The Holy Grail of the Unconscious

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/09/20/magazine/20jung-t.html?_r=1

By SARA CORBETT
Published: September 16, 2009

This is a story about a nearly 100-year-old book, bound in red leather, which has spent the last quarter century secreted away in a bank vault in Switzerland. The book is big and heavy and its spine is etched with gold letters that say “Liber Novus,” which is Latin for “New Book.” Its pages are made from thick cream-colored parchment and filled with paintings of otherworldly creatures and handwritten dialogues with gods and devils. If you didn’t know the book’s vintage, you might confuse it for a lost medieval tome.

And yet between the book’s heavy covers, a very modern story unfolds. It goes as follows: Man skids into midlife and loses his soul. Man goes looking for soul. After a lot of instructive hardship and adventure — taking place entirely in his head — he finds it again.

Some people feel that nobody should read the book, and some feel that everybody should read it. The truth is, nobody really knows. Most of what has been said about the book — what it is, what it means — is the product of guesswork, because from the time it was begun in 1914 in a smallish town in Switzerland, it seems that only about two dozen people have managed to read or even have much of a look at it.

Of those who did see it, at least one person, an educated Englishwoman who was allowed to read some of the book in the 1920s, thought it held infinite wisdom — “There are people in my country who would read it from cover to cover without stopping to breathe scarcely,” she wrote — while another, a well-known literary type who glimpsed it shortly after, deemed it both fascinating and worrisome, concluding that it was the work of a psychotic.

So for the better part of the past century, despite the fact that it is thought to be the pivotal work of one of the era’s great thinkers, the book has existed mostly just as a rumor, cosseted behind the skeins of its own legend — revered and puzzled over only from a great distance.

Which is why one rainy November night in 2007, I boarded a flight in Boston and rode the clouds until I woke up in Zurich, pulling up to the airport gate at about the same hour that the main branch of the Union Bank of Switzerland, located on the city’s swanky Bahnhofstrasse, across from Tommy Hilfiger and close to Cartier, was opening its doors for the day. A change was under way: the book, which had spent the past 23 years locked inside a safe deposit box in one of the bank’s underground vaults, was just then being wrapped in black cloth and loaded into a discreet-looking padded suitcase on wheels. It was then rolled past the guards, out into the sunlight and clear, cold air, where it was loaded into a waiting car and whisked away.

THIS COULD SOUND, I realize, like the start of a spy novel or a Hollywood bank caper, but it is rather a story about genius and madness, as well as possession and obsession, with one object — this old, unusual book — skating among those things. Also, there are a lot of Jungians involved, a species of thinkers who subscribe to the theories of Carl Jung, the Swiss psychiatrist and author of the big red leather book. And Jungians, almost by definition, tend to get enthused anytime something previously hidden reveals itself, when whatever’s been underground finally makes it to the surface.

Carl Jung founded the field of analytical psychology and, along with Sigmund Freud, was responsible for popularizing the idea that a person’s interior life merited not just attention but dedicated exploration — a notion that has since propelled tens of millions of people into psychotherapy. Freud, who started as Jung’s mentor and later became his rival, generally viewed the unconscious mind as a warehouse for repressed desires, which could then be codified and pathologized and treated. Jung, over time, came to see the psyche as an inherently more spiritual and fluid place, an ocean that could be fished for enlightenment and healing.

Whether or not he would have wanted it this way, Jung — who regarded himself as a scientist — is today remembered more as a countercultural icon, a proponent of spirituality outside religion and the ultimate champion of dreamers and seekers everywhere, which has earned him both posthumous respect and posthumous ridicule. Jung’s ideas laid the foundation for the widely used Myers-Briggs personality test and influenced the creation of Alcoholics Anonymous. His central tenets — the existence of a collective unconscious and the power of archetypes — have seeped into the larger domain of New Age thinking while remaining more at the fringes of mainstream psychology.

A big man with wire-rimmed glasses, a booming laugh and a penchant for the experimental, Jung was interested in the psychological aspects of séances, of astrology, of witchcraft. He could be jocular and also impatient. He was a dynamic speaker, an empathic listener. He had a famously magnetic appeal with women. Working at Zurich’s Burghölzli psychiatric hospital, Jung listened intently to the ravings of schizophrenics, believing they held clues to both personal and universal truths. At home, in his spare time, he pored over Dante, Goethe, Swedenborg and Nietzsche. He began to study mythology and world cultures, applying what he learned to the live feed from the unconscious — claiming that dreams offered a rich and symbolic narrative coming from the depths of the psyche. Somewhere along the way, he started to view the human soul — not just the mind and the body — as requiring specific care and development, an idea that pushed him into a province long occupied by poets and priests but not so much by medical doctors and empirical scientists.

Jung soon found himself in opposition not just to Freud but also to most of his field, the psychiatrists who constituted the dominant culture at the time, speaking the clinical language of symptom and diagnosis behind the deadbolts of asylum wards. Separation was not easy. As his convictions began to crystallize, Jung, who was at that point an outwardly successful and ambitious man with a young family, a thriving private practice and a big, elegant house on the shores of Lake Zurich, felt his own psyche starting to teeter and slide, until finally he was dumped into what would become a life-altering crisis.

What happened next to Carl Jung has become, among Jungians and other scholars, the topic of enduring legend and controversy. It has been characterized variously as a creative illness, a descent into the underworld, a bout with insanity, a narcissistic self-deification, a transcendence, a midlife breakdown and an inner disturbance mirroring the upheaval of World War I. Whatever the case, in 1913, Jung, who was then 38, got lost in the soup of his own psyche. He was haunted by troubling visions and heard inner voices. Grappling with the horror of some of what he saw, he worried in moments that he was, in his own words, “menaced by a psychosis” or “doing a schizophrenia.”

He later would compare this period of his life — this “confrontation with the unconscious,” as he called it — to a mescaline experiment. He described his visions as coming in an “incessant stream.” He likened them to rocks falling on his head, to thunderstorms, to molten lava. “I often had to cling to the table,” he recalled, “so as not to fall apart.”

Had he been a psychiatric patient, Jung might well have been told he had a nervous disorder and encouraged to ignore the circus going on in his head. But as a psychiatrist, and one with a decidedly maverick streak, he tried instead to tear down the wall between his rational self and his psyche. For about six years, Jung worked to prevent his conscious mind from blocking out what his unconscious mind wanted to show him. Between appointments with patients, after dinner with his wife and children, whenever there was a spare hour or two, Jung sat in a book-lined office on the second floor of his home and actually induced hallucinations — what he called “active imaginations.” “In order to grasp the fantasies which were stirring in me ‘underground,’ ” Jung wrote later in his book “Memories, Dreams, Reflections,” “I knew that I had to let myself plummet down into them.” He found himself in a liminal place, as full of creative abundance as it was of potential ruin, believing it to be the same borderlands traveled by both lunatics and great artists.

Jung recorded it all. First taking notes in a series of small, black journals, he then expounded upon and analyzed his fantasies, writing in a regal, prophetic tone in the big red-leather book. The book detailed an unabashedly psychedelic voyage through his own mind, a vaguely Homeric progression of encounters with strange people taking place in a curious, shifting dreamscape. Writing in German, he filled 205 oversize pages with elaborate calligraphy and with richly hued, staggeringly detailed paintings.

What he wrote did not belong to his previous canon of dispassionate, academic essays on psychiatry. Nor was it a straightforward diary. It did not mention his wife, or his children, or his colleagues, nor for that matter did it use any psychiatric language at all. Instead, the book was a kind of phantasmagoric morality play, driven by Jung’s own wish not just to chart a course out of the mangrove swamp of his inner world but also to take some of its riches with him. It was this last part — the idea that a person might move beneficially between the poles of the rational and irrational, the light and the dark, the conscious and the unconscious — that provided the germ for his later work and for what analytical psychology would become.

