Hi Cesar, your feeling's of these experience's are perhaps typical to the question's of what happen, why, by what, and for what, does it all really represent. Fear not, there is only so much that one do can to protect ones self from this agenda, knowledge. The knowledge i mean is that your are aware. The knowledge that being aware limit's the damage associated with the trauma of the abduction experience.
I don't mean to down grade any ones post regarding this topic , as each, and everyone experience, personal views, are unique, and torch's on a sensitive subject, considering what is done during the abduction encounter.
Abduction's are some what similar, but each experience is quite unique, and very personal. So it takes some courage to talk about it, and forum it, to grasp what is really happening. This may help one to acquirer the necessary knowledge, which helps to limit the possible damage, that some people have experienced, and never really recoup do to a lack of true knowledge of what is happening.
Classic symptoms, ( side effects ) have been discussed in the research of the abduction scenario, can and may include PTSD, alcoholism, promiscuity, anger, fear of certain sounds, drug addictions, violence, disintegrating relationships, physical and mental health issues, to name just a few obvious signs from the fallout from this activity.
This why it is so important to have read "The Wave Series" as recommended by the Moderators, when you first joined the forum. And if you have, i recommend rereading it a again, and marry it to your thoughts of your perceptions of possible encounters. This may help you to grasp the knowledge, being given, that has been painstakingly, put together since it's inception of the cassiopaean's since in 1994.
1/4 part I: The High Strangeness of Dimensions, Densities, and The Process of Alien Abduction
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZzPB-DOCX9M
High Strangeness: Hyperdimensions and the Process of Alien Abduction
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avzP-JoSy-o
The Wave Series: by Laura Knight-Jadczyk
http://www.cassiopaea.org/cass/waveindex.htm
- Into the Fringe-Karla Turner
http://www.whale.to/b/turner2.pdf
Unsolved Mysteries: Allagash Abductions Pt. 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVrrzKccYFM