When you're born, you're setting off on a journey of self-actualisation and it's journey that's effectively a long walk.
In the beginning, you're carried by your parents because your emotional legs haven't developed to the point where they can bear weight, and so you're being carried along on their own journey at their pace. At some point, your parents have to start setting you down onto the ground and let you try out your legs a little, letting you take a few steps while holding their hand. At the times where you're doing this, your parents job is to slow down to your pace, not rush you, and let you move along until you start to get tired, and then they need to pick you back up again and carry you along until you're ready to try that again. At that point, they should set you down again and allow you to walk at your pace, with them walking with you.
Over time, your emotional legs will learn to take the weight on the journey to self-actualisation.
However, if our parents aren't emotionally aware, when they set you down to try out your legs, they won't slow to your pace - they'll make you have to try to run along at their pace, along side them. Your legs aren't ready for this, and so your first experience of developing your emotional legs is that it's just impossible and they can't be relied on.
Then, when your parents see that your legs can't carry you at their pace, they give you a pair of crutches and you use those crutches to swing yourself along in an unnatural, artificial way. They too had to learn to rely on crutches rather than develop their emotional legs and the two crutches they give you are identical to theirs.
One of the crutches represents your artificial, internal emotional leg and the other represents your artificial, external emotional leg. The internal one will be whatever internal crutches they have: fear, rage, jealousy, insecurity, neediness. The external one will be things like drugs, work, distractions by hanging out with friends, overwork, obsessive cleaning, etc. The kicker is that the two crutches aren't the same length: One is slightly shorter than the other, resulting in you inevitably, over time, just going round in a big circle rather than a straight line.
Crutches can't last as long as properly developed emotional legs and they can't get you to the destination of self-actualisation.
This is where awakening/unveiling and The Work begin.
You're going through life feeling artificial, that something's not authentic and it's you learned you can't stop - you have to keep on going. It's these crutches you're relying on. They're not the really part of you and you can't be who you really are because you haven't learned to stand on your own two feet. When you realise this, the Universe comes into your life, let's you put the crutches down and puts callipers on your legs, like the ones Forest Gump had to wear as a boy.
Again, one of the callipers represents your internal emotional world and one of them the external world. You become infused on the inside with a passion and a seeking and a joy of life and that is echoed in your external environment, new people come into your life and old ones leave, your job might change or you move to a new house.
So you continue on on the path of self-actualisation, this time on your own emotional legs, they're just supported from the outside by the Universe. But like crutches, the callipers can't get you to your destination: Only your own, fully developed legs can do that. So at some point, when you're making good progress the Universe has to come in and take away the callipers, so your emotional legs can continue to grow and strengthen. For a while, it holds your hand still, while you make sure you're steady on your feet, and then, like a parent who is holding the back of the bike the first time you take the training wheels off, once you get going, it has to let go.
And emotionally, you're on your own.
But what was the reason for the crutches in the first place? So you could keep up at your parents pace - be who they wanted you to be. And that entailed never stopping, never learning the importance of rest and how to do it - how to be with yourself and give yourself what you need when you need it. Instead, rest for you has always been the crutches you used to help you carry on - your programmed coping mechanisms.
With the callipers - the influx of Universal strength and the effect that had on your reality - you didn't need to rest either, but you didn't need to have the crutches either and you thought it was going to be like that forever. Now, you're growing weary, tired, aching for the crutches because this shouldn't be happening! You should be able to carry on with joy and enthusiasm. Going at your own pace and resting - you learned - DOESN'T WORK. And so, you believe that it's really your LEGS that don't work.
It's not that they don't work - it's that they're underdeveloped. So here, you have two options: Reach for the crutches, or realise that you need to learn to go at your own pace and rest in between each section of your journey, building the strength in your emotional legs, one step at a time.
In the beginning, you're carried by your parents because your emotional legs haven't developed to the point where they can bear weight, and so you're being carried along on their own journey at their pace. At some point, your parents have to start setting you down onto the ground and let you try out your legs a little, letting you take a few steps while holding their hand. At the times where you're doing this, your parents job is to slow down to your pace, not rush you, and let you move along until you start to get tired, and then they need to pick you back up again and carry you along until you're ready to try that again. At that point, they should set you down again and allow you to walk at your pace, with them walking with you.
Over time, your emotional legs will learn to take the weight on the journey to self-actualisation.
However, if our parents aren't emotionally aware, when they set you down to try out your legs, they won't slow to your pace - they'll make you have to try to run along at their pace, along side them. Your legs aren't ready for this, and so your first experience of developing your emotional legs is that it's just impossible and they can't be relied on.
Then, when your parents see that your legs can't carry you at their pace, they give you a pair of crutches and you use those crutches to swing yourself along in an unnatural, artificial way. They too had to learn to rely on crutches rather than develop their emotional legs and the two crutches they give you are identical to theirs.
One of the crutches represents your artificial, internal emotional leg and the other represents your artificial, external emotional leg. The internal one will be whatever internal crutches they have: fear, rage, jealousy, insecurity, neediness. The external one will be things like drugs, work, distractions by hanging out with friends, overwork, obsessive cleaning, etc. The kicker is that the two crutches aren't the same length: One is slightly shorter than the other, resulting in you inevitably, over time, just going round in a big circle rather than a straight line.
Crutches can't last as long as properly developed emotional legs and they can't get you to the destination of self-actualisation.
This is where awakening/unveiling and The Work begin.
You're going through life feeling artificial, that something's not authentic and it's you learned you can't stop - you have to keep on going. It's these crutches you're relying on. They're not the really part of you and you can't be who you really are because you haven't learned to stand on your own two feet. When you realise this, the Universe comes into your life, let's you put the crutches down and puts callipers on your legs, like the ones Forest Gump had to wear as a boy.
Again, one of the callipers represents your internal emotional world and one of them the external world. You become infused on the inside with a passion and a seeking and a joy of life and that is echoed in your external environment, new people come into your life and old ones leave, your job might change or you move to a new house.
So you continue on on the path of self-actualisation, this time on your own emotional legs, they're just supported from the outside by the Universe. But like crutches, the callipers can't get you to your destination: Only your own, fully developed legs can do that. So at some point, when you're making good progress the Universe has to come in and take away the callipers, so your emotional legs can continue to grow and strengthen. For a while, it holds your hand still, while you make sure you're steady on your feet, and then, like a parent who is holding the back of the bike the first time you take the training wheels off, once you get going, it has to let go.
And emotionally, you're on your own.
But what was the reason for the crutches in the first place? So you could keep up at your parents pace - be who they wanted you to be. And that entailed never stopping, never learning the importance of rest and how to do it - how to be with yourself and give yourself what you need when you need it. Instead, rest for you has always been the crutches you used to help you carry on - your programmed coping mechanisms.
With the callipers - the influx of Universal strength and the effect that had on your reality - you didn't need to rest either, but you didn't need to have the crutches either and you thought it was going to be like that forever. Now, you're growing weary, tired, aching for the crutches because this shouldn't be happening! You should be able to carry on with joy and enthusiasm. Going at your own pace and resting - you learned - DOESN'T WORK. And so, you believe that it's really your LEGS that don't work.
It's not that they don't work - it's that they're underdeveloped. So here, you have two options: Reach for the crutches, or realise that you need to learn to go at your own pace and rest in between each section of your journey, building the strength in your emotional legs, one step at a time.
