I hope that I'm not stepping out of bounds by replying to this. Whatever the feedback, hopefully we can learn something together and I hope that it in some way helps.
luke wilson said:
This is abit of my dilemma. The things that run the majority of people and satisfy them, work and has been working for millenia, because it just happens.
Does it satisfy them? If that were the case then I would have to ask why do we have all these things and why do we keep creating even more things in an attempt to "advance"? Why does it seem that most are always striving for more and more? Is it possible that the majority are not in fact satisfied but in fact starving and are not sure how to satiate this need that they feel, yet have been led to believe that if they only have this item or that item they will then be happy? Yet they seemingly always want more?
Look around you. Look harder around you than anything you have ever looked at in your life. Can we honestly say that people are content? This could be another lesson that I need to learn, but I honestly do not see contentment. I see many things, but not contentment.
luke wilson said:
This act of reaction or automation works because it just does. It's almost easy for the majority and they love it, they live there lives in it and you know what, at the end of the day, am sure some receive a certain level of satisfaction with how things are, primarily.
I'm not sure if it satisfy's them, but it does on the surface seem to appear that they love it. They love it so much that they are able to ignore pure horror visited upon this planet and all of it inhabitants so that they can continue to reach higher and higher in the material world.
Is this a definition of true love, the constant demanding of more and more no matter the cost, no matter the harm? If we look deeper, what do we see?
luke wilson said:
The problem for me is the 'cross-over.' That just doesnt happen!!! You can have all the desire in the world, all the gusto the universe can bestow on a man and still, that might not be enough.
True. The way that I understand it is that much depends upon not only what we have learned in this life, but what we have learned in past lives. In other words, if in my past lives I had fulfilled certain parameters required in my lessons, as long as I continued the path in this life there would be a good chance that the lessons learned would come a bit easier.
Listen, this is the way I see it. I have been searching for a long time. It seems to be forever. Recently I just took my first baby step and you know what? I am overjoyed. It is almost impossible to put into words just how thrilled I am. It doesn't matter to me how long it took, nor does it matter to me that this one little step has, instead of lessening my workload, has increased it beyond comprehension. I am happy with this. I feel blessed. I realize that this one baby step may very well require that I study and observe and recognize this one simple feat for the rest of this life and I am willing to continue on with this.....I am honored to do this. Hopefully this will crystallize into a core part of my nature and I have the opportunity to carry this one simple feat into any future lives I may lead. I don't know how long it will take, or if it will be even possible for me to reach that second little step, but I know one thing. I'm willing to give it everything I have and I'm willing to do it until I either succeed or cease to exist.
I don't know if I'm going to "catch this wave" or not. If not, does this mean that I should just quit now or should I not worry about it and just continue to work to the best of my ability? I already know what my CHOICE is.
luke wilson said:
See, my problem is, I am caught smack in the middle of nowhere, where I cant go back and it's like trying to find a single palm-tree in a huge desert that happens to be the 'cross-over.' The journey from automation to freedom(and much needed happiness) is a marathon, not a sprint(atleast for me) and what am trying to ask, is, I think in this journey across this desert, there comes a point, where EVERYONE hits a wall unless you're like special or something like that(?). I dont know if you guys have seen the movie 'Run Fatboy Run' where Simon Pegg talks about the wall that every marathon runner hits in the race... My question is, how does one get over this wall, not the one that marathon runners hit but the one am trying to point at??
Yep, this wall is hell. It is a test of will, a test of endurance, a test of determination and dedication. How long are you willing to bang your head against it?
I think that much of it is up to the individual. It seems that some people can come up to these walls and perhaps due to their past work are able to smash it down very quickly with a wreaking ball. Others, such as myself......I think that I had a teaspoon.
I used to be envious of those with the wreaking ball. I wanted to be able to quickly understand everything and I wanted to "save" the world.
It does not work like this. It is not up to me to save the world, and I certainly did not have a wreaking ball. I had a teaspoon and that was it.
What can I do? I can work on myself. I can do my best to assist others who ask. I can continue to happily work with this teaspoon until whatever powers that be decide that I have learned my lesson and upgrade my arsenal to a hammer and chisel. What else can I do? In my current state, what else do I really have that I can work on?
luke wilson said:
This is my 'issue.' I dont think sweat and struggle are enough. If they were enough, alot of people would have got out of dodge by now and through the bygone millenias!! What is the missing ingredient(s)? The one that makes all the difference, or a huge chunk of it. Don juan says it's energy and freeing it up and the only way to do this is by living impeccably. That is dangerously vague it makes me want to pull my hair out, am hoping someone else can shed some light on this...
If you don't think sweat and struggle are enough, then you are correct, it will not be enough and you will probably have to think your way around it. I'm sorry, the only thing I have are a teaspoon and a direction. For the time being I know no other way.
I do not look at all of the information on this site and a select few others to be a quick rout to the wreaking ball. I see this information more as a map that I have to study and learn. A map that points to the little crevices and weak spots in the wall that you are facing. Using this information and my proverbial teaspoon, I have been able to move forward. One tiny step but forward nonetheless. I call that a small victory and worth celebrating.
I at one time wanted to run also. Heck, I wanted to fly....skip all this other stuff. Impossible expectation and wishful thinking. I still have to understand this first step.
FWIW, as far as what Don Juan was saying. I'm pretty sure that he was acknowledging what the end goal was. I'm not sure if this is something we should worry about. When we reach that point, we will be at that point. Not before. Sorry, wish I could give you more.
luke wilson said:
I am not sure but if I had to give an answer I'd say I think the aim is getting out of here and escaping these vicious, merciless, relentless loops!! The meaning might just be to experience stuff. Maybe the universe doesnt really care what we experience just aslong as we are experiencing something. So come total destruction or total/partial liberation, the universe just doesnt care but maybe it'd like us to be free so we can go on experiencing some more stuff... Maybe(?). Maybe that is why the Cs are helping us, not to save us but to save themselves so they can go on keeping on being aware and stuff.... - those greedy 6D beings!
I only have one thing to say here. This is one big school and we are here to learn IF WE CHOOSE TO. The lessons are not easy to begin with and we at times to make them even harder than they have to be. There is just no easy way.
Dave.
