A couple of days after the Russian meteor in February this year (or denatured comet as the C’s termed it) I did my usual full EE program (have been doing EE weekly for a year or more, with beneficial results) which, despite feeling a bit depressed and irritable beforehand, felt naturally calming and quite uneventful. I just had my usual ear ringing and tingling sensation. Afterwards however, as I sat quietly, the significance of the Russian meteor really hit me. I began to have the sudden realisation that although I had read nearly all I could from Laura/SOTT, pertaining to the subject - it was/is really happening!!! I became aware, in a vague dreamy state, of a version of ‘me’ clawing at the earth with sheer desperation to dig a hole and hide. I did not ‘feel’ the terror that would lead to this primitive, animalistic survival response, and felt quite calm observing this (Ironically, I keep meaning to post a thread on Sacred Shelters for Soul Communities - earth change mitigating, really affordable, community built. Inspired by Intelligent Design not fear based survivalist thinking. A reminder perhaps?!)
Anyway, a month ago I attended my first group meet up, which was great and we ended the weekend doing EE. It never occurred to me that a group session may well ‘amplify’ any possible sensations/experiences, and I felt completely relaxed doing it. Immediately afterwards though I felt cold and shivery. However as soon as I left to drive home I began shaking uncontrollably, and for the entire 3 hour journey there was no respite. I have never experienced anything like it before, I felt scared and vulnerable (I never ‘thought’ to pull over and at least belly breath or try pipe breathing). Fortunately the roads were quite clear and I stayed in the slow lane, hunched over, praying constantly for a safe journey home. Eventually I got back and crawled into bed, sweaty and shaky, and fell into a very deep, long sleep. I felt really shaken up, disassociated and fatigued for well over a week afterwards.
I felt it may have been a ‘healing crisis’ of sorts, sudden onset of flu (I did later develop a cough - perhaps the result of my trying to smoke that weekend though - and some aching) or PTSD episode. Although I have experienced a huge outpouring of grief from a probable past life before, ‘survivors guilt’ (under hypnosis I saw the burnt remains of the Indian village, where my family and community lived and assumed it was from a deliberate act of arson. I didn’t know about ’fire from the sky’ at that time, so that is a possibility too, and I remain open minded yet healthily sceptical) it wasn’t until I came across a similar thread (PTSS may stem from guilt more than fear of death or injury) that it occurred to me that, via EE, possibly the Russian meteor had triggered some ‘primal fear’ of cometary threats or I may have experienced another past-life ‘flash back’?
Evolutionary psychology
Mammals generally display several defensive behaviors roughly dependent on how close the threat is: avoidance, vigilant immobility, withdrawal, aggressive defense, appeasement, and finally complete frozen immobility (the last possibly to confuse a predator's attack reflex or to simulate a dead and contaminated body). PTSD may correspond to and be caused by overactivation of such fear circuits. Thus, PTSD avoidance behaviors may correspond to mammal avoidance of and withdrawal from threats. Heightened memory of past threats may increase avoidance of similar situations in the future as well as be a prerequisite for analyzing the past threat and develop better defensive behaviors if the threat should reoccur. PTSD hyper arousal may correspond to vigilant immobility and aggressive defense.
Posttraumatic stress disorder - Wikipedia
As always, ‘knowledge protects’. I am not qualified to make a self diagnosis on whether or not I suffered an episode of PTSD (although I recognise some symptoms) and don’t know even if it was, if there is a definite connection to past life experiences. But, that’s what it felt like.
Kind of makes one wonder how the vast majority of folk out there (without any knowledge of cyclical catastrophes, EE, diet, psychology etc), will respond to unexpected and potentially terrifying celestial events or triggered memories of them, and the consequences thereof. Immobilized (frozen) or aggressive I suspect.
Maybe it was the cumulative effect of repeated viewing of recent cometary and meteor videos, repeated reading of related historical and scientific books and articles, striving to do the Work etc, that gave me the ‘window of opportunity’ to experience the ‘shock’ that I needed?
