Romantic Fiction, Reality Shaping and The Work
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“The Law of One book 5, pages 110,
Questioner: Can you tell me the most appropriate method in attempting to alleviate the instruments physical problems?
Ra: I am Ra. The basic material has been covered before concerning the nurturing of this Instrument. We recapitulate: the exercise according to ability, not to exceed appropriate parameters, the nutrition, the social intercourse with companions,
the sexual activity in green ray or above, and in general, the sharing of the distortions of this group’s individual experiences in an helpful, loving manner
These things are being accomplished with what we consider great harmony, given the density in which you dance. The specific attention and activities, with which those with physical complex distortions may alleviate these distortions, are known to this instrument.”
For me, the Ra-Material is not easy to understand.
So, the meaning of “method to alleviate the physical problems.”
All I can think about it means that ‘if person truly love other person from one’s own heart/green ray, then that sexual activity with the person would able to cure physical problems?’
Maybe someone can interpret better way
Questioner: Can you tell me the most appropriate method in attempting to alleviate the instruments physical problems?
Ra: I am Ra. The basic material has been covered before concerning the nurturing of this Instrument. We recapitulate: the exercise according to ability, not to exceed appropriate parameters, the nutrition, the social intercourse with companions,
the sexual activity in green ray or above, and in general, the sharing of the distortions of this group’s individual experiences in an helpful, loving manner
These things are being accomplished with what we consider great harmony, given the density in which you dance. The specific attention and activities, with which those with physical complex distortions may alleviate these distortions, are known to this instrument.”
For me, the Ra-Material is not easy to understand.
So, the meaning of “method to alleviate the physical problems.”
All I can think about it means that ‘if person truly love other person from one’s own heart/green ray, then that sexual activity with the person would able to cure physical problems?’
Maybe someone can interpret better way
Hay Ark, I know my wife would want me to give my ALL to a full day of windows, bathrooms, and floors!
She says floorplay is better than foreplay! 
I'm thinking that sex energy is being used up with housework! As long as the house is messy I do not have to worry about an ALL nighter.
So, for whatever reason, Untouched did hit close to home enough for me to dissociate...into one of the sex scenes, of course. Without going into a lot of graphic details, my sexual arousal was so hyperstimulated by the scene that was depicted, I was so "into it," that when the couple reached their final climax I was on the edge. When I finished I felt liberated, and after a brief period of rest I felt more vivacious and seated in my body. It was unlike almost all previous sessions doing...that...where I'd come to regard it as a necessary expellation of fluids on par with defecation and felt drained afterwards. So there was that, for what it's worth.
As for the rest of these replies... I'll start here:
The next 3 posts deal with drive#1 and base urges.
It is said that at a certain level of understanding we gain the ability to choose our suffering and this is why I am rather aggressive about pre-screening any potential mates. I've observed too much from watching other people take on non-collinear relationships to risk another heartbreak which I quite possibly won't survive. For awhile I didn't want to meet anyone at all and just hoped it would all go away. The person has to be involved in some version of what we do here, a Castaneda or Marciniak follower would probably be close enough, but I don't have much appetite for taking risks on more or less random people. Then if we had similar ideals and no major lifestyle conflicts, I would give it a chance. Otherwise, things continue on more or less as they always have. I'll survive and there's more important things to worry about.
As for the present reality, so many things would have to come together in just the right way that I see the odds as rather long. I seem to have a lot of "needs," and I don't see why I should think to burden someone else with them. If someone wanted to take them on fine, but unless you're just some super altruistic person, why would you? I can deal with my own problems, I don't have to have anyone else.
As for the rest of these replies... I'll start here:
You seem to be under the impression that I'm totally against sex, whereas I've stated repeatedly that I'm not. I'm against what I consider to be meaningless sex, which is sex that is purely hedonistic or does not transduce higher energies. This is going to make this post very long, but I've collected some of my writings over the years on this topic to give you the context to understand my position on this. In this first post I even allude to my conception of sex in 4D (surprise, I don't think it goes away) and I imagine that the 3D STO version would be similar, just maybe a bit more physical.
