Foxx
The Living Force
To start, I'm sorry if this topic is a dupe--it's broad enough that I searched around a bit but wasn't sure how I would locate a similar topic with such common keywords without digging through the whole forum manually. As well, I'm not sure if it makes more sense to be in The Work, or the "What's on your Mind" section, so I've posted in the latter to reduce potential noise. I imagine whether it belongs in The Work section will depend on what discussion, if any, forms as a result.
Earlier this summer while with a group of people I know, someone who was fairly new asked "does anybody else say 'we' when referring to themselves in their mind?"--no one else did, but I did, and was slightly surprised both to be the only one, and also encounter another one who did so. In fact, I've generally said "we" for the majority of my thoughts starting somewhere between one and two decades ago. The memory I have from when I began (being old it's possibly false, but feels accurate) is sitting on the toilet in the bathroom long ago and thinking something like "well, it's clear that there's more than one of us in here, so we might as well go by 'we'".
While I observed myself doing this for years, I never shared it with anyone (obvious stigmas of 'being crazy'--people generally think I'm crazy enough as it is, despite their chronic lack of research and introspection) and obviously always translated my thoughts into "I" form when speaking to others. The phenomenon goes a little deeper, though, especially having come to the beginnings of my esoteric studies. I don't exclusively refer to myself as "we" all the time, but sometimes I dialog within myself, sometimes being "I" (usually referring to my physical being and moving center), usually being "we", and sometimes hearing "you" to refer to "me", typically when I'm asking questions. As well, sometimes I can tell the different "I"s apart by how they sound (both in "voice" quality, how they use words, and what they talk about), and sometimes, perhaps, they may even go by "we", but "we" seems fairly consistent, though possibly with two primary roles as a more unified I and as a possible "higher self"/higher intellectual center.
There are times too, when I ask myself questions and, if I "keep myself quiet enough" (non-anticipate), get answers with potentially interesting meanings. I've been well aware that one's thoughts and emotions, manifesting as internal monolog, can be deceptive and, like all information, needs to be verified, for quite some time. But, at times, I've seen some predictions turn out true, gotten health advice (confirmed with research later), and had other potentially interesting things/commentary happen. I don't automatically believe the "answers" to any of "my" questions, nor have I for quite some time.
While I had no theoretical construct for what all this might mean before coming to The Work and the Cassiopaean materials, with such information potentially interesting results emerge.
One other thing, in a similar vein, is that when I was in either middle school or high school (based on physically where I remember this thought occurring) I was thinking about mind-reading without any obvious context (perhaps unconscious awareness) and I wondered to myself if I could "encrypt"--specifically the word I used--my thoughts. I think I imagined something like a brick wall going up around me/my mind. I have serious doubts that it worked, though I've read mentions of mental blocking in the Cs material with Laura and perhaps this concept is similar, but am curious if anyone else has had similar experiences/thoughts/etc?
I'm interested in any reflections others have regarding this, whether others have had any similar experiences or also refer to themselves in their internal monolog as "we", or what the internal monologs of other people are like in general. I'm not aware of much of a survey/general information on what people's internal monologs are like, in general.
Thanks!
Earlier this summer while with a group of people I know, someone who was fairly new asked "does anybody else say 'we' when referring to themselves in their mind?"--no one else did, but I did, and was slightly surprised both to be the only one, and also encounter another one who did so. In fact, I've generally said "we" for the majority of my thoughts starting somewhere between one and two decades ago. The memory I have from when I began (being old it's possibly false, but feels accurate) is sitting on the toilet in the bathroom long ago and thinking something like "well, it's clear that there's more than one of us in here, so we might as well go by 'we'".
While I observed myself doing this for years, I never shared it with anyone (obvious stigmas of 'being crazy'--people generally think I'm crazy enough as it is, despite their chronic lack of research and introspection) and obviously always translated my thoughts into "I" form when speaking to others. The phenomenon goes a little deeper, though, especially having come to the beginnings of my esoteric studies. I don't exclusively refer to myself as "we" all the time, but sometimes I dialog within myself, sometimes being "I" (usually referring to my physical being and moving center), usually being "we", and sometimes hearing "you" to refer to "me", typically when I'm asking questions. As well, sometimes I can tell the different "I"s apart by how they sound (both in "voice" quality, how they use words, and what they talk about), and sometimes, perhaps, they may even go by "we", but "we" seems fairly consistent, though possibly with two primary roles as a more unified I and as a possible "higher self"/higher intellectual center.
There are times too, when I ask myself questions and, if I "keep myself quiet enough" (non-anticipate), get answers with potentially interesting meanings. I've been well aware that one's thoughts and emotions, manifesting as internal monolog, can be deceptive and, like all information, needs to be verified, for quite some time. But, at times, I've seen some predictions turn out true, gotten health advice (confirmed with research later), and had other potentially interesting things/commentary happen. I don't automatically believe the "answers" to any of "my" questions, nor have I for quite some time.
While I had no theoretical construct for what all this might mean before coming to The Work and the Cassiopaean materials, with such information potentially interesting results emerge.
One other thing, in a similar vein, is that when I was in either middle school or high school (based on physically where I remember this thought occurring) I was thinking about mind-reading without any obvious context (perhaps unconscious awareness) and I wondered to myself if I could "encrypt"--specifically the word I used--my thoughts. I think I imagined something like a brick wall going up around me/my mind. I have serious doubts that it worked, though I've read mentions of mental blocking in the Cs material with Laura and perhaps this concept is similar, but am curious if anyone else has had similar experiences/thoughts/etc?
I'm interested in any reflections others have regarding this, whether others have had any similar experiences or also refer to themselves in their internal monolog as "we", or what the internal monologs of other people are like in general. I'm not aware of much of a survey/general information on what people's internal monologs are like, in general.
Thanks!