The book tells the story of Jung trying to face down his own demons as they emerged from the shadows. The results are humiliating, sometimes unsavory. In it, Jung travels the land of the dead, falls in love with a woman he later realizes is his sister, gets squeezed by a giant serpent and, in one terrifying moment, eats the liver of a little child. (“I swallow with desperate efforts — it is impossible — once again and once again — I almost faint — it is done.”) At one point, even the devil criticizes Jung as hateful.

He worked on his red book — and he called it just that, the Red Book — on and off for about 16 years, long after his personal crisis had passed, but he never managed to finish it. He actively fretted over it, wondering whether to have it published and face ridicule from his scientifically oriented peers or to put it in a drawer and forget it. Regarding the significance of what the book contained, however, Jung was unequivocal. “All my works, all my creative activity,” he would recall later, “has come from those initial fantasies and dreams.”

Jung evidently kept the Red Book locked in a cupboard in his house in the Zurich suburb of Küsnacht. When he died in 1961, he left no specific instructions about what to do with it. His son, Franz, an architect and the third of Jung’s five children, took over running the house and chose to leave the book, with its strange musings and elaborate paintings, where it was. Later, in 1984, the family transferred it to the bank, where since then it has fulminated as both an asset and a liability.

Anytime someone did ask to see the Red Book, family members said, without hesitation and sometimes without decorum, no. The book was private, they asserted, an intensely personal work. In 1989, an American analyst named Stephen Martin, who was then the editor of a Jungian journal and now directs a Jungian nonprofit foundation, visited Jung’s son (his other four children were daughters) and inquired about the Red Book. The question was met with a vehemence that surprised him. “Franz Jung, an otherwise genial and gracious man, reacted sharply, nearly with anger,” Martin later wrote in his foundation’s newsletter, saying “in no uncertain terms” that Martin could not “see the Red Book, nor could he ever imagine that it would be published.”

And yet, Carl Jung’s secret Red Book — scanned, translated and footnoted — will be in stores early next month, published by W. W. Norton and billed as the “most influential unpublished work in the history of psychology.” Surely it is a victory for someone, but it is too early yet to say for whom.

STEPHEN MARTIN IS a compact, bearded man of 57. He has a buoyant, irreverent wit and what feels like a fully intact sense of wonder. If you happen to have a conversation with him anytime before, say, 10 a.m., he will ask his first question — “How did you sleep?” — and likely follow it with a second one — “Did you dream?” Because for Martin, as it is for all Jungian analysts, dreaming offers a barometric reading of the psyche. At his house in a leafy suburb of Philadelphia, Martin keeps five thick books filled with notations on and interpretations of all the dreams he had while studying to be an analyst 30 years ago in Zurich, under the tutelage of a Swiss analyst then in her 70s named Liliane Frey-Rohn. These days, Martin stores his dreams on his computer, but his dream life is — as he says everybody’s dream life should be — as involving as ever.

Even as some of his peers in the Jungian world are cautious about regarding Carl Jung as a sage — a history of anti-Semitic remarks and his sometimes patriarchal views of women have caused some to distance themselves — Martin is unapologetically reverential. He keeps Jung’s 20 volumes of collected works on a shelf at home. He rereads “Memories, Dreams, Reflections” at least twice a year. Many years ago, when one of his daughters interviewed him as part of a school project and asked what his religion was, Martin, a nonobservant Jew, answered, “Oh, honey, I’m a Jungian.”

The first time I met him, at the train station in Ardmore, Pa., Martin shook my hand and thoughtfully took my suitcase. “Come,” he said. “I’ll take you to see the holy hankie.” We then walked several blocks to the office where Martin sees clients. The room was cozy and cavelike, with a thick rug and walls painted a deep, handsome shade of blue. There was a Mission-style sofa and two upholstered chairs and an espresso machine in one corner.

Several mounted vintage posters of Zurich hung on the walls, along with framed photographs of Carl Jung, looking wise and white-haired, and Liliane Frey-Rohn, a round-faced woman smiling maternally from behind a pair of severe glasses.

Martin tenderly lifted several first-edition books by Jung from a shelf, opening them so I could see how they had been inscribed to Frey-Rohn, who later bequeathed them to Martin. Finally, we found ourselves standing in front of a square frame hung on the room’s far wall, another gift from his former analyst and the centerpiece of Martin’s Jung arcana. Inside the frame was a delicate linen square, its crispness worn away by age — a folded handkerchief with the letters “CGJ” embroidered neatly in one corner in gray. Martin pointed. “There you have it,” he said with exaggerated pomp, “the holy hankie, the sacred nasal shroud of C. G. Jung.”
In addition to practicing as an analyst, Martin is the director of the Philemon Foundation, which focuses on preparing the unpublished works of Carl Jung for publication, with the Red Book as its central project. He has spent the last several years aggressively, sometimes evangelistically, raising money in the Jungian community to support his foundation. The foundation, in turn, helped pay for the translating of the book and the addition of a scholarly apparatus — a lengthy introduction and vast network of footnotes — written by a London-based historian named Sonu Shamdasani, who serves as the foundation’s general editor and who spent about three years persuading the family to endorse the publication of the book and to allow him access to it.


Given the Philemon Foundation’s aim to excavate and make public C. G. Jung’s old papers — lectures he delivered at Zurich’s Psychological Club or unpublished letters, for example — both Martin and Shamdasani, who started the foundation in 2003, have worked to develop a relationship with the Jung family, the owners and notoriously protective gatekeepers of Jung’s works. Martin echoed what nearly everybody I met subsequently would tell me about working with Jung’s descendants. “It’s sometimes delicate,” he said, adding by way of explanation, “They are very Swiss.”

What he likely meant by this was that the members of the Jung family who work most actively on maintaining Jung’s estate tend to do things carefully and with an emphasis on privacy and decorum and are on occasion taken aback by the relatively brazen and totally informal way that American Jungians — who it is safe to say are the most ardent of all Jungians — inject themselves into the family’s business. There are Americans knocking unannounced on the door of the family home in Küsnacht; Americans scaling the fence at Bollingen, the stone tower Jung built as a summer residence farther south on the shore of Lake Zurich. Americans pepper Ulrich Hoerni, one of Jung’s grandsons who manages Jung’s editorial and archival matters through a family foundation, almost weekly with requests for various permissions. The relationship between the Jungs and the people who are inspired by Jung is, almost by necessity, a complex symbiosis. The Red Book — which on one hand described Jung’s self-analysis and became the genesis for the Jungian method and on the other was just strange enough to possibly embarrass the family — held a certain electrical charge. Martin recognized the descendants’ quandary. “They own it, but they haven’t lived it,” he said, describing Jung’s legacy. “It’s very consternating for them because we all feel like we own it.” Even the old psychiatrist himself seemed to recognize the tension. “Thank God I am Jung,” he is rumored once to have said, “and not a Jungian.”

“This guy, he was a bodhisattva,” Martin said to me that day. “This is the greatest psychic explorer of the 20th century, and this book tells the story of his inner life.” He added, “It gives me goose bumps just thinking about it.” He had at that point yet to lay eyes on the book, but for him that made it all the more tantalizing. His hope was that the Red Book would “reinvigorate” Jungian psychology, or at the very least bring himself personally closer to Jung. “Will I understand it?” he said. “Probably not. Will it disappoint? Probably. Will it inspire? How could it not?” He paused a moment, seeming to think it through. “I want to be transformed by it,” he said finally. “That’s all there is.”

IN ORDER TO UNDERSTAND and decode the Red Book — a process he says required more than five years of concentrated work — Sonu Shamdasani took long, rambling walks on London’s Hampstead Heath. He would translate the book in the morning, then walk miles in the park in the afternoon, his mind trying to follow the rabbit’s path Jung had forged through his own mind.

