Peter Jennings
The Force is Strong With This One
After reading your intro does what you describe align with the timing of your self healing?
Could you please explain what you mean by ‘posture’.
I find what you write intriguing. I can somewhat relate to the experience of my own awakening but it was short lived, lasting only several months, I felt like I was living in a completely different reality to everyone else, but only consciously, I was in a state of complete acceptance and as cliche as it sounds- love of everything.
I couldn’t do anything that was out of alignment with that vibrational frequency without severe backlash from whatever energy field I was involved in, I was in a oneness with everything that lived and felt like there was no separation between them and I. I didn’t call it service to others because I didn’t know about that concept, it was more like a knowing of a perfection that permeates all things ‘good’, ‘bad’ and everything in between.
Coming crashing down from that state to ‘reality’ is still to this day one of the most painful things I’ve experienced.
Heh, yes I have had that experience before. I have had all sorts of very bizarre mystical type experiences also. I don't really know what to make of them, but I do have an inkling that potentially some or all of them are induced states by STS.
The one you just listed is the only one that I could potentially believe is not any kind of inducement and could be legitimate.
In the past I have felt for extended periods of time like I was living in some sort of alternate reality similar to what you described, but that is not what I've been experiencing in my description.
When I use the term posture, what that boils down to is meaning + charge. Your energetic posture is the meaning you give to something in addition to the emotion you charge it with.
I have been studing manifestation so closely for many years now and I came to the realization that even though everyone seems to think it's our beliefs that cause things to manifest but it is not. It's the energetic posture in relation to whatever the thing is.
I've been a professional high stakes poker player for many years and over all that time I started to see patterns in how the cards would fall. It was very evident to me that the cards I was getting were not random. That in certain times and certain situations, there would be nothing I could possibly do to win at all because the cards would be rigged against me. There are all sorts of different angles I took to confrim this. The one that proved to me it is energetic posture that causes favorable or unfavorable manifestations is that I noticed this pattern that whenever someone at the table, or even myself, would complain about how bad the cards they are getting are, or how we just "couldn't win no matter what". I noticed this pattern of very often, immediately after that happening, the person complaining would get a huge hand and win a decent sized or even large pot.
I thought a lot about that and recognized that they sitting in hope that they might win or that they could just keep playing patiently and that reality would reward them and they'd win if they did that. Their posture was: I will keep folding these bad hands and eventually I will be rewarded with a good one. Then, they complain and say "I just can't seem to get a hand" or "I just can't seem to win." In that moment, they shifted their energetic posture, it was no longer about waiting and hoping to get a hand, it was a resignation that they were presuming it was impossible to win no matter what. I.E. they were no longer performing with the attempt to get something.
The field is a perfect mirror. It is always aware of every motivation and intention with which you do any action. It understands those things far better than we can understand them ourselves because shifts in posture are so subtle and sometimes very complex to understand.
As far as your "crashing down to reality as most painful thing". I don't believe that we are meant to be in those kinds of mental states permanently. Based on how the C's have broken down how this place works, the purpose is for it to be unstable. If everyone woke up, there would be another reset or cataclysm or whatever because then the purpose of this place would not be able to be fulfilled.