Request for Support

[momo]

Hello,

I've been reading and researching here and on the web, but I feel I would need some support on my health - my energy is leaving me more and more.

I've been over-working, and am on a sick-leave now.
I'm a typical case of Mother - Theresa - Syndrome (Actually, my daughters name IS Theresa ;) ) and can't get my limits right.

On the day after her birth, I started having a severe, ongoing Tinnitus (more than 14 years ago).
I learnt to cope with it, and have two more children now.
My Children, husband, studies and my jobs (three different, very challenging ones) have kept me going on, and I've been trying to look after myself - but this is always the last thing on my list and is filled with catholic-imprinted self-denial worries (long tradition of confusion in the family regarding religion).

Last February, my head and neck were traumatised by a car-accident.
This lead to a serious set-back with my tinnitus, including acute hearing loss (only for 30 seconds at a time).
And it has made my neck very weak (I have quite soft tenants, so it was stressed out before).
I've been complaining about lower-back pain, but have not noticed a higher frequency of toilet-visits.
Now it turns out my bladder is seriously infected with various germs etc.
According to my doctor, I wasn't even supposed to be able to walk upright.
Additionally, my blood test shows a slight hyperthyreosis.

He prescribed antibiotics, and for the Tinnitus - cortisol.

I feel I have no choice to take this now, but: I am ready.
I am really ready now.
I've been part of this forum for a while, reading a lot, and it has been a revelation.

I have now bought Primal Body, Primal Mind and will start reading it.
I have made a list out of the many threads on supplements and am trying to make the best sense of it for myself.
I want to buy the colloidal silver maker I found on your website.
I am saving money to get a Far-Infrared Device.

(Sorry, for starting "I" so often, it makes me cry to think of myself first, but it is necessary now.)

Please, can you accompany me out of this?

momo

 

[momo]

PS: I've been doing EE on a not-too-regular basis, and it has made me feel better. But I think I didn't do it often/well enough.

 

[LQB]

Hi momo - sorry to hear about all these things building to such a crescendo - but maybe this is a good opportunity to reorient yourself through diet/detox, EE, and the cognitive science material/books. Sounds like you recognize some of the self-destructive programs at play.

On the bladder, you might try D-mannose as an alternative to the antibiotics. If you go with the antibiotics, you might want to add a good broad spectrum probiotic to limit gut damage.

On diet, you should read the Life Without Bread and Ketogenic Diet threads - if you haven't already. The PBPM book is invaluable too. Getting some good meat/bone broth daily would be a very good start to modifying your diet. Make the modifications slowly and be aware of possible reactions and adjustments (see PBPM and the threads mentioned). You may want to add some detox elements to your approach depending on your diet/exposure history. Expect some speed bumps along the diet road and be careful not to go "all out" too fast.

Maybe take some time and reorient your outlook/inlook by reading some of the cognitive science threads and the books discussed there. Give yourself plenty of time for recovery and adjustment to new approaches you discover. From what you've related, it sounds like you need to slow down and address the things that seem to drive self-destructive tendencies.

Regular EE can help a lot with all aspects of the above, so if you can get to a regular pattern of practice - that would be very good.

I'm sure others will have more suggestions.

 

[Nook]

sorry to hear about all these things building to such a crescendo

Well put. I'm sorry to hear about your ever-increasing troubles.

Regular EE can help a lot with all aspects of the above, so if you can get to a regular pattern of practice - that would be very good.

I'm sure others will have more suggestions.

Yes, doing EE regularly - twice a week - should help improve your situation.

Also, have you looked into DMSO yet?

 

[momo]

Hi momo - sorry to hear about all these things building to such a crescendo - but maybe this is a good opportunity to reorient yourself through diet/detox, EE, and the cognitive science material/books. Sounds like you recognize some of the self-destructive programs at play.

Hello again and THANK YOU, LQB!

Yes! I've been working a lot, trying to live by high standards of ethics towards others, and neglected my physical center completely. I can only now that the acute infection - which I didn't even feel (just thought I'm getting older... ) - is going down realize, how much this obscurely weakened body has fogged my mind.

On the bladder, you might try D-mannose as an alternative to the antibiotics. If you go with the antibiotics, you might want to add a good broad spectrum probiotic to limit gut damage.

Thank you for the tip, I have a good probiotic combination, and have been eating a specific yogurt that should help. But what I actually want to achieve after this treatment is not to need antibiotics any more. I relied on doctors, without checking facts myself.

