Problems to control my anger.

[Cyrus Wallace]

Hi to all. :)

Yes, that's it. My whole life was like that, I get upset really quickly than average poeple. Since I was 11 when I had a car accident, I was for three months in a bed and then I had to learn to walk again. Since that, I got a lot of problems with my reactions. It's very frustrating to see myself acting like that when I can't do anything. When someone insists me, when I can't find something, when I feel under pression, when things don't result as I want them to result, when I'm really stressed, when "certain" (My mother and my young brother) people talk to me, etc.

However, those're part of my problem, since my reactions are horrible. I just try to yell, detroying some things or punching the wall and then, I start to cry. I didn't hurt people, I'd rather to be dead before that... :O when I cleared my rage, I start to think in more clearness. I'll go with an example of a situation that happened to me today:

-I was studying for two exams that I had today. My problem started when I wasn't able to understand my material then I felt very nervious. I felt a pain in my chest and I started to cry a little. That's when my rage appeared again and I kicked my bed while I was blaming myself for not being capable of understand what I was stuying. When I released that anger, I sit down to take my book again and I was able to understand every single word but AFTER I DID THAT "ANGER EPISODE"!-

What do I feel in those moments? I feel a pain in my heart, I feel my body with high temperature due the increment of blood pressure, I start to swet, to cry and becoming "blind". My body acts by itself, but I can see what I'm doing and I feel powerless for not being capable of controlling my reactions.

What do I feel after that? When my anger is over, I feel ashamed of myself and what I did. I didn't hurt anyone with that, though. I can't handle this "program", it's hard for me, I can't find it origin, I feel like a psychopath. it became a big obstacle in my learning process but I realized that I can't do it alone, I need help and that's why I posted it here. I feel like it's destroying myself.

Did I find some positive result? Yes, of course, when I release my anger, I can focus myself very easy when I study, for example. I can think with more clearness.

Did I find some negative results? I don't want to depend on that. I want to overcome that feeling. I don't want to hurt another people.

So, is there any dietary problem? Some time ago, I was told that I had lack of litium. The problem is that a so called "seer" that are supposed to be in contact with their high-selfs told me that. But I didn't go to a hospital. It happened... 4 years ago.

I've to admit that my life is not an example for anyone:

1- I don't have determinated sleep hours.
2- There're days that I don't eat anything since I forget it or because I wasn't hungry.
3- I don't eat red meat, I don't like trash food, I don't like artificial drinks. Just water and SOMETIMES (almost never) some beer.
4- I'm a coffee lover.
5- I don't smoke.
6- I love sugar.

About my body:

- My blood type is -0 (Negative 0/O).
- At the date, I had 4 stones in my kidneys.
- I have thyroid problems.
- Since I was a small boy that I have flu tendences.
- I don't tolerate the sun. My skin is very white but I'm concerned about K Vitamin.
- I'm very alergic, I don't tolerate the dust and the like.
- I'm very sensitive, I don't tolerate loud sounds or strong lights.
- Even so, It's hard to me to get infected by other sick people. I usually get sick when they're not and viceversa.
- I'm very skinny compared to my height: 123.458 lb and 180 cm.

If you could suggest me something, I will be very grateful since I don't know what to do anymore. Thanks for reading. :)

 

[RyanX]

I've to admit that my life is not an example for anyone:

1- I don't have determinated sleep hours.
2- There're days that I don't eat anything since I forget it or because I wasn't hungry.
3- I don't eat red meat, I don't like trash food, I don't like artificial drinks. Just water and SOMETIMES (almost never) some beer.
4- I'm a coffee lover.
5- I don't smoke.
6- I love sugar.

I think you've observed some pretty insightful things about yourself and I wouldn't doubt that some or all of these contribute to your condition.

1 - Yes, you need to regulate your sleep cycle. I had a hard time doing this before I realized I needed to sleep in absolute darkness. My bedroom has been close to a streetlight for years and once I sealed up the windows from light, my sleeping patterns improved immensely. Taking Melatonin supplements may also help you too, but you may want to check with a doctor.

