@Color, I figure that if I'm going to force people to read a wall of text about me and my problems, I should at least make it fun and keep it well-paced, as a sign of respect for the reader. Glad you enjoyed the story, I know I felt better after writing it.
I wouldn't say that I can sense anything behind the veil. And I've never had a positive experience with the supernatural, so I absolutely loath and despise these demons or manifestations for what they do.
I want nothing to do with them and I want nothing to do with the supernatural at all. I've thrown myself into reading about this problem because I was sick of not knowing what was going on and I was eager to acquire weapons and techniques to use to defend myself and maybe even others if they should come knocking again.
Do you have a more positive experience with "seeing behind the veil?" Do you mind sharing what you experience/see? I've never actually told anyone about this problem that I've been having because it freaks people out (and rightly so!) and I don't really want to burden them with my horror stories.
I get it, where you're coming from, seeing those abominations leaves a long-lasting effect. I would hate to sound negative but, this IS, in a way, their world. They are everywhere, manipulating and attaching themselves, feeding off humans, all the time. It is not a pretty sight.
Of course, I had many positive experiences as well, darkness is only one side of the equation. Also, having one glimpse into the true nature of 'God', the Universe, the Love that is beyond anything this world has to offer, is enough to diminish 100 negative experiences. That is the power of Truth. It is what it comes down to, deceptions & lies VS the Truth.
I can share one experience that was amazing to me, when it first happened. :) I was sitting on the bed holding my daughter, she was still a little baby, 4 months old and she just fell asleep after feeding. I was looking at her and wondering how something so perfect and beautiful can even exist in this world, I was feeling humbled and blessed, so honored to have her by my side... Suddenly - I fell into a 'Space'. It was a black dark space, everlasting space, filled with billions of glittering stars! After the initial shock, I started to realize how I don't have the body anymore, I just 'was'. I could see at all the directions at once. If I would focus on some star I would find myself instantly next to it. Then I realized how 'stars' were alive, how everything around me is alive and pulsating, how I... somehow 'know' all those stars, they were me and I was them, no matter we also existed in 'separate' consciousness. Then I started to 'hear' something that can only be described as not just voices but all combined, it was voices and music and laughter, coming from the pure joy of existence, coming from the stars around me. I felt such a profound burst of joy and happiness, those two words can't even begin to describe it, how it truly felt, it was playful and energizing, mesmerizing...
I hope you can understand better now what I meant by saying how only one such 'thing' can dissolve all the bad. When you experience something like that - nothing can take it away from you. Nothing can ruin that Truth. It just IS. Lies and manipulations and all that crap become exactly that - just some crap to deal with, to clear out of the way so that the Truth can shine.
Don't have the time for a further reply now, will get to it later, thank you for more stories.