That feeling of having run out of time?

[RedFox]

Its entirely possible that its a case of General Law stepping in http://www.cassiopedia.org/glossary/General_Law

This prompts the question of whether I should expect weakened immunity or any other thing while practicing? This is just a curiosity question and sort of CMA to make sure there isn't something I missed that I need to know to practice the simple self-awareness technique.

The simple answer is yes, because this is what General Law does to keep you in (your mechanical) place.

If you where not aware of this, then you should probably do some researching about it on the forum, and about Strategic Enclosures http://www.cassiopedia.org/glossary/Strategic_enclosure

 

[slowone]

I have often had those feelings, along with thinking that I simply don't have the capacity to think clearly enough to discern the objective reality about myself let alone anything else.

But I have found some calm in realising for me, that if I am not ready to move to the fourth density I shouldn't be going. If I can't figure this current one out I should be staying put until I work it out. Personally that helped me to slow down a bit and try and work with the stage I'm at.

I am sure that at some point I will be panicking again and when I do at least now I have people like yourselves to share it with.

 

[Buddy]

Hi MrGullible,

I have also felt the anxiety and fear associated with the idea of not having enough time.

In my case, I had already visualized 'the goal' and was anticipating a successful outcome based on having the time to learn everything I needed to know.

The internal pressure often seemed unbearable.

When I reached the point where something had to give, I remembered some things the C's said about removing anticipation - to concentrate on the necessary DOing and let the outcome take care of itself.

I think, at that point, I realized I was fearing a loss of something I never even had (the goal of being ready to 'graduate' to 4th density).

Again, speaking only for myself, I decided that I may not make it after all. I might not even be worthy of it. But if I don't 'make it' it's not going to be because I gave up. I am taking it minute by minute and 1 day at a time, and trying to capture the feeling that I have all eternity to learn.

Sometimes I question whether that is just useless self-calming, but it takes the pressure off so that I can stay focussed when I need to. There's still so much to learn...

 

[MrGullible]

Thank you for your experiences and insights, Buddy. I feel like I'm on some kind of roller coaster riding a sine wave track of ups and downs. But, the ups and downs are never the same superficial context i.e. currently I'm feeling a different kind of internal pressure than when I started this thread, but there is still the "time" context.

Now the time context is more along the lines of impatience as well. I'm so very "hungry" (maybe an overly dramatic term here) to read and learn just so that I can have an original thought and know what that honestly feels like, or how to differentiate them. But, now just a few days after I started this thread, I'm fighting some type of wishful thinking flavor of limited time -- which is my version of impatience.

I think I know what you mean about the internal pressure being unbearable. To me it seems that way as well, almost like being super bored and full of energy but with nothing to do. Of course, at this stage, that could be just more false programs running at a level lower than I can sense in order to distract me, or it could be anything :)

When I'm calmer, I just continue to read and try to learn and clear my head because it is worth striving for and it is a blessing. Reading posts like yours and interacting here helps in that kind of grounding so again, thank you.

 

[Pierre]

But, now just a few days after I started this thread, I'm fighting some type of wishful thinking flavor of limited time -- which is my version of impatience.

Impatience seems to be a very widespread program.

No wonder when you see the recent generations trapped in ponerized societies "values" imposing competition, race, productivity, job + house work, multiple jobs...

Logically we can see some parents pressurizing their children in this way, "you're gonna be late at school", "you take too long to shower", "you're always the one we are waiting for", "now we're stuck in jams because we left home too late".

When the child becomes an adult, the parents are not there anymore but the stress appears automatically as soon as he enters the shower, look at the clock, sit in the car, go for a meeting, joins a queue...

 

[darknics]

I don't know if I will be one who moves to 4D this time or not, but I can't focus on that.

Exactly. I have to work on the assumption that I will not be moving to 4th density, and instead try to focus exclusively on the lessons I am here to learn during this lifetime -- whatever they may be and wherever they may lead. Because I know that my learning those lessons successfully will provide a good foundation for my next time around, and the next set of lessons -- whether that be in 4th density or another 3rd density life.

Fourth-density is not an end in itself and/or some kind of "reward" for having done the "right things" in this lifetime. It's just another step on the ladder. That's how I see it, anyway.

I think you actually said what is on everyone"s mind, but I want to refrain form generalizing some people might have advanced beyond this although I think that is our nature, the nature of STS. We can only thing in terms of OUR survival, that is after all our biggest instinct. The thing is all the things that are said here about the STS I think are true because once you pause and think about it it actually makes sense. By only thinking in terms like "where am I going", "am I going to make it" , "what happens to me" we start only spinning around our axis. And the faster we spin, the more self- involved we become until nothing makes sense anymore except the all- important goal, survival of the I. And I think that after all that is an option, one that we must seriously look at. We can become self- involved and don't care about anything else and start acquiring the necessary gravity to "advance".

But I must say that the "way of the STO" sounds better to me. That way involves getting over your "need to survive". I think that one way of "dispersing" gravity is to just laugh at yourself whenever you start feeling overwhelmed by "what is I going to do". I don't know "what works" for other people and I am not pretending to have learned the "lesson" , as I have said earlier we are STS and that"s part of the challenge. But hey, it makes sense that once you start "dispersing" gravity you are well on your way and the "chips" will fall into place not "where they may" :)

The thing is although it is a Working Progress I honestly believe that one can "learn" all he was meant to learn and be on "his merry way" even in the smallest time period. I don't think "the process" actually translates into "time" but rather in "Pure Will". If one keeps at it with that stuff, one is sure to get there even "ahead" of schedule. After all it is just of matter of what you Truly Believe, no lying to yourself , no hiding behind words.
Anyway that"s a part of how I feel about it , hope it was of use to you. Hope you feel less "anxious" and more "on your way". Good luck and remember to have fun :)