About the D-Mannose: I have researched it, and since my bladder is infected with a lot of different bacteria and such, according to the test result - is it true that the D-Mannose is only affecting e.coli?
I found this info here (sorry, is in German, but the picture is universal...): _http://mannose.de/index.html

On diet, you should read the Life Without Bread and Ketogenic Diet threads - if you haven't already. The PBPM book is invaluable too. Getting some good meat/bone broth daily would be a very good start to modifying your diet. Make the modifications slowly and be aware of possible reactions and adjustments (see PBPM and the threads mentioned). You may want to add some detox elements to your approach depending on your diet/exposure history. Expect some speed bumps along the diet road and be careful not to go "all out" too fast.

I have read them, and they are invaluably precious, and I do want to understand and read with critical thinking.
But my strength is limited, and I forget easily (very foggy brain, people around me have been noticing, but I couldn't get it), and when I want to bookmark a certain reply in a post, it bookmarked the post and shows it from the beginning.
I have now realized that links to replies are possible, so I am beginning to collect them in a text document. It makes me feel much better to get a hold of this issue. ;)
For now, it was not only difficult to follow, but to find a consistent way of changing my - and ultimately our - habits here in daily life. (There is this nice allegory of the Grand Canyon: at its source, it easily changes direction, the further down the stream, the tougher changes are... And I am beginning to understand that a high impact (allegorically an earthquake) can be beneficial for changing direction)

And - silly - I have not bought the books PBPM, Detoxify or Die up until the point that my doctors reaction to my physical situation mirrored where I need to look next.

I've done a nice bone broth from calve bones - it has already helped me, I think.

Thank you for the advise of not taking it too fast!

It is very good to network, and I hope this thread is helpful to others, too - and not noise...
greetings, momo

Maybe take some time and reorient your outlook/inlook by reading some of the cognitive science threads and the books discussed there. Give yourself plenty of time for recovery and adjustment to new approaches you discover. From what you've related, it sounds like you need to slow down and address the things that seem to drive self-destructive tendencies.

Thank you! I'm trying to do that. My doctor wants to send me on six weeks sick leave, but one of the three things I do for a living is our family company, and I am much needed there...
But I also think most of my condition comes from that, so I will have to rethink this, too.

I've been reading the Wave, and almost all of the material on the Cassiopeian Website, along with a lot of material linking from and to it, since I joined this forum, and have been reading ISOM and The Psychology of Man’s Possible Evolution, as well as Comets and the Horns of Moses.
Now I begin to realize, that I got the concept of STO mixed up with the program of serving others, neglecting myself - even though I've been telling others to do otherwise.

Regular EE can help a lot with all aspects of the above, so if you can get to a regular pattern of practice - that would be very good.

Very much so, I'll try to allow this. I've been thinking that I'm so irreplaceable - especially for the children - that I now realize how I've conditioned them (or should I say: programmed them) to circle everything they do around me, and that was why up to now (my youngest is 4 years old) it wasn't possible to get an hour of solitude in a house full of family.

sorry to hear about all these things building to such a crescendo

Well put. I'm sorry to hear about your ever-increasing troubles.

Regular EE can help a lot with all aspects of the above, so if you can get to a regular pattern of practice - that would be very good.

I'm sure others will have more suggestions.

Yes, doing EE regularly - twice a week - should help improve your situation.

Also, have you looked into DMSO yet?

Thank you, Nuke - I had looked into it and am now rereading. Have also found a source in Austria - but no idea if it is a good one. How to know?
_http://www.merciful-trading.at/index.php?option=com_virtuemart&Itemid=211
redirected from
_http://blog.viciente.at/dmso-bei-schmerzen-schwellungen-entzundungen-und-vieles-mehr/

 

[momo]

The greeting was meant for the end, s-o-r-r-y:

It is very good to network, and I hope this thread is helpful to others, too - and not noise...
greetings, momo

 

[anka]

It is very good to network, and I hope this thread is helpful to others, too - and not noise...
greetings, momo

Yes it is, momo. In many ways, no doubt. Stay focused, strong and thanks very much for sharing! :)

 

[Renaissance]

I was wondering if Tinnitus might have some root in Candida (since the yeast from Candida can bring about ear problems) , and sure enough a search brings up lots of results connecting the two. Candida can play a big role in bladder infection too. A ketogenic diet will go a long way in helping to clear that up, but there are additional protocols in the referenced Candidia thread that you can follow as well. Antibiotics may clear it up too, but you'll want to make sure you are strict with diet as taking antibiotics can cause an explosion of candida growth afterwards if your eating grains, carbs and sugar.

