I've been wondering about sharing an observation.....it is potentially quite subjective, but its dawned on me that I've had the same observation in the past followed by a lot of life drama....having more clearly observed the same effect, and now having more drama crop up in my life (general law?) I want to share it before I forget it again.
My initial observation years ago (before sott) was to do with how my life seemed to have 'nothing happen'.....I was safe in a bubble of nothing....nothing bad...but nothing good. At that moment I could feel (hence the subjectivity) a literal bubble around me keeping 'all the bad in life' (so also 'all the good') from reaching me....I resolved to change its setting and allow life in. That day I met my now girlfriend and got involved with a heck of a lot of dramas (and promptly forgot about this observation).....it was like I'd opened the flood gates to life (and lessons).
My observation a few days ago (although I didn't make the connection to the first observation until now) expanded on the first. It was early morning and I could hear my dad in the bathroom getting ready for work. I'd been thinking recently how I tend to be overreactive to my parents emotional states...there emotional state carrying an unhealthy weight and impact on my own internal state. The analogy came to me of that of a cells membrane with receptors on. My understanding is that the receptors can change...and that they draw down from the outside of the cell when activated (my understanding is limited and perhaps inaccurate).
I then thought about projected emotions that others may project onto you......and I could again feel (hence subjective) a bubble around me with different sensations on it in relation to my father who was in the next room......
So my analogy (and I do wonder how literal it is?)....is that we are like cells (on some sort of energy level) that have receptors on there surface...and this is the mechanism by which things become distorted (too many 'dads emotions' receptors....to few 'empathic' receptors etc).
Perhaps this is the glowing golden egg of awareness that Carlos Castaneda talks about? I'm not sure having only read snippets on the forum.
Either way, once I could feel it I decided that it needs to be balanced.....I can't do anything if my input from the (emotional) world around me is faulty. It was interesting to note that it felt like it changed (and so far I don't seem to be taking my parents usual behaviour the same way as I use too).....I also noticed how many part of this I am completely oblivious too....like all my focus had been on one or two (painful) areas of input.
As to weather at some level there is a bubble of something....or perhaps its just my own mind represented as such I don't know......hopefully I'm not wondering off into delusions though (if I am please correct me).
One thing of note is that it does seem to have a 'set and forget' quality to it. You set the intentions and it just follows them. But given I've observed it only twice...perhaps there is to little data to say that for sure.
Perhaps this is of some use? If however I am wondering off into subjectivity though, I really would like to have my compass reset.
My initial observation years ago (before sott) was to do with how my life seemed to have 'nothing happen'.....I was safe in a bubble of nothing....nothing bad...but nothing good. At that moment I could feel (hence the subjectivity) a literal bubble around me keeping 'all the bad in life' (so also 'all the good') from reaching me....I resolved to change its setting and allow life in. That day I met my now girlfriend and got involved with a heck of a lot of dramas (and promptly forgot about this observation).....it was like I'd opened the flood gates to life (and lessons).
My observation a few days ago (although I didn't make the connection to the first observation until now) expanded on the first. It was early morning and I could hear my dad in the bathroom getting ready for work. I'd been thinking recently how I tend to be overreactive to my parents emotional states...there emotional state carrying an unhealthy weight and impact on my own internal state. The analogy came to me of that of a cells membrane with receptors on. My understanding is that the receptors can change...and that they draw down from the outside of the cell when activated (my understanding is limited and perhaps inaccurate).
I then thought about projected emotions that others may project onto you......and I could again feel (hence subjective) a bubble around me with different sensations on it in relation to my father who was in the next room......
So my analogy (and I do wonder how literal it is?)....is that we are like cells (on some sort of energy level) that have receptors on there surface...and this is the mechanism by which things become distorted (too many 'dads emotions' receptors....to few 'empathic' receptors etc).
Perhaps this is the glowing golden egg of awareness that Carlos Castaneda talks about? I'm not sure having only read snippets on the forum.
Either way, once I could feel it I decided that it needs to be balanced.....I can't do anything if my input from the (emotional) world around me is faulty. It was interesting to note that it felt like it changed (and so far I don't seem to be taking my parents usual behaviour the same way as I use too).....I also noticed how many part of this I am completely oblivious too....like all my focus had been on one or two (painful) areas of input.
As to weather at some level there is a bubble of something....or perhaps its just my own mind represented as such I don't know......hopefully I'm not wondering off into delusions though (if I am please correct me).
One thing of note is that it does seem to have a 'set and forget' quality to it. You set the intentions and it just follows them. But given I've observed it only twice...perhaps there is to little data to say that for sure.
Perhaps this is of some use? If however I am wondering off into subjectivity though, I really would like to have my compass reset.