Experiences

[ChampionofMorrigan]

Ok so it’s almost 4am in the morning. So I have a lot on my mind. First and foremost. I am a trans man meaning female to male. I was born this way there was never a time that I woke up and said it whatever.. and I never knew what the term transgender meant. I just knew I always felt the way I did but when I first heard of it at the age 30, I immediately knew that’s what I was and it was an eye-opener and I’ve changed so much. I have been on testosterone shots for a few years, but I keep getting uprooted and I’m unable to keep taking the shots consistently because I keep having them move and making it difficult for me to even have proper care. Anyway, I’ve already read some stuff on this website and I have been absolutely the type of person who’s always stay to myself and you know quiet I don’t advertise that I’m trans but what really makes me mad about all this political bullshit with Donald Trump and his precious administration is that it has a spot on me with my family members who consider themselves Republicans and for years, I have no issue with them nor they me, but since they just jumped on the bandwagon with all this political bullshit plus they believe we’re in the end times literally it’s been a complete headache so besides all that, I also want to share the fact that I have explored so many different religions and spiritual practices and paths from Christianity, Satanism, Hinduism , Wicca, shamanism, etc and currently I consider myself a gnostic pagan and I used the word pagan as outside of Islam Judaism and Christianity. I just wondered if anyone notices that trend with these religions they got those gatekeepers and fundamentalists which is absolutely insane. I have also encountered a few group groups associated with the Freemasons and royal dragon court and obviously I was hard-core rejected from these groups, including templefzeus.org aka joy of Satan I have left that as well because I rejected their Nazi ideology and at one point I used to explore all of that cause I wanted to understand the mechanics behind it and I still just couldn’t jump on it. I just do not feel that racial hatred is nothing more to me than someone who’s insecure about their own self. So I came across Laura knight-jadoczyk by accident, but I’m glad that I was directed here.

Anyway, I wanted to point out someone who’s truly transgendered like myself faced a lot of difficulties specially in the dating world oh my goodness. I have accepted the fact that I may never find a decent woman. It’s really hard for me to talk about the step in contexts what’s discussed here. Because most of the women on this planet that I meet are narcissistic, money hungry and trust me I have been an abusive relationships and I am usually treated less than a person that it’s just so twisted. I can’t even find the right word for it, but I’ll tell you my last relationship taught me a good lesson. I have been through a lot of bullshit. It just feels like it’s been one constant fight just to exist as I do and fight for me to have such a partnership. And I was just wondering, what is the spiritual implications for any of this?

When I was a baby my mother side I was on life support and she had complications when I was in the womb she said she has experienced seeing UFOs and has levitated off the bed before while she was pregnant with me. And you wanna know what’s weird about the whole thing. My mother was so sure she was gonna have a baby boy and well the truth is here I am a trans man. So I just wanted a point to something else in 2021 on June 19. I ended up in a terrible car accident and I was in a coma for three months. I had some visions that came to me at that time, and not all of them were meant to be taken literally, but they still came the pass. Some were literal and others were not and also depended on circumstances as well. Anyway, one vision talked about the return of Christ when I was sitting by a Yule tree and what I do remember is a white gold white light engulfed me a mess surroundings, and I sort of felt an euphoria when I was unconscious, but I want to say I met a 9 foot red haired woman wearing a simple black dress like you would wear at a restaurant and she was absolutely gorgeous. She stepped forth from a wall of water. I felt this connection with her, but she told me she was here for two things to guide me and challenge like in terms to grow she was compassionate and a weird feeling came over me during my coma when I spoke with her, which was through telepathy , I felt an erotic attraction to her I’m not sure why what happened but anyways it just caught me by surprise and then at some point, the scenery changed my vision, and I was back to this place that look like a jungle type of garden with iridescent vivid colors and everything glowed and that same woman met with me under a tree. It was just a quiet connection anyway I have no idea who she was per se, but I will say that it was definitely an experienced. I did share these so-called visions with someone and well they had a total freak out and threatened me with police and harassment and and that was my first time to ever talk to them so after that, I just left it at home so I haven’t really shared any of this with anyone because I’m tired of sharing visions because nobody seem to understand at all how I feel comfortable not to share it here now mind you these visions or whatever experience may just be way. My mind is coping with everything..