Shamdasani is 46. He has thick black hair, a punctilious eye for detail and an understated, even somnolent, way of speaking. He is friendly but not particularly given to small talk. If Stephen Martin is — in Jungian terms — a “feeling type,” then Shamdasani, who teaches at the University College London’s Wellcome Trust Center for the History of Medicine and keeps a book by the ancient Greek playwright Aeschylus by his sofa for light reading, is a “thinking type.” He has studied Jungian psychology for more than 15 years and is particularly drawn to the breadth of Jung’s psychology and his knowledge of Eastern thought, as well as the historical richness of his era, a period when visionary writing was more common, when science and art were more entwined and when Europe was slipping into the psychic upheaval of war. He tends to be suspicious of interpretive thinking that’s not anchored by hard fact — and has, in fact, made a habit of attacking anybody he deems guilty of sloppy scholarship — and also maintains a generally unsentimental attitude toward Jung. Both of these qualities make him, at times, awkward company among both Jungians and Jungs.

The relationship between historians and the families of history’s luminaries is, almost by nature, one of mutual disenchantment. One side works to extract; the other to protect. One pushes; one pulls. Stephen Joyce, James Joyce’s literary executor and last living heir, has compared scholars and biographers to “rats and lice.” Vladimir Nabokov’s son Dmitri recently told an interviewer that he considered destroying his father’s last known novel in order to rescue it from the “monstrous nincompoops” who had already picked over his father’s life and works. T. S. Eliot’s widow, Valerie Fletcher, has actively kept his papers out of the hands of biographers, and Anna Freud was, during her lifetime, notoriously selective about who was allowed to read and quote from her father’s archives.

Even against this backdrop, the Jungs, led by Ulrich Hoerni, the chief literary administrator, have distinguished themselves with their custodial vigor. Over the years, they have tried to interfere with the publication of books perceived to be negative or inaccurate (including one by the award-winning biographer Deirdre Bair), engaged in legal standoffs with Jungians and other academics over rights to Jung’s work and maintained a state of high agitation concerning the way C. G. Jung is portrayed. Shamdasani was initially cautious with Jung’s heirs. “They had a retinue of people coming to them and asking to see the crown jewels,” he told me in London this summer. “And the standard reply was, ‘Get lost.’ ”

Shamdasani first approached the family with a proposal to edit and eventually publish the Red Book in 1997, which turned out to be an opportune moment. Franz Jung, a vehement opponent of exposing Jung’s private side, had recently died, and the family was reeling from the publication of two controversial and widely discussed books by an American psychologist named Richard Noll, who proposed that Jung was a philandering, self-appointed prophet of a sun-worshiping Aryan cult and that several of his central ideas were either plagiarized or based upon falsified research.

While the attacks by Noll might have normally propelled the family to more vociferously guard the Red Book, Shamdasani showed up with the right bargaining chips — two partial typed draft manuscripts (without illustrations) of the Red Book he had dug up elsewhere. One was sitting on a bookshelf in a house in southern Switzerland, at the home of the elderly daughter of a woman who once worked as a transcriptionist and translator for Jung. The second he found at Yale University’s Beinecke Library, in an uncataloged box of papers belonging to a well-known German publisher. The fact that there were partial copies of the Red Book signified two things — one, that Jung had distributed it to at least a few friends, presumably soliciting feedback for publication; and two, that the book, so long considered private and inaccessible, was in fact findable. The specter of Richard Noll and anybody else who, they feared, might want to taint Jung by quoting selectively from the book loomed large. With or without the family’s blessing, the Red Book — or at least parts of it — would likely become public at some point soon, “probably,” Shamdasani wrote ominously in a report to the family, “in sensationalistic form.”

For about two years, Shamdasani flew back and forth to Zurich, making his case to Jung’s heirs. He had lunches and coffees and delivered a lecture. Finally, after what were by all accounts tense deliberations inside the family, Shamdasani was given a small salary and a color copy of the original book and was granted permission to proceed in preparing it for publication, though he was bound by a strict confidentiality agreement. When money ran short in 2003, the Philemon Foundation was created to finance Shamdasani’s research.

Having lived more or less alone with the book for almost a decade, Shamdasani — who is a lover of fine wine and the intricacies of jazz — these days has the slightly stunned aspect of someone who has only very recently found his way out of an enormous maze. When I visited him this summer in the book-stuffed duplex overlooking the heath, he was just adding his 1,051st footnote to the Red Book.

The footnotes map both Shamdasani’s journey and Jung’s. They include references to Faust, Keats, Ovid, the Norse gods Odin and Thor, the Egyptian deities Isis and Osiris, the Greek goddess Hecate, ancient Gnostic texts, Greek Hyperboreans, King Herod, the Old Testament, the New Testament, Nietzsche’s Zarathustra, astrology, the artist Giacometti and the alchemical formulation of gold. And that’s just naming a few. The central premise of the book, Shamdasani told me, was that Jung had become disillusioned with scientific rationalism — what he called “the spirit of the times” — and over the course of many quixotic encounters with his own soul and with other inner figures, he comes to know and appreciate “the spirit of the depths,” a field that makes room for magic, coincidence and the mythological metaphors delivered by dreams.

“It is the nuclear reactor for all his works,” Shamdasani said, noting that Jung’s more well-known concepts — including his belief that humanity shares a pool of ancient wisdom that he called the collective unconscious and the thought that personalities have both male and female components (animus and anima) — have their roots in the Red Book. Creating the book also led Jung to reformulate how he worked with clients, as evidenced by an entry Shamdasani found in a self-published book written by a former client, in which she recalls Jung’s advice for processing what went on in the deeper and sometimes frightening parts of her mind.

“I should advise you to put it all down as beautifully as you can — in some beautifully bound book,” Jung instructed. “It will seem as if you were making the visions banal — but then you need to do that — then you are freed from the power of them. . . . Then when these things are in some precious book you can go to the book & turn over the pages & for you it will be your church — your cathedral — the silent places of your spirit where you will find renewal. If anyone tells you that it is morbid or neurotic and you listen to them — then you will lose your soul — for in that book is your soul.”

ZURICH IS, IF NOTHING ELSE, one of Europe’s more purposeful cities. Its church bells clang precisely; its trains glide in and out on a flawless schedule. There are crowded fondue restaurants and chocolatiers and rosy-cheeked natives breezily pedaling their bicycles over the stone bridges that span the Limmat River. In summer, white-sailed yachts puff around Lake Zurich; in winter, the Alps glitter on the horizon. And during the lunch hour year-round, squads of young bankers stride the Bahnhofstrasse in their power suits and high-end watches, appearing eternally mindful of the fact that beneath everyone’s feet lie labyrinthine vaults stuffed with a dazzling and disproportionate amount of the world’s wealth.

But there, too, ventilating the city’s material splendor with their devotion to dreams, are the Jungians. Some 100 Jungian analysts practice in and around Zurich, examining their clients’ dreams in sessions held in small offices tucked inside buildings around the city. Another few hundred analysts in training can be found studying at one of the two Jungian institutes in the area. More than once, I have been told that, in addition to being a fantastic tourist destination and a good place to hide money, Zurich is an excellent city for dreaming.

Jungians are accustomed to being in the minority pretty much everywhere they go, but here, inside a city of 370,000, they have found a certain quiet purchase. Zurich, for Jungians, is spiritually loaded. It’s a kind of Jerusalem, the place where C. G. Jung began his career, held seminars, cultivated an inner circle of disciples, developed his theories of the psyche and eventually grew old. Many of the people who enroll in the institutes are Swiss, American, British or German, but some are from places like Japan and South Africa and Brazil. Though there are other Jungian institutes in other cities around the world offering diploma programs, learning the techniques of dream analysis in Zurich is a little bit like learning to hit a baseball in Yankee Stadium. For a believer, the place alone conveys a talismanic grace.

