Can a house (or a person) really be cursed in such a targeted way

[SummerLite]

Another thought;

All those streams of energy, coming from these people, can feel like your being deliberately cursed by them and it doesn't make a difference if they're old and feeble. It's not a curse but your mind is connected to them.

Your connected to them in the information field.

 

[iamthatis]

I believe this is a central part of my current struggle.
At the beginning of this year, I made a firm decision: I have to change, fundamentally, especially in how I relate to the people closest to me. My core issue is almost certainly complex PTSD from childhood. It caused me to develop an extreme helper syndrome, an addiction to harmony, and an almost painful sense of honesty and justice. No one should ever have to feel the pain and abandonment I’ve known since childhood.

I'm sorry this happened to you, Nachtweide. I know from first hand experience how horrible it can be, and I'm sending you a big hug.

People around me describe me as authentic, honest, and deeply empathic; I work in healthcare. My entire life has been about serving others, not about truly living my own life. The people closest to me have quietly benefited from this for decades.
This year, for the first time, I drew a clear boundary and said “No.” And ironically, exactly in this year, every single person who had been living off my energy for years suddenly reappeared. I distanced myself from each of them, one by one. With every person it got worse at first, until they finally left me alone.

Good work, saying NO and drawing a firm boundary is a good step. The complexity is in your situation is your profession as a caregiver. I've heard it said that when you stop performing for others, this is when trauma starts to heal. So how to achieve a balance here? Caregiver burnout is a huge issue for those who make their living by providing care, as I'm sure you know. They often don't adequately take time to care for themselves. Gabor Mate has a good talk on all this:

So if I may ask, do you feel you take enough time for yourself to just rest? Are you also a caregiver to yourself? Maybe it's time for a vacation...

I asked my friends what was wrong with me. Their unanimous answer: “You are the most empathic, honest, and loyal person we know, the best friend anyone could wish for. The only thing that’s different is that you finally said No. The others have never experienced that from you, and they can’t handle it. Either you hold the line now and fight for yourself, or you do what everyone expects: dissolve again.

I am fighting for myself right now.
It is incredibly important to me that I finally feel at home in my own apartment again; I haven’t felt that way for two years. The place has been severely damaged by repeated water leaks (some of it covered by insurance). For two years my inner feeling has been: I no longer have a real home, my world is chaotic. As soon as I fix one problem, the next one appears right behind it. Many times I’ve had the strong sense that I’m being kept deliberately ungrounded and rootless.

I think perhaps daily grounding meditations would be an important tool in your toolkit.

That’s why, despite all the difficulties, clearing the external chaos has become an absolute priority for me now; because it directly creates chaos in my mind. On top of that, my mirror neurons are highly active, so the chaos of the world settles inside me like sediment. The current heavy energy in my building is very likely caused by a combination of my chaotic living situation and a new, pervasive energy that is affecting the entire house.

So how might you filter out this sediment? I say this to emphasize that clearing the internal chaos is what was advised in the session I quoted before. This has a direct affect on the external world. It still makes sense to attend to external events, but it is therapeutic for those with CPTSD to make steps towards understanding our own internal power. In other words, we can't always change our circumstances, but we can change our attitude or our response, which is based the way we 'See' what is happening. We can also change the story we tell ourselves about it.

To give an example, for a long time I had vehicle issues, and it caused me a rusty metric ton of stress. I decided, eventually, that I just wouldn't care about it anymore. In other words, it had been a fruitful ground for the production of negative emotions and worry, so I did what I could to stop the bastards from feeding on me with their old tricks with my vehicle. Now if I get a vehicle issue, it's just a normal part of life, and I do what I can do fix it. I can even do it with a smile, remembering how I used to let it rile me up, and laugh triumphantly, 'Not today, Satan! Muah-ha-ha-haaa' This is based on a session as well:

Session 29 December 2009​

L) It's the damnedest thing I've ever seen.

(Ark) What what?

(L) The whole thing, the way the energy moves back and forth. We get going, and then everything out there gets going, and then we make a move, and then get pushed back when they make a move... But it's all a psychic, mental thing.