Yes, I am sexually frustrated that I still have to deal with drive #1, but I simply have to indulge it as a simple fact of my biology, and it is often released in low level masturbatory activity; I have no choice. My attitudes towards drive #1 have vacillated a bit between greater or lesser suppression over the years in an attempt to find a way to circumvent it. The most recent experience with the book was a bit of an oddity that I will have to reflect on. Levels 2 and 3 can never be fulfilled by any means because I don't have a partner. This is how I arrive at ideas like "eliminating sex from my reality." I would not expect to go straight to level 3 if I ever had a partner, but it would need to have a mixture of all 3 in order to accomplish what I want to. The books do seem to all somehow get to level 3, but I find the quality of it to be a bit inconsistent. Perhaps when I get to the less sexy ones there will be more comprehensive explanation. I don't find the books useless, I can use certain ideas from the books to envision how I would personally get to level 3, and they hold certain pearls of wisdom regarding how to approach certain practical everyday issues, but the books themselves are just a band-aid and will not solve the underlying problem. As for whipping myself with fresh nettles, there was a time in 2013-2014 where such a course of action would have been seriously considered. I was really trying out that graduate to 4D via total celibacy thing and was failing miserably at purging all sexual thoughts.
The next 3 posts deal with drive#1 and base urges.
The fact that what really should be the most intimate act which serves as a bridge to spiritual potentials and the deepest soul union possible in 3D comes along with this dopamine cycle which actually destroys intimacy preoccupied my mind quite a bit. I thought that whatever consciousness came up with that had to be rather cruel and sadistic. This struck me as one of the 4D STS "improvements" that was added to whatever sexual expression existed in the 3D STO realm and turned it against its original function. Scottie wrote about how the NWO is trying to destroy relations between men and women and functioning genders through post-modernism and covid-19 totalitarianism, why wouldn't 4D STS program something like that into our basic design by sabatoging anything that rises beyond the level of keeping the farm supplied with fresh meat? It is here where the determination between meaningful and meaningless sex is very important. On the other hand, 4D STS is not smart enough to control everything, and part of the role of the books in my mind, at least in potential, was to go in through one of the "back doors" in the program and reconnect some filaments behind the scenes that actually execute the 4D STO coding.
Well, this brings back an interesting memory, considering you're concerned about my fearfulness. The girl whom I accidentally caressed in the hall in my previous post, told me once "I think I know where we're headed, but when I give myself I give all. I love unconditionally and I expect that in return." Now the logic sticklers may notice that it's not unconditional if there's a condition attached, but I actually thought that was a perfectly reasonable request. Still, that was very heavy for an 18 year old. I ended up saying nothing and staring at the ground because I wasn't sure that I could do it. We had gone from talking about aliens, psychic experiences, and dream journeys for fun and as a way of keeping each other company to unconditional love in about 3 months. Shortly after we met, she got on this tangent about me being too disconnected from my feelings and she was going to show me the value of feeling my heart. I thought this was rather odd since she was technically already in a relationship and fought it for awhile, but eventually ended up kind of falling for her regardless. I'd never met anyone in real life I could talk so freely about all of my weird interests who seemed like they could feel everything I was thinking before I articulated it, before or since. She had the electric touch that set me on fire with just the most casual brush, I have never felt anything like that before or since either. Towards the end, the sexual desire was so strong that the desire to be inside her radiated through every cell in my body, and not just in a sexual way. I wanted to do it in a mind melding consciousness fusing way and I saw sex as just a way to get there. I didn't have any idea how I was going to do that. I was an awkward kid who was more uncomfortable with sex than now, and I had no experience articulating feelings I didn't have any experience with before. I knew that after she married her boyfriend we had to end it, and after we parted ways it felt like part of my soul had been ripped out. "Feeling my heart" was what made life worth living, and now it was gone. Thank God that relationship never became sexual and I had that level of intimacy ripped out of me too.
