What are you here to experience and why?

[Oxajil]

ANd to control my emotions is part of the battle. I just went to see 'Avatar' yeasterday and I started crying the first time I saw the beautiful forest on the screen. The movie did something to my emotions, which I have been working so hard to control, that I found myself unable 'completely' to control. I was like an idiot crying for something that was unreal; the movie was just a movie that's all. But for some reason I just wanted to become part of the movie and to never return to this reality.

Dear Mona,

In order for us to control our emotions, we first need to have knowledge of these emotions. Perhaps it would be good to read Gnosis, In Search of the Miraculous and for example Women Who Love Psychopaths, etc. to get an idea of the situation you're in. Reading the Psychology books recommended in the Books section of this forum is also important.

Suppressing your emotions is not the way to go.

There is nothing wrong or idiotic about crying. Crying has nothing to do with being weak.

If you cry watching the scenes from Avatar, maybe that's because you long so much for a place where there is some kind of good or atleast better than here? If so; Use that longing as an inspiration, as a fire to continue to do what you do. Be it reading, networking here, experimenting with cooking healthy, practicing hobbies etc.
At least try to make your environment a better place. Continue doing the EE and read the books that will help you understand your situation, emotions, thoughts etc. which will help with cleansing yourself.

Without knowledge we can do very little and might handle things the wrong way. And whoever told you you're an emotional idiot, you're not. It's okay to cry.

I must say that I've also had thoughts about wanting to escape this world and live in a place like Pandorra. But we have to snap out of our fantasies, face reality and we got to step it up. Perhaps one day we can make our fantasies reality, until then, let's try to do what is in us to do.

If not now, then when?

 

[Skipling]

Hi Carlybee. :) Some very insightful posts here and a very appropriate thread for many of us at this point in time, I would dare to say. By that i mean those of us who have grasped perhaps the enormity of the task of reaching objective self knowledge and ridding ourselves of chemical and ideological toxicity. The terror of the situation indeed. I've been well slow on the uptake, so i might be projecting here.

If I could condense a thought, i would say that I am here to awaken to my own estate, having finally got the gist of how terrible the situation is. It really is like the plank in the eye thing. How can you reconcile your perception of reality without with reality within? And it is a massive task. Emerging from years of denial, despite myriad hints from the universe, to face your inner reality without flinching from it. Come to terms with the wrong things I've done, the years I've wasted, and finally cry the tears i've both searched for and sometimes suppressed. I think they come with the realisations along the way, and they are so neccessary, imo, so I am with Oxajil on this one .