Things that have been happening to me

[slowone]

Hi all,

I thought I'd post what's been going on for me the last couple of weeks. I feel a need to share. :)

Last week having been having issues with a tight chest I decided to go and see my acupuncturist. I explained about my chest (didn't share about my smoking as I didn't want her to "fix" on that) and feeling really tight. I shared that I had been doing some therapy work about issues with my father.

"ah ah" she said "that's interesting" apparently according to her your father is ruled by the element of metal in Chinese medicine which interestingly also rules the lungs! Added to which we are in a metal year which means the whole issue is highlighted. Issues such as money, discipline and work are also highlighted under this element.

Anway she "cupped my back to release my lungs and worked on my Gallbladder meridian. Well oh my gosh the release I had was so powerful that I had a migraine on getting of the couch, couldn't teach my class that evening and ended up pretty much in bed for three days!

Still it spurred me on and I have begun a workbook dealing with working with my Inner Child which I intend to focus on for the next few months.

My energy personally though is very shaky almost like I am weak all the time and I'm exhausted all the time.

So cut to yesterday. Lying in my FIR sauna doing some Inner Child work and my FIR sauna burns a hole through the insulation ( 2 layers) all the way through to the mattress on my bed, burning a hole through the sheet on it's way! Alphonse has taken the matter in hand and is dealing with the supplier so I don't want to saying anything more about it here, suffice to say I was shocked!! :O

Then Last night I went to teach my Yoga class. Once a month another group uses another room next to the hall where I teach. They are very noisy and disruptive and the deal is they have to keep both of the doors between them and the hall shut to minimize disruption to my class.

I had to go out three times during my 1 1/2 hr class to shut the door as they kept both doors open all the time. The final straw was just as I was getting my class into relaxation and they very noisily started moving chairs etc.

I went in to speak to them and had to shout to be heard over their noise to just get them to hear me. They were very rude and aggressive generally, these are people all over 50! But one woman stood out immediately as wanting a row, asserting that the doors had been shut all the time and was I calling her a liar by saying that I had, had to shut them. Which was clever on her part because actually it was she accusing me of being the liar!

It was obvious to me that she was one of these people who ruled the group by their intimidating, aggressive energy, you know the type I'm sure, no one likes them but no one has the guts to tell them so they just keep throwing their weight around. Anyway it was clear she wanted in S.E London parlance to "have me" over this issue. I stood up for myself and pursued the issue which was their disruption of my class and complete lack of respect for my classes needs, that they knew they had to keep the doors shut etc. She actually had to be restrained verbally and physically by the chap in charge of the group.

Anyway I didn't feel intimidated by her but I was fascinated by the completely negative energy she was channeling toward me. She was the ultimate, mundane everyday predator trying to goad me into a row!!!She was so aggressive two members of my class came out to check I was OK!

I have taken the issue up with the hall but sadly I may have to move the class as I have no interest in having to deal with these people again and I am sure that they are incapable or unwilling to accommodate our class needs alongside there own. I don't know what will happen ultimately I will wait for the hall managers reply.

All in all a bad day after a tricky week. My energy is still really odd, shaky hands, feeling off centre energetically.

Forms of attack perhaps? Or just the usual ??

 

[Guardian]

Forms of attack perhaps? Or just the usual ??

Considering the number of posts about weird happenings, I'm fairly certain something is up. Granted, obnoxious jerks popping up in our daily lives are pretty common, but a FIR sauna blanket burning your bed is about a .9 on the seriously strange scale

Please keep your arms and legs inside the Strategic Enclosure until the Reptile Ride comes to a complete stop

 

[slowone]

Forms of attack perhaps? Or just the usual ??

Considering the number of posts about weird happenings, I'm fairly certain something is up. Granted, obnoxious jerks popping up in our daily lives are pretty common, but a FIR sauna blanket burning your bed is about a .9 on the seriously strange scale

Please keep your arms and legs inside the Strategic Enclosure until the Reptile Ride comes to a complete stop

Hee Hee I knew I never liked scary rides even when I was young, I was always the one with my eyes tightly shut and mouth wide open! No change there then

 

[Ollie]

... but a FIR sauna blanket burning your bed is about a .9 on the seriously strange scale Shocked

If you read the E-E thread, you'll find that this has happened to several of us in the last year or so - burning a hole in the FIR sauna blanket. For me, the supplier was more than happy to replace it.

