ChampionofMorrigan
A Disturbance in the Force
Ok so it’s almost 4am in the morning. So I have a lot on my mind. First and foremost. I am a trans man meaning female to male. I was born this way there was never a time that I woke up and said it whatever.. and I never knew what the term transgender meant. I just knew I always felt the way I did but when I first heard of it at the age 30, I immediately knew that’s what I was and it was an eye-opener and I’ve changed so much. I have been on testosterone shots for a few years, but I keep getting uprooted and I’m unable to keep taking the shots consistently because I keep having them move and making it difficult for me to even have proper care. Anyway, I’ve already read some stuff on this website and I have been absolutely the type of person who’s always stay to myself and you know quiet I don’t advertise that I’m trans but what really makes me mad about all this political bullshit with Donald Trump and his precious administration is that it has a spot on me with my family members who consider themselves Republicans and for years, I have no issue with them nor they me, but since they just jumped on the bandwagon with all this political bullshit plus they believe we’re in the end times literally it’s been a complete headache so besides all that, I also want to share the fact that I have explored so many different religions and spiritual practices and paths from Christianity, Satanism, Hinduism , Wicca, shamanism, etc and currently I consider myself a gnostic pagan and I used the word pagan as outside of Islam Judaism and Christianity. I just wondered if anyone notices that trend with these religions they got those gatekeepers and fundamentalists which is absolutely insane. I have also encountered a few group groups associated with the Freemasons and royal dragon court and obviously I was hard-core rejected from these groups, including templefzeus.org aka joy of Satan I have left that as well because I rejected their Nazi ideology and at one point I used to explore all of that cause I wanted to understand the mechanics behind it and I still just couldn’t jump on it. I just do not feel that racial hatred is nothing more to me than someone who’s insecure about their own self. So I came across Laura knight-jadoczyk by accident, but I’m glad that I was directed here.
Anyway, I wanted to point out someone who’s truly transgendered like myself faced a lot of difficulties specially in the dating world oh my goodness. I have accepted the fact that I may never find a decent woman. It’s really hard for me to talk about the step in contexts what’s discussed here. Because most of the women on this planet that I meet are narcissistic, money hungry and trust me I have been an abusive relationships and I am usually treated less than a person that it’s just so twisted. I can’t even find the right word for it, but I’ll tell you my last relationship taught me a good lesson. I have been through a lot of bullshit. It just feels like it’s been one constant fight just to exist as I do and fight for me to have such a partnership. And I was just wondering, what is the spiritual implications for any of this?
When I was a baby my mother side I was on life support and she had complications when I was in the womb she said she has experienced seeing UFOs and has levitated off the bed before while she was pregnant with me. And you wanna know what’s weird about the whole thing. My mother was so sure she was gonna have a baby boy and well the truth is here I am a trans man. So I just wanted a point to something else in 2021 on June 19. I ended up in a terrible car accident and I was in a coma for three months. I had some visions that came to me at that time, and not all of them were meant to be taken literally, but they still came the pass. Some were literal and others were not and also depended on circumstances as well. Anyway, one vision talked about the return of Christ when I was sitting by a Yule tree and what I do remember is a white gold white light engulfed me a mess surroundings, and I sort of felt an euphoria when I was unconscious, but I want to say I met a 9 foot red haired woman wearing a simple black dress like you would wear at a restaurant and she was absolutely gorgeous. She stepped forth from a wall of water. I felt this connection with her, but she told me she was here for two things to guide me and challenge like in terms to grow she was compassionate and a weird feeling came over me during my coma when I spoke with her, which was through telepathy , I felt an erotic attraction to her I’m not sure why what happened but anyways it just caught me by surprise and then at some point, the scenery changed my vision, and I was back to this place that look like a jungle type of garden with iridescent vivid colors and everything glowed and that same woman met with me under a tree. It was just a quiet connection anyway I have no idea who she was per se, but I will say that it was definitely an experienced. I did share these so-called visions with someone and well they had a total freak out and threatened me with police and harassment and and that was my first time to ever talk to them so after that, I just left it at home so I haven’t really shared any of this with anyone because I’m tired of sharing visions because nobody seem to understand at all how I feel comfortable not to share it here now mind you these visions or whatever experience may just be way. My mind is coping with everything..
