Hi guys!
Thanks for the input.
This post will be quite long but I think I am starting to see a picture here, or so it seems in relation to the past and Work I am currently undergoing. I might be wrong but in any case, your insight is always welcome.
truth seeker said:
Hey JayMark,
I'm just going to throw out a few thoughts, so for what it's worth. Perhaps it's residual 'stuff' being processed from past addictions (whether food - gluten or other substances)? In terms of food, it can take quite some time for the body to get rid of them.
That's an idea I've been reflecting on yesterday. I remember Laura saying that it took her something like a good year to really feel better so considering I have been on paleo for a few months only (especially last two months since I've moved on my own and have full control on my groceries) I could be detoxifiying and it could be a factor that lead to the experience.
Also I have moved from countryside to Montréal again for school two months ago and I am concequently subject to more and stronger EMF. So perhaps since I'm cleansing, I am becoming more sensitive in a way and it could have been a factor that led to the experience.
But appart from that, there is more...
I'm also wondering if it's some kind of emotional processing you're experiencing. In other words, possibly beginning to deal with feelings you've been running from? If you're cleaning out your system, any hanger on's certainly wouldn't be 'happy' about that as your frequency would no longer match 'theirs'.
Good point. Even though things are going better and better, I'm far from being pure and "issue-less".
Here's a bit of my past. I'll touch the subject of my chemical addiction (legal med) but will not name it (unless relevant) nor discuss the 'act of', quantities or anything alike. It's very important for me to talk about it since it's a major point of my past but wish to do it within the forum's guidelines. I do not condone it at all as you'll see, it eventually led me to almost try to kill myself. So if there is anything wrong with the way I put it, just tell me.
During the years when I was a profound addict (chemical and sexual) I've had countless experiences with "beings" of some sort being around me, draining my life energy. They also often made me feel very intense sexual sensation (very serious here, literally as if they were having sex with me) and then they would drain it etc. At some point I got addicted to those "sexual encounters" but they would only happen if I "tuned" my mind to the right frequency with a legal substance (still a very strong mind-altering substance) and that would open myself right up to all sorts of attacks. So indeed a very vicious cycle. That, in the end, lead me almost to complete destruction of myself and having very strong suciadal thoughts (since the beginning of my addictions etc. and time I almost tried commiting suicide, about 6 years had passed).
Now I know this paragraph may seems crazy and it would be easy to blame it on substances telling myself there are no such things as "beings" that do that, I just hallucinated etc. but with everything I read here, I can make so many links with what I've experienced that I can't just dismiss it as being a mere figment of my immagination, or at least, certainly not entirely. More so, my sister who is very sensitive to that kind of stuff went once in my bedroom to sleep while her room was being renovated and she ended up waking up to a dark figure trying to choke her at night. Note that she wasen't aware of my experiences. One of her friend also said she saw a huge dark figure in my door frame (and she wasen't aware of my situation neither). Me and my sister could even pin point the strongest "energy point" in my room, kind if we had found a "door". When I was "tuned in" I could see "conduits" (that would drain my energy) one that led to my third eye chackra and also primal chackra when sex was involved. Those conduits seemed to emanate from these "entities". Now about primal chackra and sex, I understnad but what's up with third eye chackra?
Other symptoms have included my floor getting so cold I had to put slippers (and my floor was carpeted), "dark figures" passing through my body and touching me (cold, tension) and I've also been choked very intensely at least once.
Anyhow, will elaborate if asked. I am totally open to discuss this with you guys. There is a lot more for me to learn from that very dark part of my life. I think that as much as my dissociative experience was terrifying, as much as I think it just re-opened a very important door with a whole new perspective.
Coincidely, I've had some weird cravings not so long ago about the addictions I discussed. I wasen't feeling bad or anything (actually I was in a happy mood) but it got to me pretty intensely for a few minutes. I decided of course not to let myself fall back into this and then, coincidely again, this whole experience (my dream-like dissociation) happened a few days later. Kind if "something" dosen't like the fact I quit all this crap and want me "back at it" (I like to call this a self-destruction program). Could also be part of my own-self (like the old ego) but I feel there might very well be more, or should I say, more "influences" from beyond.