Shocks are necessary for man to be shaken out of his normal state of complacency. Special conditions are needed for man to gain moments of a different consciousness and these conditions involve internal friction and shocks.
If the little I's inside one are never shaken, never made to have friction with each other or to move against one another, these will never be noticed. Shocks are necessary first for one to become conscious of this internal multiplicity and later to forge unity out of the multitude.
In this sense, a shock is anything that evokes an emotional reaction. Often this reaction is subjectively seen as disagreeable but this is not always so.
To gain consciousness or mastery over the self, shocks are necessary. They are both a wake-up call and a test and the light whereby one can see the self. By being repeatedly shocked one can build knowledge of self and control over its mechanical reactions.
Another meaning of the word shock has to do with the Law of Seven. All processes are octaves and there are two shocks in the octave, one between the notes Mi and Fa and another between the Si of the preceding and the Do of the next octave. A special influx of energy or shock is needed for the octave to continue its progress over these special intervals.
In 4th Way work, the activities of self-remembering and transformation of negative emotion have to do with providing shocks helping the psychic metabolism to do its work.
Shocks - Cass glossary
Essentially, I really wanted to learn and understand about comets and cyclical catastrophes but it required effort. A little ‘I’ was probably quite content engaging in a ‘safer’ intellectual type ‘learning’ process, as the knowledge of such events and their consequences, can be more than a little ‘uncomfortable’! I only mention this as a reminder. From reading about other folks’ experiences, I can more readily observe my own ‘self calming’ tendencies, which can be quite subtle.
This is the process of pushing aside thoughts or emotions that are uncomfortable.
This is a pervasive characteristic of the human condition and is found at many levels.
In the most basic sense, self-calming takes place when one rationalizes and self-justifies actions or inactions which one is not comfortable with. This amounts to putting one's conscience to sleep. This action is opposed to consciousness or conscience and is a way of furthering sleep. Systematic self-calming makes buffers.
However, the more complex forms of self-calming go far beyond simply excusing one's behavior because one was lazy/tired/drunk/in lust/under some other mechanical influence or because everybody does the same thing or because the human is imperfect.
In a spiritual sense, self-calming can take many forms of denying reality. Blind belief in a fundamentalistic deity can be an extremely potent agent of self-calming. It is apt to rationalize murder, genocide, pillage and rape. No human debasement is such that the committed true believer could not do it if the hypnosis of blind belief is potent enough.
A still subtler form of this is found in some practices that seek to induce a state of spiritual bliss as an end in itself. In these practices, self-calming hides behind the noble goal of seeking contact with 'higher realities.' A lot of the New Age talk about 'space brothers' being here to save us or that all is right with the world or that one only needs to think nice to have a nice world are agents of self-calming.
Much of pop psychology teaches ways of self-calming.
In all its forms, self-calming promotes subjectivity and further divides the personality from reality as well as promotes the further factionalization of little I's.
Man cannot function in a state of abject horror. Therefore some means of emotional regulation are necessary. The human organism is wired to naturally provide these through mechanisms of dissociation, repressing memories and so forth. These are to a degree necessary for life in the world.
The division between what is self-calming and what is a survival response is not always clear cut. Generally, self-calming is done for comfort and with a degree of deliberateness, even if self-calming itself were rationalized as yet something else, whereas trauma responses are automatic and in real time.
Self-calming - Cass glossary
Personally the main discernable result of this recent ’shock’ (PTSD or whatever) is that I feel an increased (I am not getting complacent) sense of psychological ‘preparedness’ for ‘something evil this way comes‘ - the ‘doozie‘ and its ‘friends‘ as the C‘s recently stated. I am also speaking about these celestial threats more openly, rationally yet sensitively with my children and others (with strategic enclosure and external considering), and it has given me much needed focus again, networking and DOing. Although I am not feeling ’fear’ as such consciously , this experience was a reminder of how essential and powerful EE actually is, particularly when dealing with our unknown subconscious (perhaps on many other levels too?) issues; and our deepest, darkest ‘primal fears’.