2 - You must regulate your eating schedule as much as possible too. Plan it out, eat in intervals that work best for you. Try not to eat anything close to bedtime either - this may also effect 1

3 - Clean, non-fluoridated, non-chlorinated water is very good. Drink lots. Meat is good too if it comes from healthy animals. Your blood type seems likely to determine what or how much meat you must consume. Stay away from known allergens like lactose and gluten and anything artificial. There's a wealth of knowledge under the health and diet section to help guide you through this.

4 - Try not to consume coffee in the evening or anytime close to sleep - that gets back to 1

5 - I recently just started smoking regularly for the first time (being 29 years old). I'm currently going through a divorce which has been a roller coaster of emotions! I'd have to say there is nothing I've found better that helps me observe my anger and sadness than a full smoke. I sometimes feel like I can talk to my anger and reason with it in this state, whereas before I may have just blown up or said something stupid. Maybe try it out next time you're feeling an anger surge come on, you might notice a change. There is a post on the smoking healthy guidelines that may help you get started.

6 - You probably don't love sugar, but the microorganisms in your body REALLY do! Again, search through the health archives for advise. Candida loves sugar and I've been told parasites do too. Sugar + Caffeine can cause serious addictions, just as bad as any street drugs that I've seen. My ex-wife had this problem and I observed heroin-like withdrawal symptoms whenever she would try to quit. This is serious stuff!

I think most of this is just common sense. There might be other ways to deal with the anger episodes. Have you been following the latest transcripts regarding breathing exercises? This might help you release emotional blockages without resorting to explosive anger as well.

Ryan

 

[Renaissance]

Hi Cyrus,

RyanX has already provided a lot of great resources and I'd too recommend what he's laid out. I'm curious though, and this may be a silly question, but have you seen a doctor about this?

 

[theos]

Hi Cyrus,

Have you considered that you may have very high levels of heavy metals in your system? Heavy metal toxicity (i.e. lead, mercury, flouride) has been linked to episodes of rage. You also mentioned that you have thyroid problems and kidney stones. Flouride can damage the thyroid gland and mercury interferes with calcium (found in kidney stones) regulation causing a buildup of calcium in the cells.
You may want to check out this link on flouride poisoning. It mentions both kidney stones and thyroid problems. http://www.slweb.org/ftrcpossiblesymptoms.html

Do you drink fluoridated water? Use fluoride toothpaste? Have fluoride treatments at the dentist? Do you happen to have mercury amalgam fillings in your teeth? Check out this thread on detoxifying heavy metals http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=7765.0
Hope this info is helpful.

Cha

 

[Cyrus Wallace]

That was fast. Thank you so much!

1 - Yes, you need to regulate your sleep cycle. I had a hard time doing this before I realized I needed to sleep in absolute darkness. My bedroom has been close to a streetlight for years and once I sealed up the windows from light, my sleeping patterns improved immensely. Taking Melatonin supplements may also help you too, but you may want to check with a doctor.

It was like that my whole life. And yes, I can sleep almost 14 hours in absolute darkness but 6 hours when there's light. I just read about those hormones and I hope that they could help me :). I'll ask a doctor before, though. I used to drink a Valeriana pill before but it didn't help me at all. Ah, I almost forget, I need absolute silence to sleep too. Nevertheless, this last month I was trying to regulate my sleep cycle, but studies and personal problems didn't me allow me to do that. Once again, I'll try with those hormones.

2 - You must regulate your eating schedule as much as possible too. Plan it out, eat in intervals that work best for you. Try not to eat anything close to bedtime either - this may also effect 1

Yes! absolutely, I've been trying to fix that, but with my irregular sleep cycle it wasn't possible at all! But there's a problem, sometimes I'm not hungry at all... even in a whole day I may not eat anything. I've been wondering if I lack some vitamins for that.

3 - Clean, non-fluoridated, non-chlorinated water is very good. Drink lots. Meat is good too if it comes from healthy animals. Your blood type seems likely to determine what or how much meat you must consume. Stay away from known allergens like lactose and gluten and anything artificial. There's a wealth of knowledge under the health and diet section to help guide you through this.