I went back over some of your threads and while I see that you're on bone broth and seem to be on the Paleo diet, can you say specifically what it is that you eat? I'm just wondering if there's something that you may be sensitive to.
Last, how are you doing with ee?
Meat: Beef, pork, fish
Fats: Lard, butter
Veggies: Sometimes a bit of mushroom and/or onions, more rarely a bit of salad
Other: Eggs (sometimes), bone broth, salt, melatonin
About EE, I should really put more efforts into it. I often just don't even think about it. Pipe breathing alone is very easy to do and can be done virtually anywhere (and I'm able to do it silently now). Thanks for brigning this very point. It is important and would help me a lot, especially with what happened. Quite frankly, I should have done that right after my experience to help me calm down but for some odd reason, it didn't even come to my mind. I think I'll put reminders everywhere I go (papers etc) to help me think about it until it becomes a natural reflex.
alkhemst said:
I understand it wasn't a sleep state experience but similar things happened to me with sleep paralysis (which is rare for me now). My understanding of that is it's an out of body thing, which happens for a variety of different reasons, often not directly related to sleep issues. One is a kind of inadvertent disassociation that being a long time on the computer can trigger (were you tired, on the computer for a long time late at night for instance?)
I've had sleep paralysis in the past and although it wasen't like it, I do note similarities, especially the mind-body dissociation.
Actually I wasen't tired at all. I had slept very well the night before. Also, I had been cleaning my room peacefully for a great part of the morning like I usually do on weekends and I had just sat down to check my messages on the net when it happened.
In that situation, you've got to detach from your body to just sit for that long by itself, so you'd be already in a state where you're ignoring your body's normal cues (like its time to sleep / eat etc.). Then you're sort of already close to, or primed to disassociate.
I would guess it is very possible but as I've said, I slept the entire night before and barely got on the net for a few minutes when it came.
So if you do go out of body, the centre of perception isn't with the body anymore, so its got to be somewhere else (as you're still perceiving things). Also if you're not in you're body, you cant be perceiving via the body's senses, so what you're seeing isn't you normal sight or what you're sensing in terms of hot / cold is not normal temperature.
Humm, in that case, I wasen't totally out of my body. As I stated, it felt exactly as if half of my consciousness was in another (non-physical) relam while the other half remained here. I could still perceive via senses but only partly as half of my mind was elsewhere perceiving other things (diffrently) all at the same time. About the temperature it was burning hell. So whether or not it was my real temperature, it still made my body intensely purge sweat for about 10 seconds.
If you rule out that its a kind of body / physical malfunction, then Id say you viewing parts of hyper dimensional space.
Could be one, the other or both. I really think there deffinately was something esoteric/paranormal about this to be honnest. If I think of what I experienced in the past as stated above, about what's going on now, about all I've read here and also about other people's experiences, I would say it is very possible although there is a lot of speculation here of course. So I'm not going to draw any definitive conclusion.
And if that's the case, then those entities around you where probably there already, because of an openness you might have to them, and and attraction they have to you. If you're in the state of body deprivation (I'm not assuming that's the case), then its more likely those of the predator inclined or maybe the kind of parasitic type, that are feeding from the type of energy you might be giving off.
From experience and research, it is highly probable that I've attracted many negative entities in the past. Maybe they are visiting and trying to pull me back into the hell I was before in order to feed off me and prevent me from "awaking" (since knowledge protects). Again, this is speculative but you know, after all that either I am completely mentally ill or either there was indeed a great deal of paranormal in my life.
This all could be way off, in that case take it with a grain of salt, otherwise hope it might add some clarity.
No worries. We are all speculating at this point. I might be completely off myself. But I do see some interesting pattern starting to emerge. Thanks for replying.
Pheww, that was long! Took me well over an hour! But I feel great sharing all this with you guys.
So for those who had the courage to get through it feel entirely free to add insight. Thanks for reading.
Peace.