So with that being said, I just know that there’s plenty of more thing that happened to me in my life for being to even come this far a lot of the experiences that I’ve had and just having that in her knowing about certain things has sort of made me feel a bit isolated because I have tried to join different groups and they just had issues because it didn’t fit a narrative or I had something to do mostly with them wanting to have control
I am open to discussions on my experiences or even your insights. So before I go, I just wanted to say how it ended up. Here was my interactions with the Morrigan I was a dedicant on and off for over 20 years and it wasn’t until 2024 I began to be revealed her identity as an interdimensional entity and I’ll be honest with you, I was a little shocked at first and questioned. Why would she tell me this and the direction this was going from what I gathered it was based on reciprocated relationship that is intense and I approached her like I would another living human being except she is humanoid but ability to shapeshift ? Anyways, she always empathize to me before I even started realizing all this stuff is that her followers and devotees don’t approach her like I do I don’t necessarily approach her like some distant being that needs worship or whatever. So my relationship with her evolved ever since in 2024 when I explored outside the norm and it’s been quiet and experience. That’s for sure.. but overall, I have changed and expanded (well physically I may have gained some weight,
)
Anyways, I hope this post can be read by the right person. I’m sorry if it comes across a little scattered so I am open to whatever
Anyway, I wanted to point out someone who’s truly transgendered like myself faced a lot of difficulties specially in the dating world oh my goodness. I have accepted the fact that I may never find a decent woman. It’s really hard for me to talk about the step in contexts what’s discussed here. Because most of the women on this planet that I meet are narcissistic, money hungry and trust me I have been an abusive relationships and I am usually treated less than a person that it’s just so twisted. I can’t even find the right word for it, but I’ll tell you my last relationship taught me a good lesson. I have been through a lot of bullshit. It just feels like it’s been one constant fight just to exist as I do and fight for me to have such a partnership. And I was just wondering, what is the spiritual implications for any of this?
When I was a baby my mother side I was on life support and she had complications when I was in the womb she said she has experienced seeing UFOs and has levitated off the bed before while she was pregnant with me. And you wanna know what’s weird about the whole thing. My mother was so sure she was gonna have a baby boy and well the truth is here I am a trans man. So I just wanted a point to something else in 2021 on June 19. I ended up in a terrible car accident and I was in a coma for three months. I had some visions that came to me at that time, and not all of them were meant to be taken literally, but they still came the pass. Some were literal and others were not and also depended on circumstances as well. Anyway, one vision talked about the return of Christ when I was sitting by a Yule tree and what I do remember is a white gold white light engulfed me a mess surroundings, and I sort of felt an euphoria when I was unconscious, but I want to say I met a 9 foot red haired woman wearing a simple black dress like you would wear at a restaurant and she was absolutely gorgeous. She stepped forth from a wall of water. I felt this connection with her, but she told me she was here for two things to guide me and challenge like in terms to grow she was compassionate and a weird feeling came over me during my coma when I spoke with her, which was through telepathy , I felt an erotic attraction to her I’m not sure why what happened but anyways it just caught me by surprise and then at some point, the scenery changed my vision, and I was back to this place that look like a jungle type of garden with iridescent vivid colors and everything glowed and that same woman met with me under a tree. It was just a quiet connection anyway I have no idea who she was per se, but I will say that it was definitely an experienced. I did share these so-called visions with someone and well they had a total freak out and threatened me with police and harassment and and that was my first time to ever talk to them so after that, I just left it at home so I haven’t really shared any of this with anyone because I’m tired of sharing visions because nobody seem to understand at all how I feel comfortable not to share it here now mind you these visions or whatever experience may just be way. My mind is coping with everything..
So with that being said, I just know that there’s plenty of more thing that happened to me in my life for being to even come this far a lot of the experiences that I’ve had and just having that in her knowing about certain things has sort of made me feel a bit isolated because I have tried to join different groups and they just had issues because it didn’t fit a narrative or I had something to do mostly with them wanting to have control
I am open to discussions on my experiences or even your insights. So before I go, I just wanted to say how it ended up. Here was my interactions with the Morrigan I was a dedicant on and off for over 20 years and it wasn’t until 2024 I began to be revealed her identity as an interdimensional entity and I’ll be honest with you, I was a little shocked at first and questioned. Why would she tell me this and the direction this was going from what I gathered it was based on reciprocated relationship that is intense and I approached her like I would another living human being except she is humanoid but ability to shapeshift ? Anyways, she always empathize to me before I even started realizing all this stuff is that her followers and devotees don’t approach her like I do I don’t necessarily approach her like some distant being that needs worship or whatever. So my relationship with her evolved ever since in 2024 when I explored outside the norm and it’s been quiet and experience. That’s for sure.. but overall, I have changed and expanded (well physically I may have gained some weight,
) Anyways, I hope this post can be read by the right person. I’m sorry if it comes across a little scattered so I am open to whatever
