TheSpoon
Jedi
About 16 months ago I wrote a post where I said that I'd been caught having an online affair and that as part of a full disclosure a number of behaviours came to light that - when seen together for the first time - made it clear to both me and my wife that I had a sex addiction and needed help.
She found an online resource __www.RecoveryNation.com which was a godsend for several reasons:
1. We were in the middle of a move to a non-English speaking country at the time so there was little chance of finding a local marriage counsellor who spoke English, never mind them having any specific experience of sex addiction.
2. The site also provides resources (workshops and support forums) for Partners and Couples
3. The site's basic tools are free
4. The site also offers paid-for coaching which includes reviewing course submissions and one-to-one coaching calls, eg via Skype.
The addiction recovery programme consists of 73 lessons (most of which include some written exercise) and 15 additional topics. It took me 7 months to complete these, and I remain part of their online discussion forum where I try to help out people currently working through the course.
The partner's healing program consists of about 50 lessons, again with a supportive forum staffed by volunteers. The addiction recovery and partner's healing forums are part of the same board, but cross posting between the two is discouraged.
Most of the addicts in recovery on that site have issues with pornography and masturbation. I think most young men these days (from a poll of my friends) think that such things are 'normal' and that there's nothing wrong with them. I've not tried changing anyone else's opinion on the subject yet, but I'm very clear about the damage it's done to me and my marriage. We initially used some Parental Controls software, but the site warns about the use of such a crutch and I took on the responsibility for monitoring my own websurfing soon after. Which is interesting, especially on a website like YouTube where a panel of thumbnails is offered. I have to ask myself "am I drawn to that thumbnail because it looks funny/interesting or because there's an attractive woman in it?". As long as the question is asked, the direction to follow is clear.
Around the same time I started the program there, I also deleted my Facebook account which I found to be helpful. All these thoughts that pop into my head during the day I'm now sharing with my wife, instead of broadcasting them to the world - looking for that quick "attention hit".
Much of the focus in the site could be applied to any addiction. The original author saw addiction as a flawed method for dealing/avoiding unpleasant emotions; addiction as emotional mis-management.
The introduction to the site makes it clear that it sees itself as being quite distinct from a traditional 12 step program in that it puts the responsibility for recovery solely in the hands of the addict, and sees the end goal of recovery as "A healthy life" rather than a successfully managed addiction.
Something I've been very grateful about in this process of being caught, fully disclosing and working through my addition is that I've been given the opportunity to address a wide range of character faults that my wife was 'saying nothing about' because I sort of made up for them in other areas. Making things all about me, being selfish, sulking when I didn't get my way, getting highly distressed when I received criticism. So that's all come out into the open now, and - I think - much progress has been made.
I hope the above doesn't come over like I'm advertising. I had a problem, I found a resource, I found it helpful and I think it could help others in a similar situation. Laura said:
She found an online resource __www.RecoveryNation.com which was a godsend for several reasons:
1. We were in the middle of a move to a non-English speaking country at the time so there was little chance of finding a local marriage counsellor who spoke English, never mind them having any specific experience of sex addiction.
2. The site also provides resources (workshops and support forums) for Partners and Couples
3. The site's basic tools are free
4. The site also offers paid-for coaching which includes reviewing course submissions and one-to-one coaching calls, eg via Skype.
The addiction recovery programme consists of 73 lessons (most of which include some written exercise) and 15 additional topics. It took me 7 months to complete these, and I remain part of their online discussion forum where I try to help out people currently working through the course.
The partner's healing program consists of about 50 lessons, again with a supportive forum staffed by volunteers. The addiction recovery and partner's healing forums are part of the same board, but cross posting between the two is discouraged.
Most of the addicts in recovery on that site have issues with pornography and masturbation. I think most young men these days (from a poll of my friends) think that such things are 'normal' and that there's nothing wrong with them. I've not tried changing anyone else's opinion on the subject yet, but I'm very clear about the damage it's done to me and my marriage. We initially used some Parental Controls software, but the site warns about the use of such a crutch and I took on the responsibility for monitoring my own websurfing soon after. Which is interesting, especially on a website like YouTube where a panel of thumbnails is offered. I have to ask myself "am I drawn to that thumbnail because it looks funny/interesting or because there's an attractive woman in it?". As long as the question is asked, the direction to follow is clear.
Around the same time I started the program there, I also deleted my Facebook account which I found to be helpful. All these thoughts that pop into my head during the day I'm now sharing with my wife, instead of broadcasting them to the world - looking for that quick "attention hit".
Much of the focus in the site could be applied to any addiction. The original author saw addiction as a flawed method for dealing/avoiding unpleasant emotions; addiction as emotional mis-management.
The introduction to the site makes it clear that it sees itself as being quite distinct from a traditional 12 step program in that it puts the responsibility for recovery solely in the hands of the addict, and sees the end goal of recovery as "A healthy life" rather than a successfully managed addiction.
Something I've been very grateful about in this process of being caught, fully disclosing and working through my addition is that I've been given the opportunity to address a wide range of character faults that my wife was 'saying nothing about' because I sort of made up for them in other areas. Making things all about me, being selfish, sulking when I didn't get my way, getting highly distressed when I received criticism. So that's all come out into the open now, and - I think - much progress has been made.
I hope the above doesn't come over like I'm advertising. I had a problem, I found a resource, I found it helpful and I think it could help others in a similar situation. Laura said:
And elsewhere (couldn't find a quote?) she said that this site wasn't set up to deal with serious psychological issues that would be better suited to a psychiatrist or counsellor. So in terms of dealing with such issues, should one have to deal with them, I hope my experience detailed here might be of some help.Laura said:As Gurdjieff said, you can't come to The Work unless you are already a good obyvatel [householder]