Just as I had, Stephen Martin flew to Zurich the week the Red Book was taken from its bank-vault home and moved to a small photo studio near the opera house to be scanned, page by page, for publication. (A separate English translation along with Shamdasani’s introduction and footnotes will be included at the back of the book.) Martin already made a habit of visiting Zurich a few times a year for “bratwurst and renewal” and to attend to Philemon Foundation business. My first morning there, we walked around the older parts of Zurich, before going to see the book. Zurich made Martin nostalgic. It was here that he met his wife, Charlotte, and here that he developed the almost equally important relationship with his analyst, Frey-Rohn, carrying himself and his dreams to her office two or three times weekly for several years.

Undergoing analysis is a central, learn-by-doing part of Jungian training, which usually takes about five years and also involves taking courses in folklore, mythology, comparative religion and psychopathology, among others. It is, Martin says, very much a “mentor-based discipline.” He is fond of pointing out his own conferred pedigree, because Frey-Rohn was herself analyzed by C. G. Jung. Most analysts seem to know their bloodlines. That morning, Martin and I were passing a cafe when he spotted another American analyst, someone he knew in school and who has since settled in Switzerland. “Oh, there’s Bob,” Martin said merrily, making his way toward the man. “Bob trained with Liliane,” he explained to me, “and that makes us kind of like brothers.”

Jungian analysis revolves largely around writing down your dreams (or drawing them) and bringing them to the analyst — someone who is patently good with both symbols and people — to be scoured for personal and archetypal meaning. Borrowing from Jung’s own experiences, analysts often encourage clients to experiment on their own with active imagination, to summon a waking dreamscape and to interact with whatever, or whoever, surfaces there. Analysis is considered to be a form of psychotherapy, and many analysts are in fact trained also as psychotherapists, but in its purist form, a Jungian analyst eschews clinical talk of diagnoses and recovery in favor of broader (and some might say fuzzier) goals of self-discovery and wholeness — a maturation process Jung himself referred to as “individuation.” Perhaps as a result, Jungian analysis has a distinct appeal to people in midlife. “The purpose of analysis is not treatment,” Martin explained to me. “That’s the purpose of psychotherapy. The purpose of analysis,” he added, a touch grandly, “is to give life back to someone who’s lost it.”

Later that day, we went to the photo studio where the work on the book was already under way. The room was a charmless space with concrete floors and black walls. Its hushed atmosphere and glaring lights added a slightly surgical aspect. There was the editor from Norton in a tweedy sport coat. There was an art director hired by Norton and two technicians from a company called DigitalFusion, who had flown to Zurich from Southern California with what looked to be a half-ton of computer and camera equipment.

Shamdasani arrived ahead of us. And so did Ulrich Hoerni, who, along with his cousin Peter Jung, had become a cautious supporter of Shamdasani, working to build consensus inside the family to allow the book out into the world. Hoerni was the one to fetch the book from the bank and was now standing by, his brow furrowed, appearing somewhat tortured. To talk to Jung’s heirs is to understand that nearly four decades after his death, they continue to reel inside the psychic tornado Jung created during his lifetime, caught between the opposing forces of his admirers and critics and between their own filial loyalties and history’s pressing tendency to judge and rejudge its own playmakers. Hoerni would later tell me that Shamdasani’s discovery of the stray copies of the Red Book surprised him, that even today he’s not entirely clear about whether Carl Jung ever intended for the Red Book to be published. “He left it an open question,” he said. “One might think he would have taken some of his children aside and said, ‘This is what it is and what I want done with it,’ but he didn’t.” It was a burden Hoerni seemed to wear heavily. He had shown up at the photo studio not just with the Red Book in its special padded suitcase but also with a bedroll and a toothbrush, since after the day’s work was wrapped, he would be spending the night curled up near the book — “a necessary insurance measure,” he would explain.

And finally, there sunbathing under the lights, sat Carl Jung’s Red Book, splayed open to Page 37. One side of the open page showed an intricate mosaic painting of a giant holding an ax, surrounded by winged serpents and crocodiles. The other side was filled with a cramped German calligraphy that seemed at once controlled and also, just given the number of words on the page, created the impression of something written feverishly, cathartically. Above the book a 10,200-pixel scanner suspended on a dolly clicked and whirred, capturing the book one-tenth of a millimeter at a time and uploading the images into a computer.


The Red Book had an undeniable beauty. Its colors seemed almost to pulse, its writing almost to crawl. Shamdasani’s relief was palpable, as was Hoerni’s anxiety. Everyone in the room seemed frozen in a kind of awe, especially Stephen Martin, who stood about eight feet away from the book but then finally, after a few minutes, began to inch closer to it. When the art director called for a break, Martin leaned in, tilting his head to read some of the German on the page. Whether he understood it or not, he didn’t say. He only looked up and smiled.

ONE AFTERNOON I took a break from the scanning and visited Andreas Jung, who lives with his wife, Vreni, in C. G. Jung’s old house at 228 Seestrasse in the town of Küsnacht. The house — a 5,000-square-foot, 1908 baroque-style home, designed by the psychiatrist and financed largely with his wife, Emma’s, inheritance — sits on an expanse between the road and the lake. Two rows of trimmed, towering topiary trees create a narrow passage to the entrance. The house faces the white-capped lake, a set of manicured gardens and, in one corner, an anomalous, unruly patch of bamboo.

Andreas is a tall man with a quiet demeanor and a gentlemanly way of dressing. At 64, he resembles a thinner, milder version of his famous grandfather, whom he refers to as “C. G.” Among Jung’s five children (all but one are dead) and 19 grandchildren (all but five are still living), he is one of the youngest and also known as the most accommodating to curious outsiders. It is an uneasy kind of celebrity. He and Vreni make tea and politely serve cookies and dispense little anecdotes about Jung to those courteous enough to make an advance appointment. “People want to talk to me and sometimes even touch me,” Andreas told me, seeming both amused and a little sheepish. “But it is not at all because of me, of course. It is because of my grandfather.” He mentioned that the gardeners who trim the trees are often perplexed when they encounter strangers — usually foreigners — snapping pictures of the house. “In Switzerland, C. G. Jung is not thought to be so important,” he said. “They don’t see the point of it.”

Jung, who was born in the mountain village of Kesswil, was a lifelong outsider in Zurich, even as in his adult years he seeded the city with his followers and became — along with Paul Klee and Karl Barth — one of the best-known Swissmen of his era. Perhaps his marginalization stemmed in part from the offbeat nature of his ideas. (He was mocked, for example, for publishing a book in the late 1950s that examined the psychological phenomenon of flying saucers.) Maybe it was his well-documented abrasiveness toward people he found uninteresting. Or maybe it was connected to the fact that he broke with the established ranks of his profession. (During the troubled period when he began writing the Red Book, Jung resigned from his position at Burghölzli, never to return.) Most likely, too, it had something to do with the unconventional, unhidden, 40-something-year affair he conducted with a shy but intellectually forbidding woman named Toni Wolff, one of Jung’s former analysands who went on to become an analyst as well as Jung’s close professional collaborator and a frequent, if not fully welcome, fixture at the Jung family dinner table.

“The life of C. G. Jung was not easy,” Andreas said. “For the family, it was not easy at all.” As a young man, Andreas had sometimes gone and found his grandfather’s Red Book in the cupboard and paged through it, just for fun. Knowing its author personally, he said, “It was not strange to me at all.”

For the family, C. G. Jung became more of a puzzle after his death, having left behind a large amount of unpublished work and an audience eager to get its hands on it. “There were big fights,” Andreas told me when I visited him again this summer. Andreas, who was 19 when his grandfather died, recalled family debates over whether or not to allow some of Jung’s private letters to be published. When the extended family gathered for the annual Christmas party in Küsnacht, Jung’s children would disappear into a room and have heated discussions about what to do with what he had left behind while his grandchildren played in another room. “My cousins and brothers and I, we thought they were silly to argue over these things,” Andreas said, with a light laugh. “But later when our parents died, we found ourselves having those same arguments.”