(Joe) It's about being aware of all the reality of the situation because I can't think of any other way that it can happen because our reach is really limited. If we are having some effect, I can only assume it's a mental and psychic thing. And the more that each individual perceives the situation more clearly, and the real truth about it the situation, then that has a greater effect. There are a lot of people out there in the conspiracy...

A: The more who see, the more that can see! And didn't we once say that it is not where you are but rather WHO you are and what you SEE!!

Q: (Ark) I just wanted to say that it seems to me that what is important is not that there is really such relation between what we or someone similar is doing, but what is important is to try, so to say, new tricks. Because old tricks are already known and taken into account and so on. The only thing that can change things and cause this butterfly effect is a new trick. So, we have to work and PC [PaleoChristianity, I think] is one new trick, but we should not stop with inventing new tricks.

So where you are doesn't really matter. The preponderance of focus is who you are and what you see. Applied to the situation with your house, how might you see your situation differently? What new tricks might you invent to help yourself right now? Instead of indulging in the thought of 'I no longer have a home' - what is a different story you could tell? What help can you receive from outside?

 

[Nachtweide]

Hallo, Nachtweide. Ich hole nur diesen Thread nach. Könnten Sie klarstellen, was Sie hier gesagt haben, damit ich es besser verstehen kann? Sie haben gesagt, dass Sie das Geld vor ein paar Wochen entdeckt haben, als Sie Ihr Konto verlassen. Was hast du nach deiner Trennung jahrelang nicht untersucht? Meinst du, du hast dich seit 2014 nicht mehr um deine Finanzen gesehen?

Sorry, I expressed that incorrectly. From time to time I receive an insurance policy certificate that lists me and my two sons. Two separate premiums are debited from my account. I always assumed that one contribution was mine and the other was assigned to my sons. Now, for the first time, I’ve looked at all my insurance policies in detail, and only then did I realize that this had been a mistake on my part. I admit that I hadn’t looked closely enough all these years.

 

[Kika]

Hi, Nachtweide
I don't "spill the beans", I don't look into a crystal ball, or tarot cards, etc. (Honestly, if I were to do such things, I don't believe I would easily, at such a level, connect with unknown people).
So I can only assess and understand your situation based on what you write and how you present the situation.
You started with the image of a victim. Confused, emotionally unstable (water phobia - to the point that you are afraid to swim in the sea), a person who ended up in an environment "infested" with witchcraft, whose reality is falling apart due to such influence and who has come to believe in her powerlessness, and seeks intervention from others (countermeasures for spells, and almost exorcism).

Of course, you received comments aimed at self-empowerment. As the comments came in, you started to show chameleon-like qualities (from not bathing at all, it turned into I can float and ride on a boat, etc.) You started adjusting the narrative, which caused me to raise an eyebrow, and a total conflict occurred when I read this:

He completely avoids any eye contact with me, and I have the strong feeling that he is actually afraid to look me in the eyes.

Back then, when I first met his parents, I had the same strange sensation: nobody dared to look his father in the eyes.

Look, I was born and live in the Balkan and in my life I have seen such "paterfamilias" and I know the dynamics. That's why this writing has no logic of dominance. He does not behave in the same way towards the "dominant" person (which should be the paterfamilias) and towards the subordinate person/victim (which according to your writing should be - you). And it was to be assumed that in an isolated environment (such as an island) things could be even more stable and rigid. But... (there's always a but) .. my assumption.... my prejudice..... there's always an exception ... and that's why I asked you to describe your father-in-law.

Now I'm reading about a self-confident and even conflicted person, who stands up for his rights, who knows what he wants, unbearable financial expenses are actually not that (everything is covered by insurance) and the question arises: Where has the victim disappeared? And it even slides towards: Who is actually the victim? Which personality is right; the one at the beginning, the one later, or both?

The question of the real intention/goal of opening this topic is certainly raised. Did you come to ask for help or to manipulate some "spiritual secrets" that would serve you to strengthen your dominance.

By responding to others and to myself, the picture turned into the complete opposite. Those two completely different/conflicting images invalidated (for me) the credibility of everything written.