So with that being said, I just know that there’s plenty of more thing that happened to me in my life for being to even come this far a lot of the experiences that I’ve had and just having that in her knowing about certain things has sort of made me feel a bit isolated because I have tried to join different groups and they just had issues because it didn’t fit a narrative or I had something to do mostly with them wanting to have control

I am open to discussions on my experiences or even your insights. So before I go, I just wanted to say how it ended up. Here was my interactions with the Morrigan I was a dedicant on and off for over 20 years and it wasn’t until 2024 I began to be revealed her identity as an interdimensional entity and I’ll be honest with you, I was a little shocked at first and questioned. Why would she tell me this and the direction this was going from what I gathered it was based on reciprocated relationship that is intense and I approached her like I would another living human being except she is humanoid but ability to shapeshift ? Anyways, she always empathize to me before I even started realizing all this stuff is that her followers and devotees don’t approach her like I do I don’t necessarily approach her like some distant being that needs worship or whatever. So my relationship with her evolved ever since in 2024 when I explored outside the norm and it’s been quiet and experience. That’s for sure.. but overall, I have changed and expanded (well physically I may have gained some weight,)

Anyways, I hope this post can be read by the right person. I’m sorry if it comes across a little scattered so I am open to whatever

 

[iamthatis]

Ok so it’s almost 4am in the morning. So I have a lot on my mind. First and foremost. I am a trans man meaning female to male. I was born this way there was never a time that I woke up and said it whatever.. and I never knew what the term transgender meant. I just knew I always felt the way I did but when I first heard of it at the age 30, I immediately knew that’s what I was and it was an eye-opener and I’ve changed so much. I have been on testosterone shots for a few years, but I keep getting uprooted and I’m unable to keep taking the shots consistently because I keep having them move and making it difficult for me to even have proper care. Anyway, I’ve already read some stuff on this website and I have been absolutely the type of person who’s always stay to myself and you know quiet I don’t advertise that I’m trans but what really makes me mad about all this political bullshit with Donald Trump and his precious administration is that it has a spot on me with my family members who consider themselves Republicans and for years, I have no issue with them nor they me, but since they just jumped on the bandwagon with all this political bullshit plus they believe we’re in the end times literally it’s been a complete headache so besides all that, I also want to share the fact that I have explored so many different religions and spiritual practices and paths from Christianity, Satanism, Hinduism , Wicca, shamanism, etc and currently I consider myself a gnostic pagan and I used the word pagan as outside of Islam Judaism and Christianity. I just wondered if anyone notices that trend with these religions they got those gatekeepers and fundamentalists which is absolutely insane. I have also encountered a few group groups associated with the Freemasons and royal dragon court and obviously I was hard-core rejected from these groups, including templefzeus.org aka joy of Satan I have left that as well because I rejected their Nazi ideology and at one point I used to explore all of that cause I wanted to understand the mechanics behind it and I still just couldn’t jump on it. I just do not feel that racial hatred is nothing more to me than someone who’s insecure about their own self. So I came across Laura knight-jadoczyk by accident, but I’m glad that I was directed here.

Anyway, I wanted to point out someone who’s truly transgendered like myself faced a lot of difficulties specially in the dating world oh my goodness. I have accepted the fact that I may never find a decent woman. It’s really hard for me to talk about the step in contexts what’s discussed here. Because most of the women on this planet that I meet are narcissistic, money hungry and trust me I have been an abusive relationships and I am usually treated less than a person that it’s just so twisted. I can’t even find the right word for it, but I’ll tell you my last relationship taught me a good lesson. I have been through a lot of bullshit. It just feels like it’s been one constant fight just to exist as I do and fight for me to have such a partnership. And I was just wondering, what is the spiritual implications for any of this?