Even Jung’s great-grandchildren felt his presence. “He was omnipresent,” Daniel Baumann, whose grandmother was Jung’s daughter Gret, would tell me when I met him later. He described his own childhood with a mix of bitterness and sympathy directed at the older generations. “It was, ‘Jung said this,’ and ‘Jung did that,’ and ‘Jung thought that.’ When you did something, he was always present somehow. He just continued to live on. He was with us. He is still with us,” Baumann said. Baumann is an architect and also the president of the board of the C. G. Jung Institute in Küsnacht. He deals with Jungians all the time, and for them, he said, it was the same. Jung was both there and not there. “It’s sort of like a hologram,” he said. “Everyone projects something in the space, and Jung begins to be a real person again.”

ONE NIGHT DURING the week of the scanning in Zurich, I had a big dream. A big dream, the Jungians tell me, is a departure from all your regular dreams, which in my case meant this dream was not about falling off a cliff or missing an exam. This dream was about an elephant — a dead elephant with its head cut off. The head was on a grill at a suburban-style barbecue, and I was holding the spatula. Everybody milled around with cocktails; the head sizzled over the flames. I was angry at my daughter’s kindergarten teacher because she was supposed to be grilling the elephant head at the barbecue, but she hadn’t bothered to show up. And so the job fell to me. Then I woke up.

At the hotel breakfast buffet, I bumped into Stephen Martin and a Californian analyst named Nancy Furlotti, who is the vice president on the board of the Philemon Foundation and was at that moment having tea and muesli.

“How are you?” Martin said.

“Did you dream?” Furlotti asked

“What do elephants mean to you?” Martin asked after I relayed my dream.

“I like elephants,” I said. “I admire elephants.”

“There’s Ganesha,” Furlotti said, more to Martin than to me. “Ganesha is an Indian god of wisdom.”

“Elephants are maternal,” Martin offered, “very caring.”

They spent a few minutes puzzling over the archetypal role of the kindergarten teacher. “How do you feel about her?” “Would you say she is more like a mother figure or more like a witch?”

Giving a dream to a Jungian analyst is a little bit like feeding a complex quadratic equation to someone who really enjoys math. It takes time. The process itself is to be savored. The solution is not always immediately evident. In the following months, I told my dream to several more analysts, and each one circled around similar symbolic concepts about femininity and wisdom. One day I was in the office of Murray Stein, an American analyst who lives in Switzerland and serves as the president of the International School of Analytical Psychology, talking about the Red Book. Stein was telling me about how some Jungian analysts he knew were worried about the publication — worried specifically that it was a private document and would be apprehended as the work of a crazy person, which then reminded me of my crazy dream. I related it to him, saying that the very thought of eating an elephant’s head struck me as grotesque and embarrassing and possibly a sign there was something deeply wrong with my psyche. Stein assured me that eating is a symbol for integration. “Don’t worry,” he said soothingly. “It’s horrifying on a naturalistic level, but symbolically it is good.”

It turned out that nearly everybody around the Red Book was dreaming that week. Nancy Furlotti dreamed that we were all sitting at a table drinking amber liquid from glass globes and talking about death. (Was the scanning of the book a death? Wasn’t death followed by rebirth?) Sonu Shamdasani dreamed that he came upon Hoerni sleeping in the garden of a museum. Stephen Martin was sure that he had felt some invisible hand patting him on the back while he slept. And Hugh Milstein, one of the digital techs scanning the book, passed a tormented night watching a ghostly, white-faced child flash on a computer screen. (Furlotti and Martin debated: could that be Mercurius? The god of travelers at a crossroads?)

Early one morning we were standing around the photo studio discussing our various dreams when Ulrich Hoerni trudged through the door, having deputized his nephew Felix to spend the previous night next to the Red Book. Felix had done his job; the Red Book lay sleeping with its cover closed on the table. But Hoerni, appearing weary, seemed to be taking an extra hard look at the book. The Jungians greeted him. “How are you? Did you dream last night?”

“Yes,” Hoerni said quietly, not moving his gaze from the table. “I dreamed the book was on fire.”

ABOUT HALFWAY THROUGH the Red Book — after he has traversed a desert, scrambled up mountains, carried God on his back, committed murder, visited hell; and after he has had long and inconclusive talks with his guru, Philemon, a man with bullhorns and a long beard who flaps around on kingfisher wings — Jung is feeling understandably tired and insane. This is when his soul, a female figure who surfaces periodically throughout the book, shows up again. She tells him not to fear madness but to accept it, even to tap into it as a source of creativity. “If you want to find paths, you should also not spurn madness, since it makes up such a great part of your nature.”

The Red Book is not an easy journey — it wasn’t for Jung, it wasn’t for his family, nor for Shamdasani, and neither will it be for readers. The book is bombastic, baroque and like so much else about Carl Jung, a willful oddity, synched with an antediluvian and mystical reality. The text is dense, often poetic, always strange. The art is arresting and also strange. Even today, its publication feels risky, like an exposure. But then again, it is possible Jung intended it as such. In 1959, after having left the book more or less untouched for 30 or so years, he penned a brief epilogue, acknowledging the central dilemma in considering the book’s fate. “To the superficial observer,” he wrote, “it will appear like madness.” Yet the very fact he wrote an epilogue seems to indicate that he trusted his words would someday find the right audience.

Shamdasani figures that the Red Book’s contents will ignite both Jung’s fans and his critics. Already there are Jungians planning conferences and lectures devoted to the Red Book, something that Shamdasani finds amusing. Recalling that it took him years to feel as if he understood anything about the book, he’s curious to know what people will be saying about it just months after it is published. As far as he is concerned, once the book sees daylight, it will become a major and unignorable piece of Jung’s history, the gateway into Carl Jung’s most inner of inner experiences. “Once it’s published, there will be a ‘before’ and ‘after’ in Jungian scholarship,” he told me, adding, “it will wipe out all the biographies, just for starters.” What about the rest of us, the people who aren’t Jungians, I wondered. Was there something in the Red Book for us? “Absolutely, there is a human story here,” Shamdasani said. “The basic message he’s sending is ‘Value your inner life.’ ”

After it was scanned, the book went back to its bank-vault home, but it will move again — this time to New York, accompanied by a number of Jung’s descendents. For the next few months it will be on display at the Rubin Museum of Art. Ulrich Hoerni told me this summer that he assumed the book would generate “criticism and gossip,” but by bringing it out they were potentially rescuing future generations of Jungs from some of the struggles of the past. If another generation inherited the Red Book, he said, “the question would again have to be asked, ‘What do we do with it?’ ”

Stephen Martin too will be on hand for the book’s arrival in New York. He is already sensing that it will shed positive light on Jung — this thanks to a dream he had recently about an “inexpressively sublime” dawn breaking over the Swiss Alps — even as others are not so certain.

In the Red Book, after Jung’s soul urges him to embrace the madness, Jung is still doubtful. Then suddenly, as happens in dreams, his soul turns into “a fat, little professor,” who expresses a kind of paternal concern for Jung.

Jung says: “I too believe that I’ve completely lost myself. Am I really crazy? It’s all terribly confusing.”

The professor responds: “Have patience, everything will work out. Anyway, sleep well.”
 
It can be a holy grail indeed for those interested in the unconscious. Shame it has a price tag, in the publishers website of $195. OK this can be explained because it's a first and probably a de-luxe edition, but even so it seems a lot of books that could be important to understand our reality are more often the most expensive.
 
Seems like they overpriced it som yes. It´s now sold for $105.30 here: http://www.amazon.com/Red-Book-C-G-Jung/dp/0393065677
 
Here are some excerpts from this book:





The Way of What is to Come

Isaias dixit: quis credidit auditui nostro et brachium Domini cui revelatum
estr et ascendet sicut virgultum coram eo et sicut radix de terra sitienti non est
species ei neque decor et vidimus eum et non erat aspectus et desideravimus eum:
despectum et novissimum virorum virum dolorum et scientem infirmitatem
et quasi absconditus vultus eius et despectus unde nec reputavimus eum. vere
languores nostros ipse tulit et dolores nostros ipse portavit et nos putavimus
eum quasi leprosum et percussum a Deo et humiliatum. Cap. liii/i~iv.
parvulus enim natus est nobis filius datus est nobis et factus est principatus
super umerum eius et vocabitur nomen eius Admirabilis consiliarius Deus
fortis Pater futuri saeculi princeps pacis. caput ix/vi.