I drink gasified mineral water and yes, I drink almost 3 lr. of water each day. You're asking me to change ALL my dietary habits I guess I could eat meat again, it's hard to avoid lactose since I love milk, cheese and it derivates but I could give it a try. I found this:

http://www.drlam.com/blood_type_diet/

I was eating vegetables since I should eat meat instead. Damn, I feel like an animal but if my body ask for that, then I will give it that. I also read that I should consume other minerals like magnesium for body cleansing, if I'm not wrong. Thanks for that link, it was really helpful. :)

4 - Try not to consume coffee in the evening or anytime close to sleep - that gets back to 1

I replace the caffeinated coffee and I looked for another type of coffee without caffeine. I hope can be a good solution, but should start to take tea, instead. =P

5 - I recently just started smoking regularly for the first time (being 29 years old). I'm currently going through a divorce which has been a roller coaster of emotions! I'd have to say there is nothing I've found better that helps me observe my anger and sadness than a full smoke. I sometimes feel like I can talk to my anger and reason with it in this state, whereas before I may have just blown up or said something stupid. Maybe try it out next time you're feeling an anger surge come on, you might notice a change. There is a post on the smoking healthy guidelines that may help you get started.

I didn't smoking in my whole life. I read C's session when they say that smoking would help my organism. I WAS SHOCKED when I readed that! But I should smoking cigarettes with pure tobacco, not manufactured cigarettes. Even so, I'm quite scared about that idea because I don't even know if my organism needs that. If I start to do so, there'll be a lot of people that would be in disagree and it means more problems for me.

I also readed Belibaste and dant's comments in that thread, those were a bif help for me. I guess that I should find out first if I need to smoking.

6 - You probably don't love sugar, but the microorganisms in your body REALLY do! Again, search through the health archives for advise. Candida loves sugar and I've been told parasites do too. Sugar + Caffeine can cause serious addictions, just as bad as any street drugs that I've seen. My ex-wife had this problem and I observed heroin-like withdrawal symptoms whenever she would try to quit. This is serious stuff!

OMG, I didn't know that. I just readed that info in Wikipedia (Spanish, I got hard times reading in english). I'll investigate more about that, thanks. :) I guess that I should LIMIT sugar and yes, I got quite anxious when I don't have sugar, hahaha!

I think most of this is just common sense. There might be other ways to deal with the anger episodes. Have you been following the latest transcripts regarding breathing exercises? This might help you release emotional blockages without resorting to explosive anger as well.

Yes, I did. What I didn't know was that they posted that already! I give it a "look" but... surprise!!! I don't speak english, I didn't understand ANY SINGLE WORD! I can read and write in english, but I difficult for me to HEAR english words. I'll wait for the finished video in which I hope Laura could include some subtitles. But, I tried some breathing excercises before and they helped me a lot. The problem is that when I'm angry, I forget to to that.

Thanks, Ryan, you were a big help for me. :)

 

[Cyrus Wallace]

I'm curious though, and this may be a silly question, but have you seen a doctor about this?

Hi, Los:

Well, that question has a interesting answer: No. :( Everytime I decide to go to see my doctor:

1- I forget.
2- Obligations.
3- No time enough!!! I hate it!
4- No money enough.

I'll try to go in my winter vacations (The next week) but I'm afraid that it could be hard since this weird flu is everywhere. It's all paralyzied. :(

Hi Cyrus,

Have you considered that you may have very high levels of heavy metals in your system? Heavy metal toxicity (i.e. lead, mercury, flouride) has been linked to episodes of rage. You also mentioned that you have thyroid problems and kidney stones. Flouride can damage the thyroid gland and mercury interferes with calcium (found in kidney stones) regulation causing a buildup of calcium in the cells.
You may want to check out this link on flouride poisoning. It mentions both kidney stones and thyroid problems. http://www.slweb.org/ftrcpossiblesymptoms.html

Hi, chachachick:

Now that you say, I used to drink a lot of milk, calcium and other minerals like iron since I was a child. I just readed that link and there are symptoms that I actually suffer.

