I'm aware that I am posting three consecutive posts of mine in a row in this thread. I hope that is okay and I'm open to receiving feedback on how that might be perceived by the other forum members that read this.
I would like to share and to network to expand my knowledge and awareness and hopefully maybe facilitate the same in others.
As I'm reciting the daily readings (this is the case for both the morning and the evening readings) from the booklet titled 'The Cassiopaean Crystal Connection', I cannot help but noticing that I'm yawning, sometimes multiple times per reading.
At first when I noticed this, I began to wonder what this could be. I'm sure that it's not because of the times of day I do it, as one might surmise. After all, the mornings and evenings are times when people tend to be (still) tired and so yawning might be natural. It's not that.
When looking back at earlier times in my life, when I was singing songs, either alone or in group, I also had the tendency to yawn.
Currently, I'm reading 'Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown' (The Wave, vol. 5 & 6), and I read about, and I'm paraphrasing here, becoming aware of multiple sensations occuring at the same time when engaging in the process of recapitulation (as described by Castaneda).
So, I started to focus my consciousness at my physical sensations and memories that arose simultaneously. As I'm typing this very text right now, I'm noticing a body heat that I was aware of before as well.
During the reciting of the evening reading today, Saturday, 23 August, 2025 at around 00:50, I noticed that in certain parts of my body I felt what I can only describe as internal goose bumps, a kind of tingly sensation. Especially when reciting to the crystals that I requested for a loved one, who is currently my ex-partner with whom I still have contact and to whom I sincerely apologised this very evening for my behaviour which hurt her, I felt the tingly sensation in my sex. When I was yawning, I noticed visual images of the faces and/or the names of past sexual partners I had.
My subjective interpretation at the moment, and this is a hypothesis, is that I'm at least becoming aware of possible attachments that are there (in the sense of spirit attachments) and that by yawning my mind-body-spirit complex is trying to find a way to release them. I realise this could be wishful thinking.
Is this what the crystals could also assist with (at least for some people)? Could this be a 'feature' of connecting to the field of the FOTCM members?
Has anyone had similar factual experiences (yawning, physical sensations, memories surfacing (including visual images of faces and/or names of past lovers/sex partners) while reciting)? Does my subjective interpration make sense? Is it a faculty of my personal psychological make up? Is it magical or wishful thinking or am I onto something here?
Any clues and leads are very much welcomed. I appreciate any tips on how to decipher and discover the meaning of the yawning which coincides with the memories surfacing. I could, of course, be imagining that there is a link, where objectively, there is none. I am aware of that and prepared to disappoint the part of me that tries to find meaning in what I'm experiencing.
I would like to share and to network to expand my knowledge and awareness and hopefully maybe facilitate the same in others.
As I'm reciting the daily readings (this is the case for both the morning and the evening readings) from the booklet titled 'The Cassiopaean Crystal Connection', I cannot help but noticing that I'm yawning, sometimes multiple times per reading.
At first when I noticed this, I began to wonder what this could be. I'm sure that it's not because of the times of day I do it, as one might surmise. After all, the mornings and evenings are times when people tend to be (still) tired and so yawning might be natural. It's not that.
When looking back at earlier times in my life, when I was singing songs, either alone or in group, I also had the tendency to yawn.
Currently, I'm reading 'Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown' (The Wave, vol. 5 & 6), and I read about, and I'm paraphrasing here, becoming aware of multiple sensations occuring at the same time when engaging in the process of recapitulation (as described by Castaneda).
So, I started to focus my consciousness at my physical sensations and memories that arose simultaneously. As I'm typing this very text right now, I'm noticing a body heat that I was aware of before as well.
During the reciting of the evening reading today, Saturday, 23 August, 2025 at around 00:50, I noticed that in certain parts of my body I felt what I can only describe as internal goose bumps, a kind of tingly sensation. Especially when reciting to the crystals that I requested for a loved one, who is currently my ex-partner with whom I still have contact and to whom I sincerely apologised this very evening for my behaviour which hurt her, I felt the tingly sensation in my sex. When I was yawning, I noticed visual images of the faces and/or the names of past sexual partners I had.
My subjective interpretation at the moment, and this is a hypothesis, is that I'm at least becoming aware of possible attachments that are there (in the sense of spirit attachments) and that by yawning my mind-body-spirit complex is trying to find a way to release them. I realise this could be wishful thinking.
Is this what the crystals could also assist with (at least for some people)? Could this be a 'feature' of connecting to the field of the FOTCM members?
Has anyone had similar factual experiences (yawning, physical sensations, memories surfacing (including visual images of faces and/or names of past lovers/sex partners) while reciting)? Does my subjective interpration make sense? Is it a faculty of my personal psychological make up? Is it magical or wishful thinking or am I onto something here?
Any clues and leads are very much welcomed. I appreciate any tips on how to decipher and discover the meaning of the yawning which coincides with the memories surfacing. I could, of course, be imagining that there is a link, where objectively, there is none. I am aware of that and prepared to disappoint the part of me that tries to find meaning in what I'm experiencing.