[Isaiah said: Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the
arm of the Lord revealed? For he shall grow up before him as a
tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form
nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty
that we should desire him. He is despised and rejected of men;
a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it
were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him
not. Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows:
yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.


(Isaiah 53: 1-4)]2
[For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the
government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be
called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting
Father, The Prince of Peace. (Isaiah 9:6)]3


Ioannes dixit: et Verbum caro factum est et habitavit in nobis et vidimus
gloriam eius gloriam quasi unigeniti a Patre plenum gratiae et veritatis.
Ioann. Cap. i/xiiii.


Dohn said: And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us
(and we beheld his glory; the glory as of the only begotten of the
Father), full of grace and truth. (John 1:14).]


Isaias dixit: laetabitur deserta et invia et exultabit solitudo et jforebit quasi
lilium. germinans germinabit et exultabit laetabunda et laudans. tunc
aperientur oculi cae corum et aures sordorum patebunt. tunc saliet sicut
cervus claudus aperta erit lingua mutorum: quia scissae sunt in deserto aquae et
torrentes in solitudine et quae erat arida in stagnum et sitiens in fontes
aquarum. in cubilibus in quibus prius dracones habitabant orietur viror
calami et iunci. et erit ibi semita et via sancta vocabitur. non transibit per
eam pollutus et haec erit vobis directa via ita ut stulti non errent per eam.
Cap. xxxv.


THE WAY OF WHAT IS TO COME I 229
[Isaiah said: The wilderness and the solitary place shall be glad
for them; and the desert shall rejoice, and blossom as the rose.
It shall blossom 'abundantly, and rejoice even with joy and
singing . . . Then the eyes of the blind shall be opened, and the
ears of the deaf shall be unstopped. Then shall the lame man leap
as a hart, and the tongue of the dumb sing: for in the wilderness
shall waters break out, and streams in the desert. And the parched
ground shall become a pool, and the thirsty land springs of water:
in the habitation of dragons, where each lay, shall be grass with
reeds and rushes. And an highway shall be there, and a way, and
it shall be called ~he way of holiness; the unclean shall not pass
over it; but it shall be for those: the wayfaring men, though fools,
shall not err therein. (Isaiah 35:1-8).]




[Written by C. G. Jung with his own hand in his house in
Kiisnacht/Ziirich in the year 1915.]


If I speak in the spirit of this time,S I must say:
no one and nothing can justify what I must proclaim to you.
Justification is superfluous to me, since I have no choice, but I
must. I have learned that in addition to the spirit of this time
there is still another spirit at work, namely that which rules the
depths of everything contemporary:6 The spirit of this tilne would
like to hear of use and value. I also thought this way, and my
humanity still thinks this way. But that other spirit forces me
nevertheless to speak, beyond justification, use, and meaning.
Filled with human pride and blinded by the presumptuous spirit
of the times, I long sought to hold that other spirit away from
me. But I did not consider that the spirit of the depths from
time immemorial and for all the future possesses a greater power
than the spirit of this time, who changes with the generations.
The spirit of the depths has subjugated all pride and arrogance to
the power of judgment. He took away my belief in science, he
robbed me of the joy of explaining and ordering things, and he let
devotion to the ideals of this time die out in me. He forced me
down to the last and simplest things.


The spirit of the depths took my understanding and all my
knowledge and placed them at the service of the inexplicable
and the paradoxical. He robbed me of speech and writing for
everything that was not in his service, namely the melting together
of sense and nonsense, which produces the supreme meaning.
But the supreme meaning is the path) the way and the bridge to what is to
come. That is the God yet to come. It is not the coming God himself but his
image which appears in the supreme meaning.


God .is an image) and those
who worship him must worship him in the images of the supreme meaning.

The supreme meaning is not a meaning and not an absurdity, it is image
and force in one, magnificence and force together.
The supreme meaning is the beginning and the end. It is the bridge of going
across and fulfillment.


The other Gods died of their temporality, yet the supreme meaning never
dies, it turns into meaning and then into absurdity, and out of the fire and
blood oj their collision the supreme meaning rises up rejuvenated anew.
The image of God has a shadow. The supreme meaning is real and casts a
shadow. For what can be actual and corporeal and have no shadow?
The shadow is nonsense. It lacks force and has no continued existence
through itself. But nonsense is the inseparable and undying brother of the
supreme meaning.


Like plants, so men also grow, some in the light, others in the shadows.
There are many who need the shadows and not the light.
The image of God throws a shadow that is just as great as itself.
The supreme meaning is great and it is as wide as the space of the
starry Heaven and as narrow as the cell of the living body.
The spirit of this time in me wanted to recognize the greatness
and extent of the supreme meaning, but not its littleness.
The spirit of the depths, however, conquered this arrogance, and
I had to swallow the small as a means of healing the immortal in
me. It completely burnt up my innards since it was inglorious and
unheroic. It was even ridiculous and revolting. But the pliers of
the spirit of the depths held me, and I had to drink the bitterest
of all draughts.


The spirit of this time tempted me with the thought that all
this belongs to the shadowiness of the God-image. This would
be pernicious deception, since the shadow is nonsense. But the
small, narrow, and banal is not nonsense, but one of both of the
essences of the Godhead.


I resisted recognizing that the everyday belongs to the image
of the Godhead. I fled this thought, I hid myself behind the
highest and coldest stars.
But the spirit of the depths caught up with me, and forced the
bitter drink between my lips.


The spirit of this time whispered to me: "This supreme
meaning, this image of God, this melting together of the hot
and the cold, that is you and only you." But the spirit of the
depths spoke to me: "IIYou are an image of the unending world,
all the last mysteries of becoming and passing away live in you.
If you did not possess all this, how could you know?"


For the sal<e of my human weakness, the spirit of the depths
gave me this word. Yet this word is also superfluous, since I
do not speal< it freely; but because I must. I speak because the
spirit robs me of joy and life if I do not spealcl2 I am the serf who
brings it and does not know what he carries in his hand. It would
burn his hands if he did not place it where his master orders him
to lay it.


The spirit of our time spoke to me and said: "What dire
urgency could be forcing you to speak all this?" This was an
awful temptation. I wanted to ponder what inner or outer
bind could force me into this, and because I found nothing
that I could grasp, I was near to making one up. But with
this the spirit of our time had almost brought it about that
instead of speaking, I was thinking again about reasons and
explanations. But the spirit of the depths spoke to me and
said: "To understand a thing is a bridge and possibility of
returning to the path. But to explain a matter is arbitrary and
sometimes even murder. Have you counted the murderers
among the scholars?"


But the spirit of this time stepped up to me and laid before
me huge volumes which contained all my knowledge. Their pages
were made of ore, and a steel stylus had engraved inexorable
words in them, and he pointed to these inexorable words and
spoke to me, and said: "What you speak, that is madness."
It is true, it is true, what I speak is the greatness and intoxication
and ugliness of madness.


But the spirit of the depths stepped up to me and said: "What
you speak is. The greatness is, the intoxication is, the undignified,
sick, paltry dailiness is. It runs in all the streets, lives in all the
houses, and rules the day of all humanity. Even the eternal stars
are commonplace. It is the great mistress and the one essence of
God. One laughs about it, and laughter, too, is. Do you believe,
man of this time, that laughter is lower than worship? Where is
your measure, false measurer?


The sum of life decides in laughter
and in worship, not your judgment."
I must also speal< the ridiculous. You coming men! You will
recognize the supreme meaning by the fact that he is laughter
and worship, a bloody laughter and a bloody worship. A sacrificial
blood binds the poles. Those who know this laugh and worship in
the same breath.