Do you drink fluoridated water? Use fluoride toothpaste? Have fluoride treatments at the dentist? Do you happen to have mercury amalgam fillings in your teeth? Check out this thread on detoxifying heavy metals http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=7765.0
Hope this info is helpful.

Cha

I'm not sure about the water but yes, I use that toothpaste. All my molars were fixed by my dentist, you can say that all my mouth was made of metal. I could ask to my dentist to say me what material was used, because I don't have idea. I'll read that link tomorrow, my head is about to explode. :O

Thanks for your help, you guys. :)

 

[gotogo]

Yes, that's it. My whole life was like that, I get upset really quickly than average poeple. Since I was 11 when I had a car accident, I was for three months in a bed and then I had to learn to walk again. Since that, I got a lot of problems with my reactions. It's very frustrating to see myself acting like that when I can't do anything. When someone insists me, when I can't find something, when I feel under pression, when things don't result as I want them to result, when I'm really stressed, when "certain" (My mother and my young brother) people talk to me, etc.

I wonder if you investigated deeply what actually happened to you by the car accident since you "connected" your "problems to control your anger" and the car accident. Do you have access to this information? Can you ask your parents or doctor at that time? I am specially concerned if your "brain" is damaged or not. If it is the case, I think you should consult with a "good" professional. I don't know if you better first contact with psychologist or doctor though.

You said "I'll try to go (to see my doctor) in my winter vacations (The next week)" so maybe you can try to get the "car accident" information by then?

Do you know any "good" doctor or psychologist in your area?
I don't want to visit a "psychopathic" doctor or psychologist if I were you so.

 

[Tigersoap]

Hi to all. :)
Yes, that's it. My whole life was like that, I get upset really quickly than average poeple. Since I was 11 when I had a car accident, I was for three months in a bed and then I had to learn to walk again. Since that, I got a lot of problems with my reactions. It's very frustrating to see myself acting like that when I can't do anything. When someone insists me, when I can't find something, when I feel under pression, when things don't result as I want them to result, when I'm really stressed, when "certain" (My mother and my young brother) people talk to me, etc.

I may be way off with how I see all this, but maybe this is also related to narcissistic programs as well, all this unexpressed rage is building up inside of you because it wasn't allowed to be expressed as an infant and thus is allowed to be released outside of you at the slightest opportunity, even if the event that triggered that rage is totally minor.

I think that the rage is an expression of repressed feelings and instead of letting them happen naturally they have been twisted into a knot of snakes that cannot be controlled. Sadly it turns out to be devastating for the person who feels like this because the origin seems unknown and the blame and guilt trip is going to feed more rage in the end osit.

Along with the diet and the breathing exercise, reading the books on the recommanded list about narcissicism might help you to recall moments where you were denied/deny your true emotions about something.
Probably if you were to really listen to that rage and finding out where it really comes from it would turn into tears instead ?
Meanwhile, if you need to express that rage try not to hurt yourself unecessarily ;)
My two cents.

 

[RyanX]

You're welcome! I hope you take this stuff to heart. It sounds like your problems are layered like an onion. Rebuilding yourself physically and getting in predictable rhythms will give you strength to take the next step of dealing with any psychological problems. Body - Mind - Soul It has taken me years of of effort to get back to a solid state physically and a lot of what I learned I had to figure out the hard way. You have the benefit of this forum and the knowledge and networking therein.

I apologize in advance, I'm replying to most of these out of order.

Yes, I did. What I didn't know was that they posted that already! I give it a "look" but... surprise!!! I don't speak english, I didn't understand ANY SINGLE WORD! I can read and write in english, but I difficult for me to HEAR english words. I'll wait for the finished video in which I hope Laura could include some subtitles. But, I tried some breathing excercises before and they helped me a lot. The problem is that when I'm angry, I forget to to that.

You might want to keep an eye here for a transcribed version of the breathing exercises.