 

[Guardian]

Hee Hee I knew I never liked scary rides even when I was young, I was always the one with my eyes tightly shut and mouth wide open! No change there then

LOL...I'm just the opposite, I wait in the extra long line so I can sit in the front car of the roller-coaster. While you may get bugs in your teeth in the front car, you're safe if anyone else on the ride gets sick :P

 

[slowone]

... but a FIR sauna blanket burning your bed is about a .9 on the seriously strange scale Shocked

If you read the E-E thread, you'll find that this has happened to several of us in the last year or so - burning a hole in the FIR sauna blanket. For me, the supplier was more than happy to replace it.

Thanks Trevrizent, I must have missed that. I'll check it out.

 

[Atreides]

I have never heard that Metal is linked to the Father, but I suppose it sounds reasonable, yes the lungs are a metal organ, specifically a yin one and linked to sorrowful emotions and regrets, and a headache after gallbladder work is pretty normal, the element for GB is wood, and also Anger. Normally you should balance out GB work by working on the Urinary Bladder meridian specifically UB62 you can find that here: http://www.holistic-guide.com/urinary-bladder-meridian if you have that happen again, just take a pencil with a good eraser on it and press the eraser up into that point with about 15 pounds of pressure to help relieve the headache. It's usually better to get someone to help you with it. You can also put a tennis ball under your knee and squeeze your leg on it to get UB38-55. You can also use LI4 http://www.holistic-guide.com/large-intestine-meridian

As for your sauna, that really sucks, I hope you guys get it all straightened out.

Cheers,
/Jason

 

[slowone]

I have never heard that Metal is linked to the Father, but I suppose it sounds reasonable, yes the lungs are a metal organ, specifically a yin one and linked to sorrowful emotions and regrets, and a headache after gallbladder work is pretty normal, the element for GB is wood, and also Anger. Normally you should balance out GB work by working on the Urinary Bladder meridian specifically UB62 you can find that here: http://www.holistic-guide.com/urinary-bladder-meridian if you have that happen again, just take a pencil with a good eraser on it and press the eraser up into that point with about 15 pounds of pressure to help relieve the headache. It's usually better to get someone to help you with it. You can also put a tennis ball under your knee and squeeze your leg on it to get UB38-55. You can also use LI4 http://www.holistic-guide.com/large-intestine-meridian

As for your sauna, that really sucks, I hope you guys get it all straightened out.

Cheers,
/Jason

Hi Atreides, Thanks for that. I will check out those links. Definitely can indentify with the anger!!!

Still waiting for things to settle from all that GB stimulation. Will try your release techniques. Going to have a nice massage this week instead. Found the acupuncture a bit full on!!! :)

 

[Alada]

Last week having been having issues with a tight chest I decided to go and see my acupuncturist. I explained about my chest (didn't share about my smoking as I didn't want her to "fix" on that) and feeling really tight. I shared that I had been doing some therapy work about issues with my father.

"ah ah" she said "that's interesting" apparently according to her your father is ruled by the element of metal in Chinese medicine which interestingly also rules the lungs! Added to which we are in a metal year which means the whole issue is highlighted. Issues such as money, discipline and work are also highlighted under this element.

Hi Slowone,

Count me in on the 'needs some metal work doing' side. I've been having acupuncture for years as a general tonic/preventative and metal has consistently been an element that needs working on, as has my relationship with my father. It's a good time of year to work of this element though, as I think this season - autumn moving into winter - is right in metal, so maybe that helped your treatment along.

Sounds like you did a good job fending off the petty tyrant at the hall, standing up for your class, but its worn you out in the process. Maybe work on staying a little more detached when fending off such types, remember to have fun! But if you're a bit zapped a the moment sounds like a soothing massage would be just the thing to give yourself a treat.

