TheSpoon
Jedi
I've been trying to Self-Remember with the help of consciousness triggers - saying to myself that when such-and-such a situation arises, I will enter a state of Self-Remembering.
Page 182 of Ouspensky's The Fourth Way contained this paragraph that I found helpful:
It's interesting that when a state of self remembering appears, my last 4 or 5 seconds of thought seem to be available (a bit like how when someone wakes you up from reading by saying 'Well?' you can still access the last thing they said, even though you weren't conscious of hearing it at the time). And in those thoughts I can dimly sense the approach of that state of awareness - the connections between the thoughts that, perhaps, activated an "I" which is interested in The Work.
So a question I have to ask myself is: am I actually Self Remembering? Which is something I guess I'd have to ask the group's opinion on. Whether or not it's Self Remembering, I certainly feel present - present to how I'm feeling, present to what's going on around me, present to what I'm thinking - but at the same time also a sense of being present as an observer to the same. I often take a large in breath and reflect on how long it's been since I was last "aware" of anything.
Interesting that although I'd prefer not to work for a living, I seem to spend more time being aware when I'm at work than I do at home at the weekends when, although I'm doing things I enjoy more, I seem to spend less time fully conscious. That makes me wonder if mundane work is actually necessary/useful in terms of The Work. Or perhaps it's just that my monkey mind is following the path of least resistance - similar to how my flat was never cleaner than when I was supposed to be studying for exams.
Also, is anyone else following a daily meditation practice? I'm not finding it make so much difference to the number of times I remember myself in a day, but it does seem to have quite an improvement on my emotional state. I feel like I'm carrying around less low level, strangely unattributable, guilt.
Page 182 of Ouspensky's The Fourth Way contained this paragraph that I found helpful:
Which ties in nicely with what Gurdijeff says we first need to do to preserve energy which is ceasing to express negative emotion, because - as I see it - being annoyed/upset about something is suffering, and we're much less likely to express ourselves in a negative manner if we remember ourselves. I've been finding this really useful when my son throws food on the floor - good time to take a step back and not knee-jerk react."Suffering is the best possible help for self-remembering if you learn how to use it. By itself it does not help; one can suffer one's whole life and it will not give a grain of result, but if one learns to use suffering, it will become helpful. The moment you suffer, try to remember yourself."
It's interesting that when a state of self remembering appears, my last 4 or 5 seconds of thought seem to be available (a bit like how when someone wakes you up from reading by saying 'Well?' you can still access the last thing they said, even though you weren't conscious of hearing it at the time). And in those thoughts I can dimly sense the approach of that state of awareness - the connections between the thoughts that, perhaps, activated an "I" which is interested in The Work.
So a question I have to ask myself is: am I actually Self Remembering? Which is something I guess I'd have to ask the group's opinion on. Whether or not it's Self Remembering, I certainly feel present - present to how I'm feeling, present to what's going on around me, present to what I'm thinking - but at the same time also a sense of being present as an observer to the same. I often take a large in breath and reflect on how long it's been since I was last "aware" of anything.
Interesting that although I'd prefer not to work for a living, I seem to spend more time being aware when I'm at work than I do at home at the weekends when, although I'm doing things I enjoy more, I seem to spend less time fully conscious. That makes me wonder if mundane work is actually necessary/useful in terms of The Work. Or perhaps it's just that my monkey mind is following the path of least resistance - similar to how my flat was never cleaner than when I was supposed to be studying for exams.
Also, is anyone else following a daily meditation practice? I'm not finding it make so much difference to the number of times I remember myself in a day, but it does seem to have quite an improvement on my emotional state. I feel like I'm carrying around less low level, strangely unattributable, guilt.