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abeofarrell
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To be perfectly honest I have hesitated in regards to EE. I watched the videos and read everything I could find on EE but did not do it because my own practices in tai chi used pipe breathing and involved completely filling the lungs and emptying them as in EE, and I also do mediation. So I hesitated.
Well my parents have just gone home after spending 12 days with me here in Japan. As a result of self-observation I noticed many unconscious nervous habits and recalled similar actions throughout my life and so I asked my mother when and in what circumstances they started. She told me that it was after my grandfather passed away.
I clearly remember his passing. He lived in another city so when he died my parents left me with some neighbors and went to the funeral, my father telling me very simply what had happened and my mother too upset to talk. But you see I was extremely close to him. We are also very similar physically and emotionally. I did not mourn at all and did not understand. From that very day I started developing phobias. I also developed various nervous habits (noises, actions) which then led to being bullied at school until the end of high school and this also strongly affected my my whole outlook and attitude to life.
So I see his death as being a crux around which my personality developed. Negativity, paranoia, anxiety, fear, etc.
I can only see the need to work through the trauma of this past event if I am to have any progress in my battle with my false personality.
Looking at the EE data I can see many people said that it freed them from past traumas. Would I be correct in thinking that EE is the best way to go in working through this? My tai chi and mediation have never brought any emotional release as is mentioned on the EE pages.
SO I think it is time for me to start EE.
Also, if anyone else wants to comment in regards to what I am seeing in this situation then please do, I really really want to work through this whatever it takes. I can see no other way forward as I STILL manifest similar nervous behaviors and I can see so many related issues.
Thank you for listening.
I was not sure if this was the right place to mention this but I could not find a section titled "EE".
Well my parents have just gone home after spending 12 days with me here in Japan. As a result of self-observation I noticed many unconscious nervous habits and recalled similar actions throughout my life and so I asked my mother when and in what circumstances they started. She told me that it was after my grandfather passed away.
I clearly remember his passing. He lived in another city so when he died my parents left me with some neighbors and went to the funeral, my father telling me very simply what had happened and my mother too upset to talk. But you see I was extremely close to him. We are also very similar physically and emotionally. I did not mourn at all and did not understand. From that very day I started developing phobias. I also developed various nervous habits (noises, actions) which then led to being bullied at school until the end of high school and this also strongly affected my my whole outlook and attitude to life.
So I see his death as being a crux around which my personality developed. Negativity, paranoia, anxiety, fear, etc.
I can only see the need to work through the trauma of this past event if I am to have any progress in my battle with my false personality.
Looking at the EE data I can see many people said that it freed them from past traumas. Would I be correct in thinking that EE is the best way to go in working through this? My tai chi and mediation have never brought any emotional release as is mentioned on the EE pages.
SO I think it is time for me to start EE.
Also, if anyone else wants to comment in regards to what I am seeing in this situation then please do, I really really want to work through this whatever it takes. I can see no other way forward as I STILL manifest similar nervous behaviors and I can see so many related issues.
Thank you for listening.
I was not sure if this was the right place to mention this but I could not find a section titled "EE".