If you're having energy issues I'd also suggest looking into liposomal vitamin c (there's a thread here), as that will help loads while getting through the fog. I think the liposomal C would also help a lot with the infection too. Many have found it helpful to make on their own since it's much less expensive, and there's a method discussed in the thread to make it rather potent as well.

 

[Ennio]

Maybe take some time and reorient your outlook/inlook by reading some of the cognitive science threads and the books discussed there. Give yourself plenty of time for recovery and adjustment to new approaches you discover. From what you've related, it sounds like you need to slow down and address the things that seem to drive self-destructive tendencies.

Thank you! I'm trying to do that. My doctor wants to send me on six weeks sick leave, but one of the three things I do for a living is our family company, and I am much needed there...
But I also think most of my condition comes from that, so I will have to rethink this, too.

I fully agree with what LQB says above. Six weeks leave can be an extremely valuable thing for you to take right now. It seems like you have a huge amount of things on your plate, momo and now is your chance to address your self in ways you have neglected for a long time!

If not now, when?

I've been reading the Wave, and almost all of the material on the Cassiopeian Website, along with a lot of material linking from and to it, since I joined this forum, and have been reading ISOM and The Psychology of Man’s Possible Evolution, as well as Comets and the Horns of Moses.
Now I begin to realize, that I got the concept of STO mixed up with the program of serving others, neglecting myself - even though I've been telling others to do otherwise.

A must-read for you I think is Dr. Gabor Mate's When the Body Says NO: Exploring the Stress - Disease Connection. It discusses just this issue you mention in some depth.

 

[LQB]

On the bladder, you might try D-mannose as an alternative to the antibiotics. If you go with the antibiotics, you might want to add a good broad spectrum probiotic to limit gut damage.

Thank you for the tip, I have a good probiotic combination, and have been eating a specific yogurt that should help. But what I actually want to achieve after this treatment is not to need antibiotics any more. I relied on doctors, without checking facts myself.

About the D-Mannose: I have researched it, and since my bladder is infected with a lot of different bacteria and such, according to the test result - is it true that the D-Mannose is only affecting e.coli?
I found this info here (sorry, is in German, but the picture is universal...): _http://mannose.de/index.html

My understanding is that the bacteria gain a hold on the bladder lining and that D-mannose can break this hold so that they pass with the urine as they should. This should work with the bacteria that "stick" this way. Its certainly worth a try.

You might want to ditch the yogurt and stick with the probiotics or good naturally fermented kraut. If the yogurt is pasteurized, the denatured proteins can really cause the body much harm. Even the raw versions can create many problems.

I have read them, and they are invaluably precious, and I do want to understand and read with critical thinking.
But my strength is limited, and I forget easily (very foggy brain, people around me have been noticing, but I couldn't get it), and when I want to bookmark a certain reply in a post, it bookmarked the post and shows it from the beginning.
I have now realized that links to replies are possible, so I am beginning to collect them in a text document. It makes me feel much better to get a hold of this issue. ;)

Good idea - sometimes I'll copy good posts or portions directly into a document so I'll have key stuff in one place.

I've done a nice bone broth from calve bones - it has already helped me, I think.

Good! Keep it going. :)

Added: I think you should pay special attention to Ennio's post above.

 

[TheLostBoy]

Momo, I'm sorry, but I do not have any advice that I can offer other than I believe EE is beneficial 'across the board', so to speak and should help.

Not really being much help to you aside, I just wanted to say that I appreciated you sharing part of your story here with us, I think it's great that you called out to the Forum for help (and love seeing more experienced/knowledgeable members assisting) and that my thoughts and 'prayers' go out to you in your health challenges, for whatever its worth.

Glad to see you are strongly seeking to get better. Hang in there!

 

[momo]

Hello again,

busy and powerless me with the foggy brain and the three bubbling children (no school today)...
I've spent a lot of time reading - and the motivation comes from deep inside of me, but is fueled by you all. I cannot thank you all enough for what is here, and for your encouragement.