 

[slowone]

Last week having been having issues with a tight chest I decided to go and see my acupuncturist. I explained about my chest (didn't share about my smoking as I didn't want her to "fix" on that) and feeling really tight. I shared that I had been doing some therapy work about issues with my father.

"ah ah" she said "that's interesting" apparently according to her your father is ruled by the element of metal in Chinese medicine which interestingly also rules the lungs! Added to which we are in a metal year which means the whole issue is highlighted. Issues such as money, discipline and work are also highlighted under this element.

Hi Slowone,

Count me in on the 'needs some metal work doing' side. I've been having acupuncture for years as a general tonic/preventative and metal has consistently been an element that needs working on, as has my relationship with my father. It's a good time of year to work of this element though, as I think this season - autumn moving into winter - is right in metal, so maybe that helped your treatment along.

Sounds like you did a good job fending off the petty tyrant at the hall, standing up for your class, but its worn you out in the process. Maybe work on staying a little more detached when fending off such types, remember to have fun! But if you're a bit zapped a the moment sounds like a soothing massage would be just the thing to give yourself a treat.

Thanks Alada, Its and interesting connection the Father work and Metal. I'd never heard of it before but it would make sense.
I also noted what you said about this time of year being Metal, it's heavy metal overload for me!! :)

I'm working on my father issues as I said with inner child work but it's interesting that I can't be angry with my dad in any really significant way and I'd like to be. Not to express to him, but to release from me. I know it's there just turned inward.

The petty tyrant was really OK for me. This is the first time ever I spotted one before they spotted me so to speak. I had her pegged before she even spoke. Funnily enough though one of my Yoga attendees offered yesterday to scare her for me! It was said half in jest but it was nice to know they thought enough of me to back me up. :)

Massage tomorrow, no acupuncture for a couple of weeks. Plenty of inner child work to go.

 

[Chu]

I'm working on my father issues as I said with inner child work but it's interesting that I can't be angry with my dad in any really significant way and I'd like to be. Not to express to him, but to release from me. I know it's there just turned inward.

Dear slowone,

I can really relate to that. For years and years, even after going to therapy and reading the recommended books, I always clang to the idea that my father was the "good one" in the family. My mom was overtly narcissistic and abusive, so I had always had a very bad relationship with her. My dad, however, always treated me lovingly, or so I thought. He was the "martyr", who stayed with my mom just for the sake of his children. As a child, very early I decided I had to be all he wanted me to be, in order to "save him" and make him happy. And I did for almost all my life.

The problem was, as I found out much later, that he was the enabler of a narcissist. That can be more damaging than the pure narcissistic parent, because the child receives a conflicting message. For me, he was strict and emotionally unavailable, but he was caring. Compared to my mom, he was God!

End result: he pretty much governed all my actions and choices in life until I could face the fact that he never really loved me for who I was, but for how much I could be like him. It took me veeery long to realize this. I did manage to get angry at him in the end, but perhaps not fully yet. I understand why he was always like that, and I don't hold it against him anymore. But one has to go through that period of mourning for what never was if one wants to stop the past from controlling our lives.

I don't know whether your situation is similar to mine of not, so I won't write a very lengthy post. I just wanted to let you know that I understand how hard it can be to let this kind of illusion die, to express this type of anger. But you can do it, at your own pace.

 

[Z...]

Dear slowone,

I can really relate to that. For years and years, even after going to therapy and reading the recommended books, I always clang to the idea that my father was the "good one" in the family. My mom was overtly narcissistic and abusive, so I had always had a very bad relationship with her. My dad, however, always treated me lovingly, or so I thought. He was the "martyr", who stayed with my mom just for the sake of his children. As a child, very early I decided I had to be all he wanted me to be, in order to "save him" and make him happy. And I did for almost all my life.

The problem was, as I found out much later, that he was the enabler of a narcissist. That can be more damaging than the pure narcissistic parent, because the child receives a conflicting message. For me, he was strict and emotionally unavailable, but he was caring. Compared to my mom, he was God!

