For me, I feel ashamed to say that I thought of Charlie as a bit of a grifter, not bad per se but a normie conservative pundit, I thought of him as Mr. Potato head and I'd watch his clips and laugh when he'd run circles around lefty loonies but beyond that I ignored him.
So then why when after viewing his murder did I feel like I was punched in the chest? For days I've felt severe pain, like a force in my heart chakra area. I've felt more pain for him than one one of my best friends who died in a car crash. Makes no sense. I thought, was this just a feeding tube? Loosh basically, being manipulated by a traumatic viewing of someone I followed on social media's death. Or was something else going on.
Then I realized that maybe both, loosh and something else. The reason for the pain is because of what he represented, a voice for Truth in the face of ridicule from his own side (being too normie) or villified by the left, it didn't matter, he knew his mission and went out into battle, with Truth, conversation, debate, communication and mediation as his weapons. All of which I believe in strongly but when covid happened I abandoned, my voice shriveled to nothing, and by abandoning something that is so important to me, something died in me. So I think Charlies death was like a mirror, showing me that I'd abandoned something foundational to my soul, maybe even sinning against my soul and the pain I've been feeling is the witnessing of a great warrior die in battle, as well as feeling the pain of turning against my own soul. Gosh maybe I'm reaching here with all of this. Which is why I'm networking about it, to make sense of it.
I also understand why so many are choosing to go to church and what I guess Christians are referring to as the "Holy Spirit" calling them, I've always thought of it as the light of the Divine, that I'm a flower in some barren or dark place but up above, and for some reason to the right of me, I feel a light calling me to turn towards the light, to reach, to grow. I've felt this "calling" for a few years but with Charlies death, I feel it even stronger, not really sure what to do with that, just sharing.
Dehumanize a portion of the population that are to be blamed for our pain, and it's easy to watch people commit atrocities in the name of justice. It's a human condition, I don't think it's exclusive to any political ideology. Before this happened, I had started to see a trend where both political angles in the US had begin to all agree on one issue, Gaza. Now we may be ripe to begin hating one another along ideological lines, or perhaps that is part of the plan. But not out there really (or maybe).. mostly internally in our private lives, we'll hate and oppose people we have never met, abstract individuals. Or at least, I think that is their hope.
It's difficult to hold anger and hate for too long in this situation because Charlie did not represent those energies, he appeared ( at least to me) to represent the other path, one of dialogue and mediation in the face of anger, hate and violence. So even though people are angry about what happened, do they really want to to take violent and hateful actions in his name, when that is the opposite of his mission.
What his death has allowed for, is more lifting of the veil or revealing of the truth of the situation on this planet. That forces of evil, darkness and something non human moves amongst us. Most people see this "non human" force as demonic, we see it as hyperdimensional, same thing really. And maybe this is where things can go wrong. That people can SEE there is evil amongst the left and they get herded into believing the entirety of the left is demonic, that could lead to something horrific. When in truth it's only a few demons who have acquired for themselves a platform and that the majority of lefties are not demons themselves but hypnotized by the few. Who knows how many have been de-hypnotized by Charlies death, I've seen many testimonies by lefties suggesting just this, that his death has opened their eyes to the destructive hate of their ideology.