So far, I am still not able to conclude how exactly to continue, but I am getting closer.
For now, while developing the plan, I'll be having bone broth, beef, lamb, blueberries, buckwheat, dried cranberries, dried plums, sunflower seeds, sauerkraut and nuts. And a cup of coffee or two. Plus the wonderful herbal teas we have here.
In this Thread http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,10823.0.html, I read about how to De-Tox - and it feels I could add what is on the food list, too.
I don't feel like yogurt anymore - thank you LQB, you pointed me to that.

Do you think this plan is too tough? LQB, you mentioned that I shouldn't go all out too fast, do you think this is too fast?

Regarding supplements/treatment:
At the pharmacy today, I asked for D-Mannose but the pharmacist just looked at me like I'm from another planet. She looked it up in her system, and did find it, but wasn't ready to order it for me because I didn't answer the question: "Did your doctor recommend this?" with "Yes."
I called another pharmacy in Germany, and have been able to order it from there.
Is it correct to use two tablespoons in a glass of water and wait for an hour at least without drinking or eating?

Now, regarding the Candida (thank you, Shane, for pointing it out): I did have a long-lasting problem with it, and might still have it - given that I couldn't even feel a servere bladder inflammation. I do notice, now, that you brought my attention to it, that this might be the case.
I will try to do the LVit-C myself, for I have not found it available here yet.

Additionaly, in this thread:
http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,30683.0.html
I found very useful up-to-date info - and was wondering if I should take Siedegrenzbenzin in addition to Liposomal Vitamin C? And in what dosage?
Or do I need to be sure I have Candida in my system through testing before (I can't even remember if it was part of the long list of "inhabitants" in my bladder my doctor read to me last week)?
I remember my grandma talking about it, but it can only be bought in art-supply stores now, it seems - and that makes me feel a little weary...

My feeling is I should use it now, and later start getting more familiar with the colloidal silver and the DMSO later, what do you think?
It seems both are harder to get here, and I guess over-doing it will not be beneficial?

Additionally, I will do what is recommended by Laura here to fill up my magnesium levels: _http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,10823.msg77026.html#msg77026

The so-called "magic oil" is pretty darn expensive. However, you can get the same effect by getting magnesium chloride from an agricultural supply place (or where they sell it to put on the roads when it is snowing) and add it to your bath and soak for 30 minutes or so or just make a foot soak out of it.

Ennio, thank you for the book recommendation - I found it here _http://www.amazon.com/When-Body-Says-Stress-Disease-Connection/dp/0470923350 and will look for the paperback in my local bookstore.

EE rocks, so much I know for sure. It is the reason I can write this now. ;)

6 weeks of sick-leave do seem long to me, but I am slowly waking up to see how much I would need them... Lets see how it comes...

Thankfully,
momo

 

[LQB]

Do you think this plan is too tough? LQB, you mentioned that I shouldn't go all out too fast, do you think this is too fast?

You should only go at a speed that corresponds to your understanding of the material here and in PBPM. The general process is to cut out all grains/gluten and dairy. Then raise your fat (animal) slowly as you decrease the carbs, and bring protein into the range of .8-1.0 gm/kg (body weight) [bone broth is a key part too]. The process is laid out in the Ketogenic Diet thread as well as an array of possible bumps in the road that many of us have noted. It sounds to me like you haven't read all the material or you haven't absorbed it. I know its a lot but it is necessary to take the time to understand it for both yours and the forum's sake.

I know its difficult to try to do all of this reading/research in the middle of not feeling well and trying to recover at the same time, but there is really no other choice. There isn't one single approach or "menu" that works for everyone. You need to get in touch with your body and feel its needs as you go along.

Regarding supplements/treatment:
At the pharmacy today, I asked for D-Mannose but the pharmacist just looked at me like I'm from another planet. She looked it up in her system, and did find it, but wasn't ready to order it for me because I didn't answer the question: "Did your doctor recommend this?" with "Yes."
I called another pharmacy in Germany, and have been able to order it from there.
Is it correct to use two tablespoons in a glass of water and wait for an hour at least without drinking or eating?

That sounds like a lot but look at the bottle when you get it - it should have some suggested dosage. The bottle I have says 1tsp - suggested - so 2 tsp to start should be fine. Psyche posted a quote about D-Mannose here: http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,29899.msg385271.html#msg385271. And yes, I would take it away from food to get it into the bladder as quickly as possible.