End result: he pretty much governed all my actions and choices in life until I could face the fact that he never really loved me for who I was, but for how much I could be like him. It took me veeery long to realize this. I did manage to get angry at him in the end, but perhaps not fully yet. I understand why he was always like that, and I don't hold it against him anymore. But one has to go through that period of mourning for what never was if one wants to stop the past from controlling our lives.

I don't know whether your situation is similar to mine of not, so I won't write a very lengthy post. I just wanted to let you know that I understand how hard it can be to let this kind of illusion die, to express this type of anger. But you can do it, at your own pace.

And I can relate to this, Aileen.
It is like you described my father and my mother. The only difference is in that I seem to be experiencing reverse dynamics with my father.
This is still one of the biggest puzzles that I am trying to solve. I spent most of my teenage years being angry at my father, this switched during my twenties to acceptance and better understanding between us ( although I could never be completely sincere with him) now I feel nothing but love for him as he does seem like some sort of hero on several levels ( my sister's illness was carried mostly on his back, together with my completely unpredictable mother) Certainly don't have any desire to get angry at him. Rather see him as some sort of STO hero.
I was pretty content with such outcome ( and stuck in self destructive pattern when it comes to relationships) until I discussed this once with Perceval and he said: Where do you think your ideas about relationships come from?
Since then I have been wondering, but still cannot see anything through the thick fog.

Slowone, wouldn't want to high jack your thread, seemed appropriate to share my experience here.

 

[slowone]

Dear slowone,

I can really relate to that. For years and years, even after going to therapy and reading the recommended books, I always clang to the idea that my father was the "good one" in the family. My mom was overtly narcissistic and abusive, so I had always had a very bad relationship with her. My dad, however, always treated me lovingly, or so I thought. He was the "martyr", who stayed with my mom just for the sake of his children. As a child, very early I decided I had to be all he wanted me to be, in order to "save him" and make him happy. And I did for almost all my life.

The problem was, as I found out much later, that he was the enabler of a narcissist. That can be more damaging than the pure narcissistic parent, because the child receives a conflicting message. For me, he was strict and emotionally unavailable, but he was caring. Compared to my mom, he was God!

End result: he pretty much governed all my actions and choices in life until I could face the fact that he never really loved me for who I was, but for how much I could be like him. It took me veeery long to realize this. I did manage to get angry at him in the end, but perhaps not fully yet. I understand why he was always like that, and I don't hold it against him anymore. But one has to go through that period of mourning for what never was if one wants to stop the past from controlling our lives.

I don't know whether your situation is similar to mine of not, so I won't write a very lengthy post. I just wanted to let you know that I understand how hard it can be to let this kind of illusion die, to express this type of anger. But you can do it, at your own pace.

And I can relate to this, Aileen.
It is like you described my father and my mother. The only difference is in that I seem to be experiencing reverse dynamics with my father.
This is still one of the biggest puzzles that I am trying to solve. I spent most of my teenage years being angry at my father, this switched during my twenties to acceptance and better understanding between us ( although I could never be completely sincere with him) now I feel nothing but love for him as he does seem like some sort of hero on several levels ( my sister's illness was carried mostly on his back, together with my completely unpredictable mother) Certainly don't have any desire to get angry at him. Rather see him as some sort of STO hero.
I was pretty content with such outcome ( and stuck in self destructive pattern when it comes to relationships) until I discussed this once with Perceval and he said: Where do you think your ideas about relationships come from?
Since then I have been wondering, but still cannot see anything through the thick fog.

Slowone, wouldn't want to high jack your thread, seemed appropriate to share my experience here.

Dear Alien and Corto,

I appreciate both your replies. Corto you haven't hijacked my thread it is all good for me to read and digest :)

I can't post in full now, and I'm now not sure if I would have to move this thread to the Swamp if I did. My post will be lengthy and I want to be clearer about where I am about my father when I do so that I make a truthful post.

You have both given me a place to start from and I hope that when I can post it, which will be soon I can move forward on it with you all.