After this, however, my humanity approached me and said:
"What solitude, what coldness of desolation you lay upon
me when you speak such! Reflect on the destruction of being
and the streams of blood from the terrible sacrifice that the
depths demand.


But the spirit of the depths said: "No one can or should halt
sacrifice. Sacrifice is not destruction, sacrifice is the foundation
stone of what is to come. Have you not had monasteries? Have
not countless thousands gone into the desert? You should carry
the monastery in yourself The desert is within you. The desert
calls you and draws you back, and if you were fettered to the
world of this time with iron, the call of the desert would break all
chains. Truly; I prepare you for solitude."


After this, my humanity remained silent. Something happened
to my spirit, however, which I must call mercy:
My speech is imperfect. Not because I want to shine with
words, but out of the impossibility of finding those words,
I speak in images. With nothing else can I express the words
from the depths.


The mercy which happened to me gave me belief hope, and
sufficient daring, not to resist further the spirit of the depths, but
to utter his word. But before I could pull myself together to really
do it, I needed a visible sign that would show me that the spirit of

the depths in me was at the same time the ruler of the depths of
world affairs.


It happened in October of the year 1913 as I was leaving alone
for a journey; that during the day I was suddenly overcome in
broad daylight by a vision: I saw a terrible flood that covered all
the northern and low-lying lands between the North Sea and the
Alps. It reached from England up to Russia, and from the coast of
the North Sea right up to the Alps. I saw yellow waves, swimming
rubble, and the death of countless thousands.
This vision lasted for two hours, it confused me and made me
ill. I was not able to interpret it. Two weeks passed then the vision
returned, still more violent than before, and an inner voice spoke:
"look at it, it is completely real, and it will come to pass. You cannot
doubt this." I wrestled again for two hours with this vision, but it
held me fast. It left me exhausted and confused. And I thought my
mind had gone crazy.


From then on the anxiety toward the terrible event that stood
directly before us kept coming back. Once I also saw a sea of blood
over the northern lands.


In the year 1914 in the month of June, at the beginning and end of
the month, and at the beginning of July; I had the same dream three
times: I was in a foreign land, and suddenly; overnight and right in
the middle of summer, a terrible cold descended from space. All seas
and rivers were locked in ice, every green living thing had frozen.


The second dream was thoroughly similar to this. But the third
dream at the beginning of July went as follows:
I was in a remote English land. It was necessary that I return
to my homeland with a fast ship as speedily as possible. I reached
home quickly. In my homeland I found that in the middle of
summer a terrible cold had fallen from space, which had turned
every living thing into ice. There stood a leaf-bearing but fruitless
tree, whose leaves had turned into sweet grapes full of healing
juice through the working of the frost. I picked some grapes
and gave them to a great waiting throng.


In reality; now, it was so: At the time when the great war
broke out between the peoples of Europe, I found myself in
Scotland, compelled by the war to choose the fastest ship and
the shortest route home. I encountered the colossal cold that
froze everything, I met up with the flood, the sea of blood, and
found my barren tree whose leaves the frost had transformed into
a remedy. And I plucked the ripe fruit and gave it to you and I do
not know what I poured out for you, what bitter-sweet intoxicating
drink, which left on your tongues an aftertaste of blood.


Believe me: It is no teaching and no instruction that I give you.
 
Re-finding the Soul


[When I had the vision of the flood in October of the year
1913, it happened at a time that was significant for me as a man.
At that time, in the fortieth year of my life, I had achieved everything
that I had wished for myself I had achieved honor, power, wealth,
knowledge, and every human happiness. Then my desire for the

increase of these trappings ceased, the desire ebbed from me
and horror came over me. The vision of the flood seized me
and I felt the spirit of the depths, but I did not understand
him. Yet he drove me on with unbearable inner longing and
I said:


"My soul, where are you? Do you hear me? I speak, I call
you-are you there? I have returned, I am here again. I have
shaken the dust of all the lands from my feet, and I have come
to you, I am with you. After long years of long wandering, I
have come to you again. Should I tell you everything I have
seen, experienced, and drunk in? Or do you not want to hear
about all the noise of life and the world? But one thing you
must know: the one thing I have learned is that one must live
this life.


This life is the way, the long sought-after way to the
unfatholnable, which we call divine. There is no other way,
all other ways are false paths. I found the right way, it led me to
you, to my soul. I return, tempered and purified. Do you still
know me? How long the separation lasted! Everything has become
so different. And how did I find you? How strange my journey
was! What words should I use to tell you on what twisted paths
a good star has guided me to you? Give me your hand, my almost
forgotten soul. How warm the joy at seeing you again, you long
disavowed soul. Life has led me back to you. Let us thank the
life I have lived for all the happy and all the sad hours, for every
joy, for every sadness. My soul, my journey should continue with
you. I will wander with you and ascend to my solitude."


The spirit of the depths forced me to say this and at the
same time to undergo it against mysel£ since I had not expected
it then. I still labored misguidedly under the spirit of this time,
and thought differently about the human soul. I thought and
spoke much of the soul. I knew many learned words for her, I
had judged her and turned her into a scientific object. I did
not consider that my soul cannot be the object of my judgment
and knowledge; much more are my judgment and knowledge the
objects of my soul. Therefore the spirit of the depths forced me
to speal( to my soul, to call upon her as a living and self-existing
being. I had to become aware that I had lost my soul.


From this we learn how the spirit of the depths considers the
soul: he sees her as a living and self-existing being, and with this
he contradicts the spirit of this time for whom the soul is a thing
dependent on man, which lets herself be judged and arranged,
and whose circumference we can grasp. I had to accept that what
I had previously called my soul was not at all my soul, but a
dead system. Hence I had to speal( to my soul as to something
far off and unknown, which did not exist through me, but through
whom I existed.


He whose desire turns away from outer things, reaches the
place of the soul. If he does not find the soul, the horror of
emptiness will overcome him, and fear will drive him with a whip
lashing time and again in a desperate endeavor and a blind desire
for the hollow things of the world. He becomes a fool through
his endless desire, and forgets the way of his soul, never to find
her again. He will run after all things, and will seize hold of
them, but he will not find his soul, since he would find her only
in himself Truly his soul lies in things and men, but the blind
one seizes things and men, yet not his soul in things and Inen. He
has no knowledge of his soul. How could he tell her apart from
things and men? He could find his soul in desire itsel£ but not
in the objects of desire. If he possessed his desire, and his desire
did not possess him, he would lay a hand on his soul, since his
desire is the image and expression of his soul.


If we possess the image of a thing, we possess half the thing.
The image of the world is half the world. He who possesses
the world but not its image' possesses only half the world, since
his soul is poor and has nothing. The wealth of the soul exists in
images He who possesses the image of the world, possesses half
the world, even if his humanity is poor and owns nothing. But
hunger makes the soul into a beast that devours the unbearable
and is poisoned by it. My friends, it is wise to nourish the soul,
otherwise you will breed dragons and devils in your heart.
 
Soul and God


On the second night I called out to my soul:
"I am weary, my soul, my wandering has lasted too long, my
search for myself outside of myself Now I have gone through
events and find you behind all of them. For I made discoveries
on my erring through events, humanity, and the world. I found
men. And you, my soul, I found again, first in images within men
and then you yourself I found you where I least expected you.
You climbed out of a dark shaft. You announced yourself to me
in advance in dreams They burned in my heart and drove me to
all the boldest acts of daring, and forced me to rise above myself
You let me see truths of which I had no previous inlding. You let
me undertake journeys, whose endless length would have scared
me, if the knowledge of them had not been secure in you.
I wandered for many years, so long that I forgot that I
possessed a soul.


Where were you all this time? Which Beyond
sheltered you and gave you sanctuary? Oh, that you must speak
through me, that my speech and I are your symbol and expression!
How should I decipher you?