6 weeks of sick-leave do seem long to me, but I am slowly waking up to see how much I would need them... Lets see how it comes...

Maybe time well-spent to get your diet under control and plenty of good reading and breathing! :)

 

[Nancy2feathers]

Hi momo. I just wanted to mention deep tissue massage. I read in your 1st post that you were in a car accident. I too was injured in a car accident some years ago. I suffered with a tear in my right rotator cuff and ended up with very little range of motion. I could only lift my arm waist high. I found an excellent massage therapist that I committed going to once a week. My body felt traumatized from the accident. It felt like my muscles were locked up. The relief and healing that I received from the body work changed my life and I am forever grateful to my now friend and massage therapist.

The body work healed my shoulder. It was a painful process. I went with the body work rather than having surgery. I didn`t have health insurance at the time to cover a hospital bill. But there wasn`t any guarantee the surgery would fix it.
Even more so the body work healed the trauma from the accident.

I`m only mentioning this to you because body work can be healing on so many levels. If you`re interested there is a thread on body work that Spiraling Out has posted. I know you have a lot of information given to you. I hope you find what you need to restore your health and well being.

 

[momo]

Do you think this plan is too tough? LQB, you mentioned that I shouldn't go all out too fast, do you think this is too fast?

You should only go at a speed that corresponds to your understanding of the material here and in PBPM. The general process is to cut out all grains/gluten and dairy. Then raise your fat (animal) slowly as you decrease the carbs, and bring protein into the range of .8-1.0 gm/kg (body weight) [bone broth is a key part too]. The process is laid out in the Ketogenic Diet thread as well as an array of possible bumps in the road that many of us have noted. It sounds to me like you haven't read all the material or you haven't absorbed it. I know its a lot but it is necessary to take the time to understand it for both yours and the forum's sake.

I know its difficult to try to do all of this reading/research in the middle of not feeling well and trying to recover at the same time, but there is really no other choice. There isn't one single approach or "menu" that works for everyone. You need to get in touch with your body and feel its needs as you go along.

Yes, you are right - I haven't really absorbed it well enough. My energy level is quite low. But I am recovering, and I do understand that it is my responsibility to find my way out of it.

Regarding supplements/treatment:
At the pharmacy today, I asked for D-Mannose but the pharmacist just looked at me like I'm from another planet. She looked it up in her system, and did find it, but wasn't ready to order it for me because I didn't answer the question: "Did your doctor recommend this?" with "Yes."
I called another pharmacy in Germany, and have been able to order it from there.
Is it correct to use two tablespoons in a glass of water and wait for an hour at least without drinking or eating?

That sounds like a lot but look at the bottle when you get it - it should have some suggested dosage. The bottle I have says 1tsp - suggested - so 2 tsp to start should be fine. Psyche posted a quote about D-Mannose here: http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,29899.msg385271.html#msg385271. And yes, I would take it away from food to get it into the bladder as quickly as possible.

6 weeks of sick-leave do seem long to me, but I am slowly waking up to see how much I would need them... Lets see how it comes...

Maybe time well-spent to get your diet under control and plenty of good reading and breathing! :)

Thank you, I am now able to accept the six weeks, which I wasn't before - believing I had to function.

Hi momo. I just wanted to mention deep tissue massage. I read in your 1st post that you were in a car accident. I too was injured in a car accident some years ago. I suffered with a tear in my right rotator cuff and ended up with very little range of motion. I could only lift my arm waist high. I found an excellent massage therapist that I committed going to once a week. My body felt traumatized from the accident. It felt like my muscles were locked up. The relief and healing that I received from the body work changed my life and I am forever grateful to my now friend and massage therapist.

The body work healed my shoulder. It was a painful process. I went with the body work rather than having surgery. I didn`t have health insurance at the time to cover a hospital bill. But there wasn`t any guarantee the surgery would fix it.
Even more so the body work healed the trauma from the accident.

I`m only mentioning this to you because body work can be healing on so many levels. If you`re interested there is a thread on body work that Spiraling Out has posted. I know you have a lot of information given to you. I hope you find what you need to restore your health and well being.

Good to hear how the body work helped you recover, Nancy2feathers!

And thank you, I have read a lot of Spiral Outs posts, and have found a Rolfing specialist, I will see her tomorrow.

I'll keep working on several "frontlines", taking responsibility more and more.

Thanks again for being there!

Greetings,
momo