That heartbreak was never really resolved. For awhile I thought I could try again with someone else; do it better under better circumstances. The more I learned about relationships and how they usually fall apart, the more I lost hope. Some years later when I was contemplating suicide and taking account of all the things that made life worth living vs not worth living, the outcome of this whole drama unsurprisingly fell on the side of not worth living. I decided that I did not want to commit suicide, but certain adjustments needed to be made. I would rather have no emotions at all than feel that. I put a mental block around the experience and replaced it with a sort of numbness. This brings us more or less to the present day.
It is said that at a certain level of understanding we gain the ability to choose our suffering and this is why I am rather aggressive about pre-screening any potential mates. I've observed too much from watching other people take on non-collinear relationships to risk another heartbreak which I quite possibly won't survive. For awhile I didn't want to meet anyone at all and just hoped it would all go away. The person has to be involved in some version of what we do here, a Castaneda or Marciniak follower would probably be close enough, but I don't have much appetite for taking risks on more or less random people. Then if we had similar ideals and no major lifestyle conflicts, I would give it a chance. Otherwise, things continue on more or less as they always have. I'll survive and there's more important things to worry about.
Sure, I can fantasize about alternate realities where things are not run by a bunch of NWO psychos, people are more psychic, and you don't have a world where everything is owned by a bunch of lowest common denominator materialists whom you are enslaved to some degree for your very subsistence. That opens lots of doors. Being a rich dukish type with unlimited money and nearly unlimited time to while away opens a door or two, but I don't think money on its own makes a huge difference.
As for the present reality, so many things would have to come together in just the right way that I see the odds as rather long. I seem to have a lot of "needs," and I don't see why I should think to burden someone else with them. If someone wanted to take them on fine, but unless you're just some super altruistic person, why would you? I can deal with my own problems, I don't have to have anyone else.
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People are generally terrible with probabilities. If you try, at least it's possible; if you don't try, it won't happen. Also, the universe sometimes helps you, but you've got to do you part first. You know, pay, a lot, in advance.
I think you have one thing right that I wish I did. The right woman would appreciate that you saved yourself until after marriage.
You were hurt once when you loved and it didn't work out. I don't think the answer is to shut yourself off from ever loving again.
Dogs say cats love too much, are irresponsible,
are changeable, marry too many wives,
desert their children, chill all dinner tables
with tales of their nine lives.
Well, they are lucky. Let them be
nine-lived and contradictory,
curious enough to change, prepared to pay
the cat price, which is to die
and die again and again,
each time with no less pain.
A cat minority of one
is all that can be counted on
to tell the truth. And what cats have to tell
on each return from hell
is this: that dying is what the living do,
that dying is what the loving do,
and that dead dogs are those who do not know
that dying is what, to live, each has to do.
And still there is life all around us, the creation was not a result of a Big Bang and a long series of "odds". Every moment so many processes take place in our bodies, but what are the odds of that being put together in the first place, or of them functioning together in a surprisingly well-adjusted unity? If one says the odds are low, it is statistically speaking not entirely wrong, but the theory of statics assumes true randomness, and there is just so much more to life than statistics.
From your brief description, it seems the fleeting interaction might be a few stellar magnitudes above what many may get to know of in a lifetime, so I understand why your hopes are low. Through this person, the Universe taught you something. Could it be that part of healing is to be grateful to the Universe? The woman or the circumstances that moved in your brief encounter was a teacher of a significant capacity. Are you grateful, or do you try to shut down the whole event and wished it had never happened? In life, we meet so many people, with some we have no contact later, all that may be left is a memory. The memory may have an emotional charge, it may have a feeling associated with it, it may be subject to the coloring from other events, to interpretations and reinterpretations. This is not insignificant, and if we do not exist in isolation. can it be ruled out that our healing also affects others?
Perhaps, but read yourself again and consider leaving the door ajar.
Writing in a diary or a logbook of some description might be of help in supporting the continuation. Perhaps tender sprouts will need additional reflection, creativity, and care to grow and to blossom.
gnosisxsophia
Jedi Council Member
Funny, thinking it notable that the first two paintings selected, in this thread, had presented 'the lady' in blue;
Color perception
I'm pretty sure we did something like this with a dress before, but I thought I'd check again with this. Which colors do you see on first look? (note, just the shoe colors, laces included) This is reEEaAAAllLLy funny, at the moment where Joe posted that, i first, second, umpteenth look, the...
