DreamGod
Jedi Master
Since I have memory, I remember my life divided in big segments of years like if some of them are from a different version of me and some others are from me (the one who is writing). I been having this feeling that I may have two personalities and they are not to different but still different to notice. I started to notice when I have 11 or 12 years when I started to remember things that actually happened but its like they where experiences from a dream, not from me, like I remember but just felt emotionally disconnected from those moments (Memories from when I was child). The process was difficult all with puberty and ended after months or years maybe and didnt realize all this depressive feelings, melancoly and reflexive thoughts where connected with any change.
I stayed "the same" till I was 25 years old, then it started all over again to feel different and then all this feelings and melancoly and reflexive, its like all my chemicals in my brain where changing or someone was downloading a different version of me to my brain, but when all was over I felt completly disconnected from the period of time since I was 13 till I was 25. It was like if I was a new person again with all the memories but emotionally disconnected from that certain period of time from my life, then again, all those memories from that period of time where more like a dream from someone else. At that time I started to notice and thinking I might have two or more personalities or something else might be happening.
This period of time lasted till two weeks ago, I am 38 years old now. I started to feel all the same process again, feelings of melancoly, depressive some times but not bad thoughts, very reflexive thoughts about life and much more. The thing it was different this time was I felt this really strong connection of feelings and thoughts wich I stopped to have when I was 25. It feels like the version of me from when I was 25 just downloaded in my mind 2 weeks ago and all this process of feelings is the realization that all that now I remember as my thoughts, happened 13 year ago (its like wake up from a coma and start thinking about your old life and feeling sad because just passed 13 years and you need to start over again, but now so easy because you actually marry and have 2 childrens) and all the things that happened in all 13 years felt like a dream now. Besides that, other thing different from before is that I felt like a lot of information downloaded to my brain or just simply unlocked, I just had this moments of clarity I never had with all this difficult existensial questions just answered and I could understand and comprehend everything, then it just went all cloudy, worst than before.
I know, it sounds like I am crazy and i am not talking about this with nobody because it sound like crazy. Maybe it just the normal phases in all people life but I want to ask if someone has the same problem happening. I know personal questions are not cool, but If someone else feel the same way, maybe we could make a question in how the brain behaves with the transition of the wave or if the timeline marges may cause some of this synthoms, maybe I am just crazy.
Thanks for anyone who read this.
I stayed "the same" till I was 25 years old, then it started all over again to feel different and then all this feelings and melancoly and reflexive, its like all my chemicals in my brain where changing or someone was downloading a different version of me to my brain, but when all was over I felt completly disconnected from the period of time since I was 13 till I was 25. It was like if I was a new person again with all the memories but emotionally disconnected from that certain period of time from my life, then again, all those memories from that period of time where more like a dream from someone else. At that time I started to notice and thinking I might have two or more personalities or something else might be happening.
This period of time lasted till two weeks ago, I am 38 years old now. I started to feel all the same process again, feelings of melancoly, depressive some times but not bad thoughts, very reflexive thoughts about life and much more. The thing it was different this time was I felt this really strong connection of feelings and thoughts wich I stopped to have when I was 25. It feels like the version of me from when I was 25 just downloaded in my mind 2 weeks ago and all this process of feelings is the realization that all that now I remember as my thoughts, happened 13 year ago (its like wake up from a coma and start thinking about your old life and feeling sad because just passed 13 years and you need to start over again, but now so easy because you actually marry and have 2 childrens) and all the things that happened in all 13 years felt like a dream now. Besides that, other thing different from before is that I felt like a lot of information downloaded to my brain or just simply unlocked, I just had this moments of clarity I never had with all this difficult existensial questions just answered and I could understand and comprehend everything, then it just went all cloudy, worst than before.
I know, it sounds like I am crazy and i am not talking about this with nobody because it sound like crazy. Maybe it just the normal phases in all people life but I want to ask if someone has the same problem happening. I know personal questions are not cool, but If someone else feel the same way, maybe we could make a question in how the brain behaves with the transition of the wave or if the timeline marges may cause some of this synthoms, maybe I am just crazy.
Thanks for anyone who read this.