Session 13 July 2002

.The concept of "soul pool" sounds very similar to the idea of "group soul" that I read in Max Heindel's "Rosicrucian Cosmo Concept" book... As I can remember, Madam Blavatsky talks about similar concepts too...

I think that once the soul potential (for those who have it) begins to actualize in what we call 'time' then a process is set in motion
where even after death this process still continues and goes even beyond this soul pool that is mentioned into another state where some of its outer non essential elements may dissolve but its essential "substance" has the coherence to continue beyond this soul pool and does not dissolve fully so as to continue to develop (in other words even death does not stop this process) and it continues to develop (after reviewing it's previous life and so on) thru continued incarnations with ongoing possibilities of it's actualizations in 'time'. I often get the impression (and I certainly could be wrong) that each of our lives in this life are a 'fragment' of something greater and these fragments kind of unite thru repeated incarnations to continue the soul development and it's seating in 'actual time' along with the growth of self awareness.

I don't see time as something 'real' in itself, but rather as a sequence of linear perceptions that our consciousness flows thru and recognizes which we call 'time.' So what we call 'real time' is, imo, nothing more then a mathematical abstraction based on a linear sequence of perceptions (that our greater consciousness perceives or sees itself reflected in) of perhaps natural physical cycles but it's real nature is a limited condition of our greater consciousness perceiving shadows of some kind of higher space or 'solid' that exists in a more real sense (so to speak). So I think 'time' has everything to do with the state of our limited consciousness and really nothing to do with a reality within itself that we call time.
 
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When reading this transcript 'again' after a while, I find it very hard not to start creating a mental data base of the people involved directly in our (my partner and I's) daily life. One even starts wondering about one's parents, etc.

The part about attracting more 'portals' once we begin changing earnestly through self-work has come true for us, as we moved last year from the city where we shared a big place with several people to being just the two of us (on the edge of) a small village in the countryside.

Since being here we have been constantly been stumped by just about every new individual we connected with. Either we helped them (letting them stay a while in our spare room, work for them without expecting money in return, etc.) - whatever the case, we were used, exploited, and even as I told the people they were using us they just kept right on doing it until we broke ties with them. One at a time. And after long observation we came to the conclusion that nobody around us had any true feeling of empathy whatsoever, or just fleetingly when it suited their agendas.

Having been aware of the existence and M.O. of portals has protected us but only to a small degree. Our innate desire to make sure everyone is ok is stronger than our system of protection. We have many times felt as if we were inadequate for being messed with time after time, through one means or another. My partner is more the social animal, yet I am the one that endlessly gives his shirt away to the first robot that comes my way?

I am certain many here can relate. I just need to share that at 60 years of age, and a long period of self-observation and work, I still feel incapable of not letting myself be had. And the effect of always 'falling for it' is making me weary of connecting with more new people. As musicians and such, we are fine just working together with a select number of close friends, but even there, I am forever disappointed with others, then with myself. I wonder if anyone has managed to rise above this redundant scenario? If so, should we shut ourselves off, or look further for meaningful connections?
 
I am certain many here can relate. I just need to share that at 60 years of age, and a long period of self-observation and work, I still feel incapable of not letting myself be had. And the effect of always 'falling for it' is making me weary of connecting with more new people. As musicians and such, we are fine just working together with a select number of close friends, but even there, I am forever disappointed with others, then with myself. I wonder if anyone has managed to rise above this redundant scenario? If so, should we shut ourselves off, or look further for meaningful connections?

I think what you do here is first giving a person the benefit of the doubt that you "won't be had" which imo is perfectly OK but you lose sight of the greater reality (that is, the accumulation of many moments over long periods of time in all frames of reference and situations) that will help you to determine their overall (mechanical) behavior and in what situations there are greater possibilities that you will be "had" by your friends and associates. That knowledge over time is what I think is all that matters. What we do is get lost in time, lost in the little present moments by identifying with our moment to moment reactions regarding how we may feel about ourselves and others. Reactive feelings can change moment to moment but the truth of the situation is often seen in a flash of light coming from the region of the universe beyond time called eternity.