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Followed by a luscious green, reminded me of Ra also;
'Intercourse' between the knight and his lady then seemingly, to me anyway, apart from being a rather magical illustration, also possibly more than allegorical and an inextricable/equivalent pre-requisite for progress towards 4D STO on a macro scale?
Anyhoo...have finally, grindingly, managed to finish 'Seven Nights' which was rather bittersweet (without touching on the excruciating formulaic) and a bit of a letdown tbh. As unfortunately by about night 5 the character of Sidonie had reminded me so strongly of my first love, that I then spent the rest of the novella picturing her as a leggy, blonde valkyrie - which sort of blew the 'dream girl / positive use of imagination' concept out the window.
That being said, the flutters of wistfulness their 'lovemaking' engendered was certainly a pleasant reminder of the paradigm shattering ability of reciprocated love at an early age, the novice experience of participating in the glory of feminine climax yada yada yada. Though gotta say the thoroughly illogical reaction by both Sidonie and Jonas after 'you know what' was shared - was a touch too much.
But seeing as Laura had set these books as homework, figured that was the point - and being forensic, can certainly see myself in Jonas' bloody-mindedness...ouch
Also was VERY glad that 'The Perfect Man' (with a dog named Sirius) had showed up shortly beforehand to pique the interest and that @Scottie has mentioned the series deepens.
On to 'A Rakes Midnight Kiss'.
gnosisxsophia
Jedi Council Member
G'day thorbiorn,
Strikes as interesting that the three paintings suggested so far all feature 'stairs' I find.
As it happens rising 'clockwise' in Burton's piece?
I think/hope that I finally understand your point of view and I admire your open and honest post.
It also seems to me that you left yourself with two options: either to engage with drive#1 urges or to be abstinent.
Well maybe you don’t have to choose either; we know so far that if we put an intent to the Universe with our open minds and hearts, Universe will respond to our needs.
If that is what a person wants.
Maybe the person you meet won’t know about Castaneda or C’s or any of this Work but still you two will find that special affection and she might actually found this Work because of you.
There are million possibilities.
Laura said in The Wave Ch. 27:
I think this can apply not only to whether person decides on sto/sts polarity but it applies also to general view on life.
Also for some reason, your post reminded me of the movie „Mr.Nobody“:
So, like in the movie, you don’t have to choose how you will live your life (sorry for spoilers) and be afraid of the broken heart; maybe you can leave it to the Universe and just react to the opportunity if/when it comes along.
Wandering Star
The Living Force
I have been trying to balance a very strong programming for several years and that is from my knowledge of a "negative" character.I think/hope that I finally understand your point of view and I admire your open and honest post.
It also seems to me that you left yourself with two options: either to engage with drive#1 urges or to be abstinent.
Well maybe you don’t have to choose either; we know so far that if we put an intent to the Universe with our open minds and hearts, Universe will respond to our needs.
If that is what a person wants.
Maybe the person you meet won’t know about Castaneda or C’s or any of this Work but still you two will find that special affection and she might actually found this Work because of you.
There are million possibilities.
Laura said in The Wave Ch. 27:
I think this can apply not only to whether person decides on sto/sts polarity but it applies also to general view on life.
Also for some reason, your post reminded me of the movie „Mr.Nobody“:
So, like in the movie, you don’t have to choose how you will live your life (sorry for spoilers) and be afraid of the broken heart; maybe you can leave it to the Universe and just react to the opportunity if/when it comes along.
The "impulses" are very strong and there is always a justification for "falling".
Today I woke up somewhat sad, because I am not making progress in "balancing" this.
I enter the forum and the first post I read is yours and it has been as if my soul received a "shower" and little by little I felt better.
The lesson will continue but "now" I have learned something and I am going to "act".
Simply thanks.
In my experience there are some heartbreaks that never do fully resolve. That's part of life and part of what makes us who we are. Its what separates us from psychopaths.
He who learns must suffer
And even in our sleep pain that cannot forget
Falls drop by drop upon the heart,
And in our own despair, against our will,
Comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God.