When I was a baby my mother side I was on life support and she had complications when I was in the womb she said she has experienced seeing UFOs and has levitated off the bed before while she was pregnant with me. And you wanna know what’s weird about the whole thing. My mother was so sure she was gonna have a baby boy and well the truth is here I am a trans man. So I just wanted a point to something else in 2021 on June 19. I ended up in a terrible car accident and I was in a coma for three months. I had some visions that came to me at that time, and not all of them were meant to be taken literally, but they still came the pass. Some were literal and others were not and also depended on circumstances as well. Anyway, one vision talked about the return of Christ when I was sitting by a Yule tree and what I do remember is a white gold white light engulfed me a mess surroundings, and I sort of felt an euphoria when I was unconscious, but I want to say I met a 9 foot red haired woman wearing a simple black dress like you would wear at a restaurant and she was absolutely gorgeous. She stepped forth from a wall of water. I felt this connection with her, but she told me she was here for two things to guide me and challenge like in terms to grow she was compassionate and a weird feeling came over me during my coma when I spoke with her, which was through telepathy , I felt an erotic attraction to her I’m not sure why what happened but anyways it just caught me by surprise and then at some point, the scenery changed my vision, and I was back to this place that look like a jungle type of garden with iridescent vivid colors and everything glowed and that same woman met with me under a tree. It was just a quiet connection anyway I have no idea who she was per se, but I will say that it was definitely an experienced. I did share these so-called visions with someone and well they had a total freak out and threatened me with police and harassment and and that was my first time to ever talk to them so after that, I just left it at home so I haven’t really shared any of this with anyone because I’m tired of sharing visions because nobody seem to understand at all how I feel comfortable not to share it here now mind you these visions or whatever experience may just be way. My mind is coping with everything..

So with that being said, I just know that there’s plenty of more thing that happened to me in my life for being to even come this far a lot of the experiences that I’ve had and just having that in her knowing about certain things has sort of made me feel a bit isolated because I have tried to join different groups and they just had issues because it didn’t fit a narrative or I had something to do mostly with them wanting to have control

I am open to discussions on my experiences or even your insights. So before I go, I just wanted to say how it ended up. Here was my interactions with the Morrigan I was a dedicant on and off for over 20 years and it wasn’t until 2024 I began to be revealed her identity as an interdimensional entity and I’ll be honest with you, I was a little shocked at first and questioned. Why would she tell me this and the direction this was going from what I gathered it was based on reciprocated relationship that is intense and I approached her like I would another living human being except she is humanoid but ability to shapeshift ? Anyways, she always empathize to me before I even started realizing all this stuff is that her followers and devotees don’t approach her like I do I don’t necessarily approach her like some distant being that needs worship or whatever. So my relationship with her evolved ever since in 2024 when I explored outside the norm and it’s been quiet and experience. That’s for sure.. but overall, I have changed and expanded (well physically I may have gained some weight,)

Anyways, I hope this post can be read by the right person. I’m sorry if it comes across a little scattered so I am open to whatever

It is definitely not advised to allow a hyperdimensional entity to connect with you, let alone to be a 'dedicant' to one. Read Karla Turner's book Masquerade of Angels to get a sense of how extremely dangerous this is.

 

[Alejo]

It is definitely not advised to allow a hyperdimensional entity to connect with you, let alone to be a 'dedicant' to one. Read Karla Turner's book Masquerade of Angels to get a sense of how extremely dangerous this is.

I was reminded of this passage, which can be found here:

The following is a condensed account of a case of demonstrably demonic infestation, obssession and possible ultimate possession which has been thoroughly documented and described in The Demon Syndrome by Nancy Osborn:

“The room was bathed in a hazy, luminous glow. A strong scent of ozone… a gust of cool wind burst through the open window… It seemed peculiar to Ann that the moon shone so brightly on a cloudy night. She started to get up. Three dark silhouettes materialized as if entering through the open window. … her husband… slept on, oblivious…Two of the figures stayed in the background but the third drew nearer… he was taller than the other two… As the leader advanced the two smaller creatures seemed to float in the background, chattering unintelligibly… the mysterious intruder did not have a complete body… It was clothed in a black flowing shroud with two arms and hands extending from the edges… but they were not human appendages. Not normal, regular arms and hands, but cloven ones like those of a pig. The teeth and mouth seemed inhuman. Four fangs protruded where incisors should have been, and rough, thornlike projections were the closest semblance of human teeth. Its face had an almond shape and the skin was tinted pink. But it was the eyes that frightened Ann most, for they burned crimson…The creature had only a small amount of wiry hair that stood straight up, and the ears were pointed… there were no feet…the thing moved by gliding and floating…