Session 28 November 2009
[...] (I**) What about these New Agey people who are so excited about the wave without any knowledge about it. And there is kind of anticipation...
A: If they want to surf the wave they must work to get ready, they must do the EIRIU EOLAS program to get in synch. A lot of little personal wavelets or ripples won't change anything. That is what 4D STS knows and why they seek to engender divisiveness. It is also not worth the risk of being smashed by hidden negative emotions, so best to get on with getting them cleared. Better safe than sorry!!!![/i]
Anyway, a month ago I attended my first group meet up, which was great and we ended the weekend doing EE. It never occurred to me that a group session may well ‘amplify’ any possible sensations/experiences, and I felt completely relaxed doing it. Immediately afterwards though I felt cold and shivery. However as soon as I left to drive home I began shaking uncontrollably, and for the entire 3 hour journey there was no respite. I have never experienced anything like it before, I felt scared and vulnerable (I never ‘thought’ to pull over and at least belly breath or try pipe breathing). Fortunately the roads were quite clear and I stayed in the slow lane, hunched over, praying constantly for a safe journey home. Eventually I got back and crawled into bed, sweaty and shaky, and fell into a very deep, long sleep. I felt really shaken up, disassociated and fatigued for well over a week afterwards.
I felt it may have been a ‘healing crisis’ of sorts, sudden onset of flu (I did later develop a cough - perhaps the result of my trying to smoke that weekend though - and some aching) or PTSD episode. Although I have experienced a huge outpouring of grief from a probable past life before, ‘survivors guilt’ (under hypnosis I saw the burnt remains of the Indian village, where my family and community lived and assumed it was from a deliberate act of arson. I didn’t know about ’fire from the sky’ at that time, so that is a possibility too, and I remain open minded yet healthily sceptical) it wasn’t until I came across a similar thread (PTSS may stem from guilt more than fear of death or injury) that it occurred to me that, via EE, possibly the Russian meteor had triggered some ‘primal fear’ of cometary threats or I may have experienced another past-life ‘flash back’?
Evolutionary psychology
Mammals generally display several defensive behaviors roughly dependent on how close the threat is: avoidance, vigilant immobility, withdrawal, aggressive defense, appeasement, and finally complete frozen immobility (the last possibly to confuse a predator's attack reflex or to simulate a dead and contaminated body). PTSD may correspond to and be caused by overactivation of such fear circuits. Thus, PTSD avoidance behaviors may correspond to mammal avoidance of and withdrawal from threats. Heightened memory of past threats may increase avoidance of similar situations in the future as well as be a prerequisite for analyzing the past threat and develop better defensive behaviors if the threat should reoccur. PTSD hyper arousal may correspond to vigilant immobility and aggressive defense.
Posttraumatic stress disorder - Wikipedia
As always, ‘knowledge protects’. I am not qualified to make a self diagnosis on whether or not I suffered an episode of PTSD (although I recognise some symptoms) and don’t know even if it was, if there is a definite connection to past life experiences. But, that’s what it felt like.
Kind of makes one wonder how the vast majority of folk out there (without any knowledge of cyclical catastrophes, EE, diet, psychology etc), will respond to unexpected and potentially terrifying celestial events or triggered memories of them, and the consequences thereof. Immobilized (frozen) or aggressive I suspect.
Maybe it was the cumulative effect of repeated viewing of recent cometary and meteor videos, repeated reading of related historical and scientific books and articles, striving to do the Work etc, that gave me the ‘window of opportunity’ to experience the ‘shock’ that I needed?
Shocks are necessary for man to be shaken out of his normal state of complacency. Special conditions are needed for man to gain moments of a different consciousness and these conditions involve internal friction and shocks.
If the little I's inside one are never shaken, never made to have friction with each other or to move against one another, these will never be noticed. Shocks are necessary first for one to become conscious of this internal multiplicity and later to forge unity out of the multitude.
In this sense, a shock is anything that evokes an emotional reaction. Often this reaction is subjectively seen as disagreeable but this is not always so.