I didn't smoking in my whole life. I read C's session when they say that smoking would help my organism. I WAS SHOCKED when I readed that! But I should smoking cigarettes with pure tobacco, not manufactured cigarettes. Even so, I'm quite scared about that idea because I don't even know if my organism needs that. If I start to do so, there'll be a lot of people that would be in disagree and it means more problems for me.

I can understand your concern about smoking. I'm in a similar predicament. My health insurance will go up because of smoking and my family is likely to think I am crazy (if they didn't already before!) What matters is what works for YOU! Nobody can tell you how to live your life, you must discover your own path by networking and then experimenting yourself.

I was eating vegetables since I should eat meat instead. Damn, I feel like an animal but if my body ask for that, then I will give it that. I also read that I should consume other minerals like magnesium for body cleansing, if I'm not wrong. Thanks for that link, it was really helpful. :)

I too went through a period in my life when I didn't eat meat. Actually several. Even as a child, I remember being repulsed at seeing the meat in a McDonald's hamburger. Maybe I was just picking up something else from the intentions behind the fast food, but it really solidified the program that I didn't want to eat meat! I spent a period of a couple years where I really tried hard to be a vegetarian and this ended in disaster. I was stressed, strung-out, weak and could barely hold a stable thought towards the end. I swore at that point that I would reinstate meat in my diet, only this time get the best quality meats I can purchase. Luckily that isn't too hard to do where I live and I've found a great network of folks who feel the same way I do about wanting as pure a product as possible. Since then I haven't looked back.

I replace the caffeinated coffee and I looked for another type of coffee without caffeine. I hope can be a good solution, but should start to take tea, instead. =P

Tea is a good solution, but remember there is fluoride in green teas! There are plenty of herbal teas out there that can be just as tasty, although without the caffeine kick. Ginger tea is very good. I've read in some herbalist books that ginger tea is very good for the kidneys too. You'll have to experiment and find different blends that you enjoy.

Yes! absolutely, I've been trying to fix that, but with my irregular sleep cycle it wasn't possible at all! But there's a problem, sometimes I'm not hungry at all... even in a whole day I may not eat anything. I've been wondering if I lack some vitamins for that.

As far as not feeling hungry, do you snack often throughout the day? Even if the snack is just a small sugar drink or treat, it can have a large effect on throwing off your digestive rhythm. Be vigilant and aware of what is going in your body and when. Even if you don't eat three square meals a day, try to eat at least two, one upon waking and another later in the day sometime. Even if this just consists of smaller portions, getting on a set schedule will really let your body know what to expect from a typical day.

I drink gasified mineral water and yes, I drink almost 3 lr. of water each day. You're asking me to change ALL my dietary habits I guess I could eat meat again, it's hard to avoid lactose since I love milk, cheese and it derivates but I could give it a try. I found this:

You say you drink a lot of milk and cheese. How often do you have a bowel movement? You don't have to answer if that's too personal, but it's something to consider yourself. Before starting my dietary changes I usually drank some milk each day and often had cheesy snacks alike cheese sticks and pizza. I found out a couple years later that I am actually lactose intolerant! Nothing would have tipped me off other than the fact that I wasn't having regular bowel movements. This might be another cause of your lack of hunger. If your stomach is inflamed from having to digest all that lactose, it might feel "full". This is just my speculation based on my own personal experience. I would never feel so full after eating a pizza for instance and other cheesy meals were the same. Now I eat cheese rarely and the cheese I do it is usually goats cheese, which I've found I can tolerate better than anything from a cow. A doctor can give you tests to determine your tolerance to lactose.

Ryan

 

[RedFox]

Hi Cyrus Wallace

I had a thought about sleeping badly, stress and not wanting to eat. One thing that can help with all three is gentle excessive. A good 30 minute to hours walking at a reasonable pace (not slow and not running) may help with all three. This may also help with your anger levels :)

 

[JEEP]

Since I was 11 when I had a car accident, I was for three months in a bed and then I had to learn to walk again. Since that, I got a lot of problems with my reactions. It's very frustrating to see myself acting like that when I can't do anything.