[The entity speaks] ‘I have come to take you with me, Ann Haywood. You have been chosen to be one with us. Turn to me and I will give you peace and comfort.’ …a sense of euphoria overcame her. It was a warm, calm sensation… she exerted effort and began to pray again… ‘You and your damned God! He’s no use to you anymore. Can’t you understand? I have come for you. Relax and let go. You will never be sick or worried again. It is a place of peace and warmth such as you experienced minutes ago. So let go, let go!’ As the monster cajoled, it came closer and closer to Ann. Finally its mouth opened wide and it began to cover her face with its sticky maw. The heat of its breath and the unbearable stench emanating from it seemed to weaken Ann. The being’s saliva felt hideously cold and slimy as the monster sucked her life force out… Ann began to struggle violently… the creature hissed in disappointment: ‘I am your peace, and I am your strength. I will take care of you from now on. There is no god.’ All three entities left through the bedroom wall and into the night…” (Osborn, 1982)

And, in a chilling similarity we find certain images in common which have also appeared in other cases of both alien abduction and demonic infestation.

“An astral trip to some unknown, exotic place was standard fare. She saw the Egyptian pyramids… it was then that Ann felt that she was a part of eternity… immortal… safe, happy and free from pain.”

In an interview with a member of the press, Ann Haywood was trying to explain how the Lady transported her in time to distant places.

“She puts the robe around me and then my mind separates from my body. I can look back and see it lying there. Then we go up through the ceiling, pop out the roof, and fly into space. One night the Lady took me back in time. We were in a foreign country and the people wore old- fashioned clothes. The Lady took on the appearance of a beautiful woman in a blue robe. She performed miracles for them…”

Suddenly Ann’s face turned ashen and she asked to be excused. Her scream of pain was heard from the bathroom where she had taken refuge. When Ann came out, she was sniffling and holding her abdomen. The Lady had savagely attacked her for revealing that down through history, creatures like the Lady have taken the form of saints. They then use the gullibility of humankind to misguide and misinform people so that they believe they are seeing miracles performed. Ann begged the newsman to delete that portion of the interview.” (Osborn, 1982)

And, reminiscent of the vampire and the Karla Turner case, Ann Haywood suffered too: contact with the Lady was always physically draining. Ann felt used each time the creature took her. And her health deteriorated with each attack. The demon was slowly killing her both physically and mentally. If she wanted to make love with her husband the Lady would tell her “Ann do not waste your time in senseless copulation. I need your strength. You are mine…”

 

[Fluffy]

You might be interested in learning more about the alien/supernatural/hyperdimensional phenomena to see where your experiences fit in.

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[ChampionofMorrigan]

It is definitely not advised to allow a hyperdimensional entity to connect with you, let alone to be a 'dedicant' to one. Read Karla Turner's book Masquerade of Angels to get a sense of how extremely dangerous this i

You might be interested in learning more about the alien/supernatural/hyperdimensional phenomena to see where your experiences fit in.

The Cassiopaean Experiment | The Cassiopaea Experiment | Substack

Transcripts from Cassiopaea. Click to read The Cassiopaean Experiment, by The Cassiopaea Experiment, a Substack publication with thousands of subscribers.

cassiopaea.substack.com

Yeah, I think people are misunderstanding my post because I’ve had 20+ years of experience with the Morrigan it’s really hard to talk about the stuff because a lot of people are gonna immediately slap onto her the predator label or whatever but that’s simply not what my experience has been. I did ask the moderator to remove my post because I feel like my experiences I just shared will be misunderstood and taken out of context because I realize that some people tend to treat works like Laura knight-jadoczyk or whoever in a very dogmatic fashion which is exactly what she warned about, and I read this myself from a transcript in one of her books that she has out. As far as I’m concerned, I’ve done a lot of research and steady in the Tuatha de Danann including the Morrigan when I say an hyper dimensional entity, I mean she’s more than a fourth or fifth dimensional density and within within context, she plays a very important role when deciphering what she was all about and the Christian monks who wrote about such did not have a very nice thing to say besides that they were anti-divine feminine anyway orthodox so and that includes painting the Morrigan in a very negative misogynistic manner. But the symptoms that was being talked about is not what I’ve experienced with her, and of course, when I was new to all of this. I started off as treating her like a goddess in context of a neo-pagan type in the beginning my relationship with her has changed and it’s based on growth. Anyway, that’s all I’m gonna say about that and I will be looking at what you provided.

