Mayb
Jedi Master
RyanX said:Meri,
Could it be that some of these feelings are due to hormonal imbalances from your recent pregnancy? I don't mean to belittle your feelings in any way, I just wanted to point out that this may be an underlying factor in what you're going through right now. What you described sounds similar to what my ex-wife went through after our first child. Although she was never diagnosed as having postpartum depression, she had the classic symptoms. I've seen the same thing in other women too.
Hormonal imbalances are contributing as well, and I was explaining to myself that it will past with time, but pregnancy and baby birth just increase the "symtoms" already existing. Now when I think about the period before I had same feelings but they were not blocking me from my acivities.
It is relief if this will pass with hormonal balance back. I guess that after I know now I cant have same life anymore but at least to be full intelectaly active again.
I am working in surrounding full of businessmans and "sharks" ready to to everything for their sucsses and bonuses.Johnno said:Agreed, some of the strongest people I have known have also been the kindest. Once that emotional bit that has been bubbling under the surface has sorted itself out, it will be able to combine with that old intellectual bit that was driving your life for so long. If you let it.
And yes I dont fell as I am a part of it at all.
Two years ago I give up from high position and choose job which will gives me individuality and free time for my family and work. From this job I can watch people fighting for power and not to be personaly involved. It helps learn a lot .