When I read that, what came to mind was the possibility of head trauma. It would seem that an accident severe enough to confine you to bed for three months could have damaged your brain. There are many accounts of significant personality changes after an accident involving head trauma. One that I can think of is popular country singer, Barbara Mandrell. A wonderfully sweet, wholesome, loving mother and wife changed into a person spewing angry curse words at the very people she loved the most--all because of an auto accident. I know not whether this possibility has been explored as applies to you, but something to consider if not.

One thing I have learned from this forum and Sott.net is the importance of nutrition--good nutrition is essential to our well being, both physically, mentally, and I believe spiritually as well. The Diet and Health thread contains a wealth of information and also recipes. What I think you will find even more illuminating is the Health & Wellness section of Sott.net. Take the time to read through the archives--you will be astonished as to the information contained within it. It is so clear that the human race is under attack from every angle possible--our air, water, food are either filled with toxins or are being depleted of nutrients. Add to this the approved medical treatments that are in fact, treatments to benefit the big pharmaceutical companies at the cost of our health and very lives! Honestly, if you weren't angry already, reading this stuff will bring about the same reaction!

One simple step I would recommend as far as nutrition is taking Spirulina--I have the following links bookmarked:

http://www.naturalways.com/spirul1.htm
http://www.sott.net/articles/show/177093-Add-Spirulina-to-Your-Diet-and-Replace-those-Expensive-Supplements
http://www.naturalways.com/spirulina-analysis.htm

From the first link - "Spirulina is also unusual among algae because it is a "nuclear plant" meaning it is on the developmental cusp between plants and animals. It is considered somewhat above plants because it does not have the hard cellulose membranes characteristic of plant cells, nor does it have a well-defined nucleus. Yet its metabolic system is based on photosynthesis, a process of direct food energy production utilizing sunlight and chlorophyll, which is typical of plant life forms.

In essence, Spirulina straddles that fork in evolutionary development when the plant and animal kingdoms differentiated. Thus it embodies the simplest form of life."

From the third link - "Spirulina is approximately 65 to 71 percent protein, depending on growing conditions. These proteins are biologically complete, which means they provide all eight essential amino acids in the proper ratios. Most plant foods are not complete proteins because they usually lack one or more amino acids.

Unfortunately, the body cannot store amino acids in anticipation of deficient ones eventually arriving in subsequent meals. To synthesize protein for the body's repair and maintenance, all dietary protein factors must be present simultaneously or the amino acids are wasted.

Furthermore, even if complete protein is consumed, digestive difficulties can prevent assimilation of all needed elements. Spirulina provides all the required amino acids, and in a form that is five times easier to digest than meat or soy protein.

Spirulina supplies ten of the twelve non-essential amino acids. "Non-essential" does not mean that these amino acids are not needed by the body, but merely indicates that the body can synthesize them itself if it needs to do so, provided the appropriate nutritional building blocks are available. Nevertheless, the body is better served if these excellent protein components are readily and totally available in dietary sources, since all the amino acids must be on hand as the cells manufacture enzymes, proteins, hormones, brain chemicals and the other products of metabolism. Of the thousands of biochemical substances acting and interacting in the human body, not one is derived from a vacuum; the body is ultimately dependent upon nutrient intake for all of its functions."

There is one other substance that surpasses Spirulina--Cannabis!

From http://www.sott.net/articles/show/188142-The-Emperor-Wears-No-Clothes - "Cannabis hempseeds contain all the essential amino acids and essential fatty acids necessary to maintain healthy human life. No other single plant source provides complete protein in such an easily digestible form, nor has the oils essential to life in as perfect a ratio for human health and vitality."

Of course, acquiring Cannabis, depending on your situation, may or may not be problematic! As to Spirulina and its fatty acids:

"It is probably hard to imagine that a concentrated source of nutrients such as Spirulina is not also loaded with fats, starches and calories. Amazingly, Spirulina is only 7 percent lipid, and most of that is in the form of essential fatty acids that promote cholesterol normalization. The essential fatty acids sometimes called vitamin F, include linoleic, linolenic and arachidonic acid. They are used by the body to manufacture Prostaglandins, the hormonal regulators of blood pressure and capillary resilience."