 

[Fluffy]

Yeah, I think people are misunderstanding my post because I’ve had 20+ years of experience with the Morrigan it’s really hard to talk about the stuff because a lot of people are gonna immediately slap onto her the predator label or whatever but that’s simply not what my experience has been. I did ask the moderator to remove my post because I feel like my experiences I just shared will be misunderstood and taken out of context because I realize that some people tend to treat works like Laura knight-jadoczyk or whoever in a very dogmatic fashion which is exactly what she warned about, and I read this myself from a transcript in one of her books that she has out. As far as I’m concerned, I’ve done a lot of research and steady in the Tuatha de Danann including the Morrigan when I say an hyper dimensional entity, I mean she’s more than a fourth or fifth dimensional density and within within context, she plays a very important role when deciphering what she was all about and the Christian monks who wrote about such did not have a very nice thing to say besides that they were anti-divine feminine anyway orthodox so and that includes painting the Morrigan in a very negative misogynistic manner. But the symptoms that was being talked about is not what I’ve experienced with her, and of course, when I was new to all of this. I started off as treating her like a goddess in context of a neo-pagan type in the beginning my relationship with her has changed and it’s based on growth. Anyway, that’s all I’m gonna say about that and I will be looking at what you provided.

I too have had hyper-density experiences with benevolent beings of light, however, short lived and only to direct me on a path, though at a cost where balance is necessary that I must also experience the opposite. So I’m extra weary and only cautioning you to be also

 

[broken.english]

I’ve had 20+ years of experience with the Morrigan

It might be helpful if you shared some of your practical experience so we could get a better picture. We are curious people here who like to learn.

And you are not under attack by members of this forum and you don't have to defend anything. We just try and get to the core of matters, if we can, by viewing things from all angles. Therefore please accept a bit of scepticism. Ultimately it is the truth that matters.

 

[ChampionofMorrigan]

It might be helpful if you shared some of your practical experience so we could get a better picture. We are curious people here who like to learn.

And you are not under attack by members of this forum and you don't have to defend anything. We just try and get to the core of matters, if we can, by viewing things from all angles. Therefore please accept a bit of scepticism. Ultimately it is the truth that matters.

Will do that when I more awake and fully rested. I I don’t feel attacked by members in this forum but misunderstood from the first two members who immediately talked about masquerading angels book I felt was out of context on my experience because obviously I didn’t give enough detail and the reason why I didn’t is because most people don’t care to read what others have to say and that has been my experience unfortunately. Skepticism is definitely important as well as discernment. I have always approached such topics and well subjects with skepticism myself. So that doesn’t bother me. I appreciate you asking the questions you did because I will be assuring my experiences so you can have it within context. I wrote the post when I was a bit scattered brain from my daily life lol.

 

[broken.english]

Will do that when I more awake and fully rested.

Then have a good rest. I'm looking forward to learning more about your experiences.

 

[ChampionofMorrigan]

Then have a good rest. I'm looking forward to learning more about your experiences.

OK, well now I’m meant to talk about it since I’ve had a good nap ha ha I hope I’m not up all night.

So to give context of my experiences with Morrigan mostly. I met her before I knew I was transgender it was in my early 20s. I was living at a house with my sister at the time and funny enough that house was located on crossroads which is well symbolic if you asked me but whatever that house had so much negative energy that my sister passed away in 2020 from drinking herself to death as an alcoholic before that I had left in 2017 or 2018 to go stay with my mom, but anyway, while I was living with my sister at the time, I did everything I could to help my sister and I was practically raising my nephews at the time thankfully, they were self-sufficient and my sister did her best but she got so exhausted after having five boys, but anyway, I was at a very naïve stage in my life. I often was relying on people for personal reasons because of a disability that I have then I went to go stay with my mom and I had seen a UFO in the sky. My mom was telling me about how she saw a UFO months ago, but when she was talking about it, she ended up getting pinged to go outside to go see where we went out there, and there was a red light in the sky. At first. I was thinking it was a plane or a drone but the way it was moving was definitely neither one of those it almost seemed crazy. This happened in 2018. Then I called my sister because I thought she was open minded towards that, but when I told her what I saw, she totally flipped out calling me crazy that she was angry with my mom for many many years and whatever she had her own inner demons she’s never dealt with three days later after seeing that my sister is in the hospital and after that she went downhill and she was an alcoholic. I find it strange to know that I found out that drugs was also involved over there, and I had no idea you know when I was living with my sister I had connected with the Morrigan I’ve had intense dreams of her, followed with synchronicities. So my interactions with her has been on and off and usually the times that really happened is when I was going through some changes that were pretty intense, but they were definitely transformative and I became stronger and much better off. To tell you the truth about this if it hadn’t been for her and the lessons I’ve learned I would have never been able to stand up for myself like I do now I would still be in a situation where I’m easily manipulated I used to be really naïve and terrible at it. I’m like 42 years old now and I’m a different person . You know, I think most people when they’re interacting with beings like the Morrigan or any being and they are genuinely good natured a relationship is not always perfect and smooth and I think that is a problem because if something is difficult in a relationship, does it mean they’re malevolent or evil just like if you’re with your husband or girlfriend or whatever your relationship isn’t always gonna be smooth sailing. Then at the end of the day where love is involved and it’s not about STS then you know that a very meaningful relationship to help you expand.