Agamemnon, Aeschylus
Even if what you say about the world that we live in is true, even if it is true that it is such a dark and terrible place, that is only part of the truth. There is light in this world, there is beauty and there are good people.
Why couldn't you be a "rich dukish type"? If you could set aside all of your logical objections and wave your magic wand is that something you would want? Money could make a huge difference. If you truly want to help people (and yourself) lots of money is a good way to do it. You clearly have a very sharp mind so there's no reason why you couldn't aspire to that if you wanted to.
What if its not about the odds? As hlat says, if you don't even try you are guaranteed to fail.
If you find the right person they may want to be "burdened" with your "needs", that's part of what a relationship is about, we burden each other. I assume from your posts that you would want the other person to aspire to STO, even if they may not call it as such, so doesn't that mean giving to the other person? If you were in an STO candidate relationship you would give to each other, you would give time and emotional support and you would give with your actions. Love is more than a feeling, it is a verb and it involves a lot of doing, IMO when you love someone else you show it with your actions.
This is something that I'm learning and striving to be better at, so don't take this as some kind of gospel from a relationship/love expert, I'm just sharing my experience. I agree with @Mari, there are a million possibilities and I don't have an agenda for you either way, just trying to share my experience fwiw.
I wanted to add a thank you for sharing this story. It is quite beautiful and it speaks to the depth of feeling that you're capable of.
I think its good that you did what you needed to do at the time to go on living and I'm glad you're here today. You're really showing a great deal of courage with your willingness to discuss this and to be so open about it.
This was in reference to Carla's recurring health issues at the time, including lack of physical energy, arthritis, and perhaps some more, I believe. So I don't think Ra was suggesting that sex would cure her problems, only to replenish her energy stores and perhaps help alleviate some of the pain. gnosisxsophia shared some more excerpts above that go into more detail about the nature of the energy transfers Ra is talking about. (Here's a compilation of all the references.) Here's one more where they differentiate between the energies transfered by female and male (and thus why such transfers are only possible with a heterosexual couple):
And that reminds me of the C's quote:
Greetings Neil.
When we are deeply hurt by people in whom we placed our trust, maybe it feels like a part of our soul is being ripped out, but perhaps that’s not what actually happens? What if in truth our soul is stretching, widening, to be able to contain that huge terrible emotion? And in so doing, it creates more space for all the other emotions to be felt more, in quality, quantity and depth. I don't think it is a coincidence, from ancient times to today, that men and women of true understanding of the human nature, consciousness and the cosmos that surrounded them, have spoken of suffering as a necessity and catalyst to human growth.
We can and do choose to close our hearts to suffering of course. We can will it to a corner of our being, build all necessary forts around it, and live the rest of our lives “comfortably numb”. Poor in all emotions. But safe from the terrible ones.
And I am not looking down on people who choose the “emotional lockdown”. I understand. I felt the same way at different points in my life and most if not all the members here. The pain can be sooo terribly huge and agonizing that it makes death sound like a decent alternative. So I know how that feels too. And it can probably be pain accumulated from early childhood, perhaps even past lives. All the losses we experienced but never dealt with, not just that particular heartbreak at that particular point in time.
But still... if we are to be better men and women, worthy of a more promising reality than the one we currently inhabit, shouldn’t we at least take on our human sufferings, accept them for what they are and learn from what they taught/teach us? Expanding our being in the process? When we come to this life we are totally oblivious to the life plan we constructed before we took the plunge. But I think that the areas that hurt us the most in life are the ones we need to work on until they don't hurt anymore, so that we can move on to new lessons and adventures (perhaps more painful ones --> Suffering 101 = PASS ---> move on to Suffering 102 with a special class on Agonizing Despair
).