I have begun taking Spirulina and feel that it has helped with depression, lack of energy, reduced hunger with resulting weight loss (nothing dramatic, but slow, gradual), better sleep, and normalized bowel function and some improvement of other gastric problems - gerd/heartburn. I think that's a lot from one simple change.

Also, you should look into the blood type diets - _http://www.dadamo.com/yourbloodtype.htm. I'm an O+, so I would think what works for me would not work for you.

Another issue is dairy. Some people believe the problem is pasteurized dairy and that these problems do not exist with raw milk products. The fact that raw milk is illegal in most states gives credence to me of the validity of this claim! I have read of people attesting to the benefits of raw milk. The verdict is still out on this one.

There's tons of info available - you just have to sort through it and find what applies to you! Just remember, you are not alone! Perhaps hundreds of people are in the same boat as you also looking for help. Connect - network - learn!

 

[Hildegarda]

I confess that I also have anger problems

Proper sleep and nutrition, which had already been mentioned, are definitely very important. I sleep with a "siesta mask" (a cloth eye covering, smth like this: \\\http://www.americarx.com/admin/ARXPRODUCTIMAGES/FImages/Flents/227280.jpg). This gets around any lighting issues in the room that you may have. Very cheap and available in most pharmacies.

Eating regularly may even be more important for you than eating correctly, at this point. I too often forget to eat. By the time I remember to do it, I am starving, miserable, and nasty, just from the blood glucose level dropping too low, I suspect. Of course then I naturally reach out to what will fix it most quickly, which is, something sweet. This is how erratic eating habits may contribute to poor food choices. All nutrition books recommend aiming for 3 meals + 2 snacks a day. Make them small but regular.

Re: breathing technique, Vulcan has posted a written transcript of Laura's audio. It should make it easier for a non-native speaker to understand the lecture and the direction. I think those breathing exercises are GREAT for anger issues, if you "self-remember" and start doing them just as you feel you are beginning to freak out.

Lastly, there is definitely this:

when I can't find something, when I feel under pressure, when things don't result as I want them to result, when I'm really stressed, when "certain" (My mother and my young brother) people talk to me, etc.

There are two parts in this.

First, a big realization for me was that a lot of the above is about control, of feeling that you should have it but instead lack it. Learning not to be too hang up on the result of what you are doing, not to feel that you are responsible for everything and everyone, and not assuming that you are here to change other people, goes a long way towards alleviating anger.

And second, sometimes we ARE too stressed, too overburdened with responsibilities, surrounded by people who bug us or even by people who are wrong for us. I realized that my temperament is not such that can withstand such pressure consistently. Perhaps I am not strong or resilient enough, even. At any rate, at least I can study myself, know what I can reasonably withstand, and only take on this much. Certainly better than taking on an armload of stuff and then, in a way, attacking other people in anger, covertly blaming them for me not being able to manage it.

This too is related to the work on getting in touch with yourself, similar to understanding your past emotional experiences, but this one is on the level of the body. Not knowing whether you are hungry or not, and then fueling up on sugar and caffeen is another aspect of the same disconnect from your body's needs. It is simple, really.

Whether your accident and the resulting injuries have anything to do with your personality, is hard to say. The good news is, the brain can be retrained and can compensate. In this respect it's not different from some who doesn't have a past injury -- getting rid of a hard-wired habit is the same kind of tedious brain-reprogramming. There is no magic bullet, I am afraid, otherwise I would have already found it ... but, one step at a time, I hope I'll get there.

 

[Bobo08]

Hi Cyrus,

Have you read Deep Therapy in the Fast Lane and tried Laura's recent breathing exercise? I think they would be useful for you.

 

[Vladimir]

Hi to all. :)

Yes, that's it. My whole life was like that, I get upset really quickly than average poeple. Since I was 11 when I had a car accident, I was for three months in a bed and then I had to learn to walk again. Since that, I got a lot of problems with my reactions. It's very frustrating to see myself acting like that when I can't do anything. When someone insists me, when I can't find something, when I feel under pression, when things don't result as I want them to result, when I'm really stressed, when "certain" (My mother and my young brother) people talk to me, etc.