In mythology Morrigan is not just a goddess of war but of sovereignty and prophecy as well and I just wanted to point out I’ve done my study on how ancient kings were chosen by the goddess and what she demanded was serving the land and the people within that land that means service to others and I have read alternative narratives based on tuatha de danann that they came to teach skills and civilization, and upon studying The Morrigan in one of her aspects, she gives poems of prophecy and the truth is she has expressed compassion. It’s unfortunate that a lot of folks writing about such entities or whatever having fake love or fake compassion to influence humanity?
It’s actually concerning because someone who has an obsession with this says more about the person in question living in fear. Last I heard fear attracts negative entities and you will be exploited. Because they feed off of fear to the point it becomes paranoia. Anyway, the most important thing is is facing. Those fears is what I’ve learned, which is courage. Eventually you overcome it.

Oh, I hope some of these experiences kind of makes sense because in context when I’m trying to say is I used to be not easily manipulated and relying on people I also put a stop to any negativity.

 

[808ravenflox]

Hi @ChampionofMorrigan

Thank you for sharing your information and experiences!

In my point of view, @iamthatis as well as the other members of the FOTCM simply offered to give you a very deep and simple advice which can be applied to the situations of your everyday life and probably, can make you start to learn how to heal your own emotional sufferings.

As you claim to not be really understood, maybe, try to interpret as least as possible what can just be given as a warning and a way of being cautious with what surrounds you, by those who are more external to what you are plunged into, without knowing.

We all need help from others - quantum mirrors -, who can give us new information, to be able to gradually get ourselves out from our personal programmes.

Cheers man!

 

[broken.english]

So to give context of my experiences with Morrigan mostly. I met her before I knew I was transgender it was in my early 20s.

How did you meet her and how was this first meeting?

 

[ChampionofMorrigan]

Hi @ChampionofMorrigan

Thank you for sharing your information and experiences!

In my point of view, @iamthatis as well as the other members of the FOTCM simply offered to give you a very deep and simple advice which can be applied to the situations of your everyday life and probably, can make you start to learn how to heal your own emotional sufferings.

As you claim to not be really understood, maybe, try to interpret as least as possible what can just be given as a warning and a way of being cautious with what surrounds you, by those who are more external to what you are plunged into, without knowing.

We all need help from others - quantum mirrors -, who can give us new information, to be able to gradually get ourselves out from our personal programmes.

Cheers man!

Thank you for taking the time to respond and for explaining your perspective.
I do understand what you mean about quantum mirrors and how outside feedback can help reveal our own programs. I agree that we all need that kind of reflection, and I’m not against warnings or cautions at all – especially when they’re offered with good intentions.
For me, sharing my experiences with the Morrigan and other events in my life is part of how I process and learn. Those experiences have also helped me grow stronger, set boundaries, and work through old patterns of being easily manipulated, so they’re not just “beliefs” to me, but lived reality and catalysts for change.
At the same time, I’m willing to keep looking at myself, questioning things, and considering what others see from the outside. I may not always interpret everything the same way, but I do appreciate the reminder to stay cautious and reflective rather than reactive.
So, thank you again for your input. I’m doing my best to balance taking in feedback, facing my fears, and honoring the path and lessons that have genuinely helped me heal.