Ravintsara
Padawan Learner
I have mixed feelings about cut real trees, but I got one last minute this year via a small charity organisation that supports children in Argentina and whose members are close friends. I heard they were on a round distributing their orders and I said I'd take one if there was any left unclaimed. They got me the most beautiful one. My daughter helped put the decorations on.
We like to keep it light and simple, because it's just beautiful by itself and it smells good and fresh.
I tend to have a hard time emotionally around this time of the year. My family members are scattered in different countries and they don't always like to see eachother for the holidays and it's too complicated to invite them over: long travel distance and expenses.
When I go and visit, it feels like hard work to me, ten hours driving, and I either feel like I'm not living up to someone's expectations or like I'm a burden to someone else.
I tend to just want to be home alone and by myself to avoid disappointing anyone, but then, my daughter wants to see family and cousins. And she also wants me to join her at her dad's place for Christmas dinner, even though we've been separated for a decade and he's not a charm to me the rest of the year, so I do it to please her. This tree and the little decorations are there to remind myself that we're enough, just the two of us, even when nobody's visiting or if we're not going anywhere and we can call this home, even though we've moved three times already and we're just renting here.
We like to keep it light and simple, because it's just beautiful by itself and it smells good and fresh.
I tend to have a hard time emotionally around this time of the year. My family members are scattered in different countries and they don't always like to see eachother for the holidays and it's too complicated to invite them over: long travel distance and expenses.
When I go and visit, it feels like hard work to me, ten hours driving, and I either feel like I'm not living up to someone's expectations or like I'm a burden to someone else.
I tend to just want to be home alone and by myself to avoid disappointing anyone, but then, my daughter wants to see family and cousins. And she also wants me to join her at her dad's place for Christmas dinner, even though we've been separated for a decade and he's not a charm to me the rest of the year, so I do it to please her. This tree and the little decorations are there to remind myself that we're enough, just the two of us, even when nobody's visiting or if we're not going anywhere and we can call this home, even though we've moved three times already and we're just renting here.