However, those're part of my problem, since my reactions are horrible. I just try to yell, detroying some things or punching the wall and then, I start to cry. I didn't hurt people, I'd rather to be dead before that... :O when I cleared my rage, I start to think in more clearness. I'll go with an example of a situation that happened to me today:

-I was studying for two exams that I had today. My problem started when I wasn't able to understand my material then I felt very nervious. I felt a pain in my chest and I started to cry a little. That's when my rage appeared again and I kicked my bed while I was blaming myself for not being capable of understand what I was stuying. When I released that anger, I sit down to take my book again and I was able to understand every single word but AFTER I DID THAT "ANGER EPISODE"!-

What do I feel in those moments? I feel a pain in my heart, I feel my body with high temperature due the increment of blood pressure, I start to swet, to cry and becoming "blind". My body acts by itself, but I can see what I'm doing and I feel powerless for not being capable of controlling my reactions.

What do I feel after that? When my anger is over, I feel ashamed of myself and what I did. I didn't hurt anyone with that, though. I can't handle this "program", it's hard for me, I can't find it origin, I feel like a psychopath. it became a big obstacle in my learning process but I realized that I can't do it alone, I need help and that's why I posted it here. I feel like it's destroying myself.

Did I find some positive result? Yes, of course, when I release my anger, I can focus myself very easy when I study, for example. I can think with more clearness.

Did I find some negative results? I don't want to depend on that. I want to overcome that feeling. I don't want to hurt another people.

So, is there any dietary problem? Some time ago, I was told that I had lack of litium. The problem is that a so called "seer" that are supposed to be in contact with their high-selfs told me that. But I didn't go to a hospital. It happened... 4 years ago.

I've to admit that my life is not an example for anyone:

1- I don't have determinated sleep hours.
2- There're days that I don't eat anything since I forget it or because I wasn't hungry.
3- I don't eat red meat, I don't like trash food, I don't like artificial drinks. Just water and SOMETIMES (almost never) some beer.
4- I'm a coffee lover.
5- I don't smoke.
6- I love sugar.

About my body:

- My blood type is -0 (Negative 0/O).
- At the date, I had 4 stones in my kidneys.
- I have thyroid problems.
- Since I was a small boy that I have flu tendences.
- I don't tolerate the sun. My skin is very white but I'm concerned about K Vitamin.
- I'm very alergic, I don't tolerate the dust and the like.
- I'm very sensitive, I don't tolerate loud sounds or strong lights.
- Even so, It's hard to me to get infected by other sick people. I usually get sick when they're not and viceversa.
- I'm very skinny compared to my height: 123.458 lb and 180 cm.

If you could suggest me something, I will be very grateful since I don't know what to do anymore. Thanks for reading. :)

HI CW,

I understand your problems, since I went through almost the same thing with anger/rage/wrath. This occupies heart region, as
you know, and in Christian Psychology this is produced by Sotona himself. Anger in myself, as well as in others, comes
when our infantile part doesn't get what he wants. It is child or maybe even some other "I" of the Personality. One
way or another, this exist almost in every of us. Some has other demons more dominant and you obviously has this
one as "trick" so get your self necessary evolution and development toward God - or whatever you might call it.
Of course you don't like this part of your self and you wish to repress it or even be a shame of it. You don't really
want to accept this idea in yourself. This is anger comes even more stronger, the Sotona is playing with you, and
in order to master your life, you need to learn how to play with Devil ,with your anger, and you can do it, not
ower one night, but rather in series of necessary experiences in order to grow. First step is to see how your mind
your "Self-Criticizing" Parent is molesting you, then step by step you will learn how to dance with a Devil. Read the
Reality in order to find clues. Since, you will learn that to dance with a devil, you need something more, smth else,
that comes, in moment of suffering.... If you have more questions, you can reach me with PM...

All Best!
;D

 

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If you have more questions, you can reach me with PM...

Hello Vladimir,

Private messages are not really encouraged for obvious reasons explained in this thread :

http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=11216.0

Thank you.