Laura said:Shane, I'm sure you meant "definitely", didn't you?
Yes, I did mean definitely.
Laura said:I notice a number of people making that particular typo. Wonder if it is an expression of something deep within?
That could be a possibility. I made the same typo in a similar context here:
Hi Buz, thanks for your post (and your sense of humor )
As far as the loner thing goes, I think pretty much every normal person in this world has become disconnected from one another and can feel like being 'on the outside'. While any challenges you face are unique to you, there is defiantly a shared experience here in learning how to network with one another in a human way.
Welcome!
Could it be a signal that I basically feel that taking care of yourself or behaving normally is an act of defiance? And might that indicate that I still hold pathological culture as my authority? I think there could be something to this as I've been noticing this general theme come up for me during the past months. I find myself feeling weak when it comes to doing what is right for either myself or others when there is some direct interaction with authoritarian type figures in my life (like my grandfather or step father). It's scary because there's a tendency that is basically authoritarian in nature. Even though I do feel a weakness of sorts, I think I still have been able to identify it and work through it to a degree. Yet the underlying belief in the authority of such 'authorities' does seem to have it's hold.
I'm curious if those thoughts are anything along the lines of what you were wondering, Laura? Thanks for bringing it up.