Web trilogy by Mary Balogh was my favourite read by now but I have only read by her first two books of Survival's club and those books starting with Courting Julia. With Survival club the thing is I've read them on Croatian and as Mari stated it is totaly different thing reading on English. I don't know is it something with our weird language ...
. So I'll have to kindle the books and start all over.
Reading Dancing with Clara threw me in a depression, it made me cry so hard, I can't remember when I cried like that if ever (if we don't count last friday).I can't believe there are people who behave like Frederic and that they can miraculously transform. Thank God if is. Another thing is I'm from such family where guys weren't fidel to their wives. My grandpa the WWII veteran had another wife along grandma but closer to the bar and I have family members I don't know. I was one some family gathering 25y ago hanging out with a cute boy I met there and he asked me if I know why we're not going to get married. Weird conversation for kids but I didn't know he's my relative. My parents were torturing us with their love problems. When I was a child I had to listen to each side of a story and tell them to calm down. Maybe that's why I'm so the way I am. I had to be their therapist since I've learned how to whipe my butt. I think that's the reason I don't care about myself and have such low standards of dating. I also had to take care of grandpa and listen to his war stories so everybody can have whatever they wanted when we came for visit. I had to drink beer in a tiny beer cup, he would put a spoon of sugar inside. Jesus. But it was a form of bonding. I think I saw a side of him no one had. I tend to see a beauty and everything that can be summon up as good in others mostly. I remember when I started dating blond dude over 13 y ago I thought that he has some potential. But that was the idea I got from his apparent interest in Ouspensky's work that we studied on college. Right. Some people don't change. My grandpa changed, but I can imagine how it was for my grandma to endure the transformation. Other grandpa kicked us out of a house we lived to go on our own because grandma told him he should sold the house and give her some money. They were divorced at least 15 years then but my grandpa had to pay her all of his life the reparation for the fact he got her pregnant before she finished highschool and ruined her life. This is what my parents grew up with. So I had to grow up and wipe their tushies and everybody elses.
Tempting Harriet, my thoughts about it, I don't like the fact someone lowers their partner to a position of a somebody they like to fuck because they're not exactly clear with their emotions. Those things hurt. But this was my favourite book.
Coming to Web books, I loved the first one the most I think because I grown up with girls who resemble Alex, although I don't know much guys like Edmund, maybe why most of my friends are still single. Putting the religious pathology and rigid tradition aside, I think we see in Alex, in a strong and independent character, this whole woke feminist culture of today. What those girls need? Read the book.
The Ellen from the second book went through great ordeal because of what her parents put her through kind of like me, I spend hours on a rain, and have military like life although such comparison insults real soldiers. Marrying old dude to step in for a dad and give her finally some love and security in life, made me think I should have brought my dates home to my parents and rub them in their face, you see what you made me date
? I should have brought Erik home, 17 y ago when I had to give up my trip in Prague because my sister got child I thought my parents should need that money. Still don't have a passport.
The last book, I usually reed all of the books couple of time, especially the marriage proposals, this is my best part. This one I couldn't same with Dancing with Clara. It has really dark romance. I don't have any experiences with violence, I was never treated wrongly by my dates. I grown up with uncles and grandpapas and they called me little Martin, maybe that's why I wasn't attracting bullies, I don't know but after I read this book last weekend I went to my friend's home, that was my refugee when I was a kid and her parents were the most normal couple I've meet, like the Universe sent them. We meet in the kindergarten wearing the same dresses with dots, she asked me if I can come over after for a play and we stayed the friends for the next 30 y. So I went for a coffee and I stayed there almost all night, her mum telling me a story of a guy she dated before she got the courage to leave the bastard before the wedding and started to date my friend's dad. We were talking for 5 hours! I never said anybody the whole story what I went through, she couldn't believe it. She told me, why are you doing this to yourself? Just leave it for someone else to care. I went home crying and I can't believe how this
exercise had a profound impact not only on me but on the whole surroundings. Thanks.
I hope there wasn't too much spoilers.
