Jerry i have been checking this site 3-4 years, but i had different profile back then. I usually don't post things because it seems to be that they always get removed. Happened back then too. Also some guy here wrote about his opiates addiction and it is a drug too and far more dangerous and has nothing to do with spirituality unlike ayahuasca and his post is still there. Anyways i guess it was then all about legal opiates like painkillers or those kind of things.
In the end Jerry if you say that i haven't read anything, maybe i haven't read much here, except the world news everyday from the main site. Anyway it's very very very narrow minded to close away this possibility about this substance wich i wrote about. And i think this forum should be a place for an open mind, but seems not to be.
What comes to helping others, that's what this site is all about what i have seen, whatever the problem is. Well helping is good i would want to help ppl too, but here i have seen that some ppl pretend being polite ,trying to be so "sto" wich is impossible for human to be. It simply is impossible for now. Maybe there where i was (wich part was removed from the substance)it's possible and it felt natural, But not here.
For an example if someone close to you dies, you get sad. Well do you get sad because of him or because of yourself.
When you give a gift to other it's a nice thing to do, but it's all about yourself, maybe not all but alot of it. You get some kind of pleasure when giving that gift , because you know that other ppl likes it . That's the way we ppl are at the moment, whatever you read , whatever you think it won't change. Only way i had get rid of it was the way i wrote about earlier via aya.
Also sorry being unpolite, but that's the way ppl are sometimes and you guys think just the same sometimes, but you just don't have guts to say it. I say things straight and not trying to pretend if i think i have been offended.
Good luck reading million books if it helps, im out of this forum. I do not belong here.