To gain consciousness or mastery over the self, shocks are necessary. They are both a wake-up call and a test and the light whereby one can see the self. By being repeatedly shocked one can build knowledge of self and control over its mechanical reactions.
Another meaning of the word shock has to do with the Law of Seven. All processes are octaves and there are two shocks in the octave, one between the notes Mi and Fa and another between the Si of the preceding and the Do of the next octave. A special influx of energy or shock is needed for the octave to continue its progress over these special intervals.
In 4th Way work, the activities of self-remembering and transformation of negative emotion have to do with providing shocks helping the psychic metabolism to do its work.
Shocks - Cass glossary
Essentially, I really wanted to learn and understand about comets and cyclical catastrophes but it required effort. A little ‘I’ was probably quite content engaging in a ‘safer’ intellectual type ‘learning’ process, as the knowledge of such events and their consequences, can be more than a little ‘uncomfortable’! I only mention this as a reminder. From reading about other folks’ experiences, I can more readily observe my own ‘self calming’ tendencies, which can be quite subtle.
This is the process of pushing aside thoughts or emotions that are uncomfortable.
This is a pervasive characteristic of the human condition and is found at many levels.
In the most basic sense, self-calming takes place when one rationalizes and self-justifies actions or inactions which one is not comfortable with. This amounts to putting one's conscience to sleep. This action is opposed to consciousness or conscience and is a way of furthering sleep. Systematic self-calming makes buffers.
However, the more complex forms of self-calming go far beyond simply excusing one's behavior because one was lazy/tired/drunk/in lust/under some other mechanical influence or because everybody does the same thing or because the human is imperfect.
In a spiritual sense, self-calming can take many forms of denying reality. Blind belief in a fundamentalistic deity can be an extremely potent agent of self-calming. It is apt to rationalize murder, genocide, pillage and rape. No human debasement is such that the committed true believer could not do it if the hypnosis of blind belief is potent enough.
A still subtler form of this is found in some practices that seek to induce a state of spiritual bliss as an end in itself. In these practices, self-calming hides behind the noble goal of seeking contact with 'higher realities.' A lot of the New Age talk about 'space brothers' being here to save us or that all is right with the world or that one only needs to think nice to have a nice world are agents of self-calming.
Much of pop psychology teaches ways of self-calming.
In all its forms, self-calming promotes subjectivity and further divides the personality from reality as well as promotes the further factionalization of little I's.
Man cannot function in a state of abject horror. Therefore some means of emotional regulation are necessary. The human organism is wired to naturally provide these through mechanisms of dissociation, repressing memories and so forth. These are to a degree necessary for life in the world.
The division between what is self-calming and what is a survival response is not always clear cut. Generally, self-calming is done for comfort and with a degree of deliberateness, even if self-calming itself were rationalized as yet something else, whereas trauma responses are automatic and in real time.
Self-calming - Cass glossary
Personally the main discernable result of this recent ’shock’ (PTSD or whatever) is that I feel an increased (I am not getting complacent) sense of psychological ‘preparedness’ for ‘something evil this way comes‘ - the ‘doozie‘ and its ‘friends‘ as the C‘s recently stated. I am also speaking about these celestial threats more openly, rationally yet sensitively with my children and others (with strategic enclosure and external considering), and it has given me much needed focus again, networking and DOing. Although I am not feeling ’fear’ as such consciously , this experience was a reminder of how essential and powerful EE actually is, particularly when dealing with our unknown subconscious (perhaps on many other levels too?) issues; and our deepest, darkest ‘primal fears’.
Session 28 November 2009
[...] (I**) What about these New Agey people who are so excited about the wave without any knowledge about it. And there is kind of anticipation...
A: If they want to surf the wave they must work to get ready, they must do the EIRIU EOLAS program to get in synch. A lot of little personal wavelets or ripples won't change anything. That is what 4D STS knows and why they seek to engender divisiveness. It is also not worth the risk of being smashed by hidden negative emotions, so best to get on with getting them cleared. Better safe than sorry!!!![/i]