The identifications and wishful thinking blind us from the greater reality which can take a long time of observation and knowledge in order to make an accurate approximate determination one way or the other and even then we could be wrong. In these situations it might be best is to think in "opposite" terms from the get go and assume that the people you meet (including yourself) are 'man machines' from the start where you won't be disappointed if you are double crossed in some way that will leave you always disappointed since, when you assume the opposite position, you already saw it coming if it should ever occur. You may be pleasantly surprised when you see that there may be real soul behavior from impulses of conscience that you may see in yourself or others as well.
 
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A: If you consider that the population is equally distributed, then you will understand that in an ordinary "souled" person's life, that person will encounter half as many organic portals as souled individuals. BUT, when someone is in the process of "growing" and strengthening the soul, the Control System will seek to insert even more "units" into that person's life. Now, think of all the people you have ever met and particularly those with whom you have been, or are, intimate. Which half of this number would YOU designate as being organic portals? Hard to tell, eh?
Exactly! So that answered my question:
Family has 1 husband, 1 wife, two kids. Half of them are organic portals by General Organization Rule of our society built by Orion STS. What happens, when husband leaves, there is a divorce and wife remains with two kids. Who is the organic portal? Who are the spies? Who are the culprits?

So in my family's case there was soon my Beloved Grandmother joining, making our family unit a four. So in retrospect it was clear, who was the organic portal. But then organic portals are good at mirroring, which is their Chameleon skill. New units join the family, my sisters boyfriend, my girlfriend, my mothers boyfriend.

And the Plot Thickens:
If I'm a souled one and can see souled people as I stated AND I manage to acquire a souled wife. Soooo... that's super bad news, because we are two in the family and the C's statements above mean that our first child [??] and the second child will be inevitably soul-sucking vampiric Organic Portal children inserted into our lives to transform our lives into HELL, but only if we, with my wife, will be unable to regulate and teach our two OP kids to at least manage their behavior to a decent enough level, where as little vampiric feeding occurs in the family as possible.

I thought this about a lot. That's why in retrospect I bless my decision that I absolutely avoided having kids.

Meeting a Previous Life Wife in This Life:
Later I met the girl who - it turns out - had a huge crush on me in high school and she told me off that:
- You didn't even look at me!
And she said it in such a way that I wondered if we were married in a previous life.
So when I got older and my Soul-Vision got more developed, I met her with her two kids IN TOW. Immediately I saw that:
1. She - my probably [?] past life wife - was souled and therefore kind
2. the little girl - 4 or 5 years old - was timid like a lamb and souled and was curious and patient and didn't make a fuss at all
3. The little boy - 6 or 7 years old - was Empty. Completely devoid of soul and he started to make a fuss loudly and started a vampirical verbal-etheric interaction and started draining his mother, while I was talking to his souled mother, who was kind and smiled at me and looked at me with this message in her eyes:
- These two could have been our kids, you idiot!!
So by general rule she probably had an OP husband..

Another case:
Younger workplace colleague of Mom, with her "Nephil-girl" child of about 15 years of age in tow. The teenage girl is impossibly TALL and Empty, totally soulless and characteristically beautiful as is how Organic Portals are made. This daughter was constantly vampirizing her mother, who is souled. Years ago here I described how I saw this mothers shockingly DEPLETED "All-densities Light-Atomic Body" in this forum, and how she was chronically dangerously life-force-drained by this OP daughter of hers, who was feeding on her Mom any occasion she could find to draw blood-life-force. This mothers husband I encountered, and he was kind, helpful and souled, I'm sure.
 
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@lilies

Family has 1 husband, 1 wife, two kids. Half of them are organic portals by General Organization Rule of our society built by Orion STS. What happens, when husband leaves, there is a divorce and wife remains with two kids. Who is the organic portal? Who are the spies? Who are the culprits?

What about: 20/80, 70/30, 100%, 50/50 situations...;-)

10%/90% :-P
 
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