beetlemaniac
The Living Force
I've been angsting about the issue of learning for as long as I can imagine. My main difficulty lies in 1) developing the interest; and 2) sustaining the attention on what I'm reading. This topic of meta-learning and "learning how to learn" has come up repeatedly in this forum, but I had not actually grasped the full import of the idea. Just thinking about learning as a skill seems to free some energy in order to push ahead with a topic that I'm currently grappling with. I searched TED for some videos on learning how to learn and I found this:
It's left me kind of wondering -- why did it take so long for me to figure out that I could learn a new way to learn?
I think it's because I was stuck in what seemed to be a time loop, where I lived cycles upon cycles of making certain choices over and over again, in the course of finding out what made me tick, what the purpose of this life was. One thing that stood out to me was that the end of my cycles always saw me going back to the fundamentals of the Work. The C's did make a mention of learning cycles...
There is something of an emotional component to this as well, of a slowly developing trust in life and the process. It's probably related to some wounding too -- the loss of love that was felt in childhood. Recently I met a lady who showed me something, I don't know what, but I felt quite changed after meeting her. I find it hard to explain what shifted, but in the course of interacting with her I came face to face with thoughts of unworthiness. It was an interesting view into the subconscious beliefs that I held about life -- one of the layers of the onion. The night after meeting her, I deconstructed these thoughts and managed to prove to myself that I was not "unworthy", specifically in terms of class / social status, the main prejudicial way society has made me view myself and others. That I am simply human, the same as any other human being.
Maybe our purpose here is really just to learn. And to learn, you need to know how to learn!
It's left me kind of wondering -- why did it take so long for me to figure out that I could learn a new way to learn?
I think it's because I was stuck in what seemed to be a time loop, where I lived cycles upon cycles of making certain choices over and over again, in the course of finding out what made me tick, what the purpose of this life was. One thing that stood out to me was that the end of my cycles always saw me going back to the fundamentals of the Work. The C's did make a mention of learning cycles...
There is something of an emotional component to this as well, of a slowly developing trust in life and the process. It's probably related to some wounding too -- the loss of love that was felt in childhood. Recently I met a lady who showed me something, I don't know what, but I felt quite changed after meeting her. I find it hard to explain what shifted, but in the course of interacting with her I came face to face with thoughts of unworthiness. It was an interesting view into the subconscious beliefs that I held about life -- one of the layers of the onion. The night after meeting her, I deconstructed these thoughts and managed to prove to myself that I was not "unworthy", specifically in terms of class / social status, the main prejudicial way society has made me view myself and others. That I am simply human, the same as any other human being.
Maybe our purpose here is really just to learn. And to learn, you need to know how to learn!