyone or myself. I don't even know if this is the right place for me as yet but I am not discounting it because what is here resonates within me. I am choosing to learn as much as I can here and anywhere else. If I am to move on I hope that I have helped everyone as much as I have been helped so far. For that I thank everyone.
To Laura
I understand as much as I can at this point of my Life and looking forward to understanding more. Before I saw your picture on your website years ago I knew what you looked like. Your work was one of the only things that resonated with me for a long time now. So one of the reasons I came to the forum was to have an interaction with yourself. I took a lot of things into consideration before I decided to do this. Your words although written was very powerful and I knew I would take into consideration what you had to offer. That is exactly what happened. For that I am truly thankful.
I would like to share something with everyone. This helped me a lot through this time in my life. It is from a movie called Coach Carter.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking,
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you
We were all meant to shine as children do
It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone
And as we let our own light shine
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same
As we are liberated from our own fear
Our presence automatically liberates others
----From the Movie: Coach Carter
Eon
My worthiness comes from knowing I was blessed with Life.
Life binds all things as it is a gift from the All.
As the All gives this gift I give this gift it is all I have to give.
As I give I will be replenished as Life which is Love
Love is not to be held unto but to be shared with all.
In this sharing we achieve the greatest virtue.
I am Life and Life is Love.
I am worthy.
