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The Living Force
Thank you too, Gwenllian for this so valuable advice! To phrase it as "cocoon" of guilt and regret is very helpful to work with and then to focus on forgiving ourselves, reframing our thinking. I too struggle with it especially when I am tired and overworked.I also struggled with regrets a lot, still do when I am tired or when something is bothering me. But I think it is important to forgive ourselves. At the time we lacked knowledge about ourselves and others, and we CAN learn from our mistakes and make amends to the Universe, if we can't ask for forgiveness from others. Helping and supporting others, developing new skills and so on have helped me a great deal in dealing with my feelings of guilt and shame.
Also, replacing these persistent thoughts about how bad I was with phrases like "I am making amends to the Universe" for instance has been helpful. It will take some time to reframe our thinking, but I think it can be done or at least you may feel lighter after a while.
I would encourage you to share, Happy Poo. Remember that the Cs told us to network! Also, I think that I wasted a lot of my precious energy going round in circles and it didn't get me anywhere, because I was still too focussed on myself. When I stepped out of that cocoon of guilt/regret so to speak and focussed more on what is in front of me and others things got better.
Yesterday I read a great post by Approaching Infinity on a little different topic "the kingdom within". He describes it as a multilayered inner psychic milieu, an internal environment that has to be guarded. I think there is a relation as it describes the larger context or focus - that´s how I read it - on why it is so important to identify these negative/illusionary "cocoons" of the psychic milieu.
I found this very helpful too, to take care of our "inner garden", (e.g to work with regrets, guilt, shame), that why I add it to the discussion here:
Approaching Infinity said:
I think there are several issues relating to the kingdom being "within". At a low level of Being or essence, individuals are basically machines controlled by external stimuli. Thus we have social conformity as a common characteristic of such people. As development progresses, the individual becomes less influenced by the external environment, and develops a complex and multilayered internal environment, or inner psychic milieu. Without an inner milieu, there can be no autonomy, no choice, no action, and that describes the majority of humanity. The kingdom is thus an "inner" space from which one interacts with the external world. Picture it like a medieval castle. It is fortified and has guards at all entrances. Before any thing or person can enter, the authority of the castle must analyze the subject in question and approve or deny its entry. Those who do not conform with the order and purpose of life in the castle are expelled.
For individuals without an inner milieu, God can only be external. Thus, they worship in a manner similar to a person begging at the feet of their superior. They fear the authority and feel inferior to that authority. In the case of ritual magic and other low-level systems of "spirituality", the practitioner manipulates things in the external world in order to receive a response, either in that world, or in his own personality. But as long as activity is directed in such a way, it will only lead to spiritual entropy. On the other hand, when a person has a developed inner milieu, the picture is balanced. When one is truly autonomous, the way they interact with the external world is an expression of their internal nature. Instead of seeking reactions from the external world (through various sorts of interpersonal or "magical" manipulations), they themselves act as the axis or portal, through which the higher is brought into the lower (a microcosmic expression of the macrocosmic fall of spirit into matter).
Instead of seeking external reactions, and instead of reacting themselves in a simple stimulus-response fashion, they act as loci of real Action. Via discernment, intuition, and confidence, they act in the world in such a way that whatever they do is "positive" and creative in the given situation. It all comes from the inner psychic milieu, which is the only way to truly connect with divine (i.e. hyperdimensional, STO) centers. If you attempt to connect with the divine in an external way, you are acting on a low level (i.e. one determined by the external environment, which is thus based on lower social and selfish instincts, like self-preservation). And when acting on a low level (i.e. STS FRV), you align with those "divine centers" which are STS in nature. And thus you get situations like Laura describes in the Wave, like possessions and such.