So, yeah, I started this post just to say a couple of things and it's getting long, so to close it up, I think that one of the purposes of this reading exercise is to vicariously live through these characters and experience the emotional conflicts and dramas they experience, so that we can re-live and re-experience (or for the first time) all these so very human emotions, and find some catharsis for some of our own unresolved issues. And I think that the fact that we are all having this conversation right now is a clear indication that this exercise is working. I've learned so much from what you all are sharing. So, to me at least, it seems that you are doing well so far, Neil. Keep on reading and keep on sharing. Just remember to hide the spoilers
When we are deeply hurt by people in whom we placed our trust, maybe it feels like a part of our soul is being ripped out, but perhaps that’s not what actually happens? What if in truth our soul is stretching, widening, to be able to contain that huge terrible emotion? And in so doing, it creates more space for all the other emotions to be felt more, in quality, quantity and depth. I don't think it is a coincidence, from ancient times to today, that men and women of true understanding of the human nature, consciousness and the cosmos that surrounded them, have spoken of suffering as a necessity and catalyst to human growth.
We can and do choose to close our hearts to suffering of course. We can will it to a corner of our being, build all necessary forts around it, and live the rest of our lives “comfortably numb”. Poor in all emotions. But safe from the terrible ones.
And I am not looking down on people who choose the “emotional lockdown”. I understand. I felt the same way at different points in my life and most if not all the members here. The pain can be sooo terribly huge and agonizing that it makes death sound like a decent alternative. So I know how that feels too. And it can probably be pain accumulated from early childhood, perhaps even past lives. All the losses we experienced but never dealt with, not just that particular heartbreak at that particular point in time.
But still... if we are to be better men and women, worthy of a more promising reality than the one we currently inhabit, shouldn’t we at least take on our human sufferings, accept them for what they are and learn from what they taught/teach us? Expanding our being in the process? When we come to this life we are totally oblivious to the life plan we constructed before we took the plunge. But I think that the areas that hurt us the most in life are the ones we need to work on until they don't hurt anymore, so that we can move on to new lessons and adventures (perhaps more painful ones --> Suffering 101 = PASS ---> move on to Suffering 102 with a special class on Agonizing Despair
). So, yeah, I started this post just to say a couple of things and it's getting long, so to close it up, I think that one of the purposes of this reading exercise is to vicariously live through these characters and experience the emotional conflicts and dramas they experience, so that we can re-live and re-experience (or for the first time) all these so very human emotions, and find some catharsis for some of our own unresolved issues. And I think that the fact that we are all having this conversation right now is a clear indication that this exercise is working. I've learned so much from what you all are sharing. So, to me at least, it seems that you are doing well so far, Neil. Keep on reading and keep on sharing. Just remember to hide the spoilers
beetlemaniac
The Living Force
I've almost completed Sons of Sin Book 3 and like others have mentioned, it seems to have a more complex plotline than the previous two, as there are two romances happening simultaneously, I would say that there is a "main" romance, and a second romance with a younger couple.
I am seeing how my experiences in life are reflected in the interactions of the characters in the story. For example the three friends in the book have a conversation about touchy topics brings up a situation at work where we are having a discussion about work culture and how to improve it. It shows me ways in which I could be more respectful, honoring of others boundaries, attentive of other's (and my own) emotions and thoughts/ideas. There is something about the Regency era decorum which is highly attractive to me and feels like a model or example to follow. Even their insults have a certain quality to them, they are nasty, but in their nastiness they do have their boundaries about where they will and will not go. I suppose it's an interesting cultural experience and a good contrast to the culture that I'm exposed to in my daily life.
Thank you for the many interesting responses thus far and it's been great to keep up with this thread and continue the reading project.
I am seeing how my experiences in life are reflected in the interactions of the characters in the story. For example the three friends in the book have a conversation about touchy topics brings up a situation at work where we are having a discussion about work culture and how to improve it. It shows me ways in which I could be more respectful, honoring of others boundaries, attentive of other's (and my own) emotions and thoughts/ideas. There is something about the Regency era decorum which is highly attractive to me and feels like a model or example to follow. Even their insults have a certain quality to them, they are nasty, but in their nastiness they do have their boundaries about where they will and will not go. I suppose it's an interesting cultural experience and a good contrast to the culture that I'm exposed to in my daily life.
Thank you for the many interesting responses thus far and it's been great to keep up with this thread and continue the reading project.