Who are you, child? My dreams have represented you as a
child and as a maiden. I am ignorant of your mystery. Forgive
me if I speak( as in a dream, like a drunkard-are you God? Is God
a child, a maiden? Forgive me if I babble. No one else hears me.
I speak to you quietly, and you know that I am neither a drunkard
nor someone deranged, and that my heart twists in pain from the
wound, whose darkness delivers speeches full of mockery: "You
are lying to yourself! You spoke so as to deceive others and make
them believe in you. You want to be a prophet and chase after
your ambition." The wound still bleeds, and I am far from being
able to pretend that I do not hear the mockery.


How strange it sounds to me to call you a child, you who still
hold the all-without-end in your hand. I went on the way of the
day, and you went invisibly with me, putting the pieces together
meaningfully, and letting me see the whole in each part.


You took away where I thought to take hold, and you gave me
where I did not expect anything and time and again you brought
about fate from new and unexpected quarters. Where I sowed,
you robbed me of the harvest, and where I did not sow, you give
me fruit a hundredfold. And time and again I lost the path and
found it again where I would never have foreseen it. You upheld
my belief when I was alone and near despair. At every decisive
moment you let me believe in myself"


Like a tired wanderer who had sought nothing in the world
apart from her, shall I come closer to my soul. I shall learn that
my soul finally lies behind everything, and if I cross the world,
I am ultimately doing this to find my soul. Even the dearest are
themselves not the goal and end of the love that goes on seeking,
they are symbols of their own souls.


My friends, do you guess to what solitude we ascend?
I must learn that the dregs of my thought, my dreams, are the
speech of my soul. I must carry them in my heart, and go back and
forth over them in my mind, lil(e the words of the person dearest
to me. Dreams are the guiding words of the soul. Why should I
henceforth not love my dreams and not make their riddling images
into objects of my daily consideration? You think that the dream is
foolish and ungainly. What is beautiful? What is ungainly? What
is clever? What is foolish? The spirit of this time is your measure,
but the spirit of the depths surpasses it at both ends. Only the
spirit of this time knows the difference between large and small.


But this difference is invalid, like the spirit which recognizes it. /
The spirit of the depths even taught me to consider Inaction
and my decision as dependent on dreams. Dreams pave the way
for life, and they determine you without you understanding their
language One would like to learn this language, but who can
teach and learn it? Scholarliness alone is not enough; there is a
knowledge of the heart that gives deeper insight.


The knowledge of the heart is in no book and is not to be found in the mouth
of any teacher, but grows out of you like the green seed from the
dark earth. Scholarliness belongs to the spirit of this time, but
this spirit in no way grasps the dream, since the soul is everywhere
that scholarly knowledge is not.


But how can I attain the knowledge of the heart? You can
attain this knowledge only by living your life to the full. You
live your life fully if you also live what you have never yet lived,
but have left for others to live or to think. You will say: "But I
cannot live or think everything that others live or think" But
you should say: "The life that I could still live, I should live, and
the thoughts that I could still think(, I should think.


" It appears as though you want to flee from yourself so as not to have to
live what remains unlived until now. But you cannot flee from

yourself It is with you all the time and demands fulfillment.
If you pretend to be blind and dumb to this demand, you feign
being blind and deaf to yourself .This way you will never reach
the knowledge of the heart.


The knowledge of your heart is how your heart is.
From a cunning heart you will know cunning.
From a good heart you will know goodness.


So that your understanding becomes perfect, consider that your
heart is both good and evil. You ask, "What? Should I also live evil?"
The spirit of the depths demands: "The life that you could still
live, you should live. Well-being decides, not your well-being, not
the well-being of the others, but only well-being."


Well-being is between me and others, in society. I, too, lived which
I had not done before, and which I could still do. I lived
into the depths, and the depths began to speak(. The depths taught
me the other truth. It thus united 'sense and nonsense in me.
I had to recognize that I am only the expression and symbol of
the soul. In the sense of the spirit of the depths, I am as I am in
this visible world a symbol of my soul, and I am thoroughly a ser£
completely subjugated, utterly obedient. The spirit of the depths
taught me to say: "I am the servant of a child."


Through this dictum I learn above all the most extreme humility, as what I most need.
The spirit of this time of course allowed me to believe in my
reason. He let me see myself in the image of a leader with ripe
thoughts. But the spirit of the depths teaches me that I am a
servant, in fact the servant of a child: This dictum Was repugnant
to me and I hated it. But I had to recognize and accept that my
soul is a child and that my God in my soul is a child.


If you are boys, your God is a woman.
If you are women, your God is a boy.
If you are men, your God is a maiden.
The God is where you are not.
So: it is wise that one has a God; this servesfor your peifection.
A maiden is the pregnant future.
A boy is the engenderingfuture.
A woman is: having given birth.
A man is: having engendered.


So: if you are childlike beings now, your God will descend from the height
of ripeness to age and death.
But if you are developed beings, having engendered or given birth, in body
or in soul, so your God rises from the radiant cradle, to the incalculable height
of the future, to the maturity and fullness of the coming time.


He who still has his life before him is a child.
He who lives life in the present is developed.
If you thus live all that you can live, you are developed.
He who is a child in this time, his Goldies.
He who is developed in this time, his God continues to live.
The spirit of the depths teaches this mystery.


Prosperous and woeful are those whose God is developed!
Prosperous and woeful are those whose God is a child!
What is better, that man has life ahead of him, or that God does?
I know no answer. Live; the unavoidable decides.


The spirit of the depths taught me that my life is encompassed by the divine
child. From his hand everything unexpected came to me, everything living.
This child is what I feel as an eternally springing youth in me.


In childish men you feel the hopeless transience. All that you saw passing
is yet to come for him. His future is full of transience.
But the transience of the things coming toward you has never yet experienced a human meaning.
Your continuing to live is a living onward. You engender and give birth
to what is to come, you are fecund, you live onward.
The childish is unfruitful, what is to come to him is what already has 'been
engendered and already withered. It does not live onward.
My God is a child, so wonder not that the spirit of this time in
me is incensed to mockery and scorn. There will be no one who
will laugh at me as I laughed at myself


Your God should not be a man of mockery, rather you yourself
will be the man of mockery. You should mock yourself and rise
above this. If you have still not learned this from the old holy
books, then go there, drink the blood and eat the flesh of him who
was mocked and tormented for the sake of our sins, so that you
totally become his nature, deny his being-apart-from-you; you
should be he himself -not Christians but Christ, otherwise you
will be of no use to the coming God.


Is there anyone among you who believes he can be spared the
way? Can he swindle his way past the pain of Christ? I say: "Such
a one deceives himself to his own detriment. He beds down on
thorns and fire. No one can be spared the way of Christ, since this
way leads to what is to come. You should all become Christs.
You do not overcome the old teaching through doing less, but
through doing more. Every step closer to my soul excites the scornful
laughter of my devils, those cowardly ear-whisperers and poison-mixers.
It was easy for them to laugh, since I had to do strange things.
 
Abslute treasure EmeraldHope, thank you so much for posting it. "I" especially found this amazingly profound, and strengthening to me at a difficult point in my struggles:
Is there anyone among you who believes he can be spared the way? Can he swindle his way past the pain of Christ? I say: "Such a one deceives himself to his own detriment. He beds down on thorns and fire. No one can be spared the way of Christ, since this way leads to what is to come. You should all become Christs. You do not overcome the old teaching through doing less, but through doing more. Every step closer to my soul excites the scornful laughter of my devils, those cowardly ear-whisperers and poison-mixers. It was easy for them to laugh, since I had to do strange things.
So, "I" shall continue to walk this path, which is the only way open to me, and "I" shall perservere through the tumult, going somewhere that "I" have only glimpsed, but know it is not guaranteed, for it is still only in potential, and "I" must DO to move closer to it.

Thank you again EmeraldHope, "I" shall go on replenished.
 

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