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The Living Force
I had a very scary experience on Sunday night which I'll delve into here. My insomnia is still intermittent, and on that night I was having real trouble getting off to sleep. Quite often I've noticed that there's a lot of internal chatter in my brain when I'm trying to nod off, and there were a lot of racing thoughts in my mind that night. Anyway, I think I must have been semi-asleep by about 3am when suddenly I was roused from my slumber by a terrifying noise. From what I can recollect from the experience, it was triggered by some part of my internal dialogue as I slept. I was patching things up with my inner child as it happens, because "he's" been moody and irascible because I no longer play video games. In fact I gave them up about 8 years ago, but he's complained about this a lot over time.
Numerous times I've explained my position on the matter; video games are, in the main, killing/murder simulators where ultra-violence is the common theme. I calmly explained that I'm a middle-aged man now, and I no longer find them interesting or entertaining to play. Often I can hear my younger self in my mind, I recognise my childhood voice (he sounds more Welsh than my current accent, funnily enough), all moaning and pleading for me to get back into playing those damn games. Anyway, on this night I was calmly explaining in my internal chatter that it's not going to happen, so "you may as well grow up about it". This triggered a further cycle of thoughts, where I marvelled at the fact that there's a part of my 51 year-old self who's never grown up. I can't understand it, it just seems crazy to me. My inner child went quiet after I ranted for a bit, and in conclusion I explained to him that I still loved him, but times have changed. Then the scary stuff happened.
I suddenly, in my semi-sleep state, was aroused by a dark shadowy figure emerging from within me, and it unleashed a godawful shrieking, roaring sound. It went on for about a few minutes. It sounded like a dinosaur screaming at full pelt. I had to really fight to wake myself up from this; I could see the dark figure in my mind, and also, very weirdly, in my sleep state I was no longer in my bed, I was ensconced in the old trees in my back garden! Now this was VERY weird, as we had those trees cut down for safety reasons about 15 years ago. But here I was, in the trees battling what I figured to be a 4d STS entity, who had latched onto my inner child due to his/my interest in violent video games. After a few minutes I woke up, very much dazed and confused by the event. Thankfully I was in my bed, and I calmed myself down and took a melatonin tablet to chill out and get back to sleep. It's been on my mind since then though, so I thought I'd log the experience down for posterity and further reflection here. I'll never forget the shrieking roar that came from that dark figure! It really unsettled me, that blood-curdling roar!
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I think my inner child gets the picture now at least! Violent video games (actually all video games) are not only a waste of time, they can attract dark entities attracted to the low FRV that they elicit in the games player. I got a much better night's sleep last night, with no further weirdness to report. I thought I'd log the experience down though, because it was undoubtedly one of the scariest things I've ever experienced. Thanks for reading.
Numerous times I've explained my position on the matter; video games are, in the main, killing/murder simulators where ultra-violence is the common theme. I calmly explained that I'm a middle-aged man now, and I no longer find them interesting or entertaining to play. Often I can hear my younger self in my mind, I recognise my childhood voice (he sounds more Welsh than my current accent, funnily enough), all moaning and pleading for me to get back into playing those damn games. Anyway, on this night I was calmly explaining in my internal chatter that it's not going to happen, so "you may as well grow up about it". This triggered a further cycle of thoughts, where I marvelled at the fact that there's a part of my 51 year-old self who's never grown up. I can't understand it, it just seems crazy to me. My inner child went quiet after I ranted for a bit, and in conclusion I explained to him that I still loved him, but times have changed. Then the scary stuff happened.
I suddenly, in my semi-sleep state, was aroused by a dark shadowy figure emerging from within me, and it unleashed a godawful shrieking, roaring sound. It went on for about a few minutes. It sounded like a dinosaur screaming at full pelt. I had to really fight to wake myself up from this; I could see the dark figure in my mind, and also, very weirdly, in my sleep state I was no longer in my bed, I was ensconced in the old trees in my back garden! Now this was VERY weird, as we had those trees cut down for safety reasons about 15 years ago. But here I was, in the trees battling what I figured to be a 4d STS entity, who had latched onto my inner child due to his/my interest in violent video games. After a few minutes I woke up, very much dazed and confused by the event. Thankfully I was in my bed, and I calmed myself down and took a melatonin tablet to chill out and get back to sleep. It's been on my mind since then though, so I thought I'd log the experience down for posterity and further reflection here. I'll never forget the shrieking roar that came from that dark figure! It really unsettled me, that blood-curdling roar!
.I think my inner child gets the picture now at least! Violent video games (actually all video games) are not only a waste of time, they can attract dark entities attracted to the low FRV that they elicit in the games player. I got a much better night's sleep last night, with no further weirdness to report. I thought I'd log the experience down though, because it was undoubtedly one of the scariest things I've ever experienced. Thanks for reading.
