High Strangeness of August 09

[Z...]

Since we all agree this was more then a weird month I thought maybe we could share experiences here. It could be a pure noise but I think sand box can tolerate it. Besides It might be interesting to connect seemingly insignificant dots from our personal lives.

So, here is a little report from my microcosms:


1. Nano technology strikes
Second week, Attack of flu (Swine most probably) which brought three days of constant fever hovering around 39,5 C during which I had some pretty unusual sensations - including brief out of body experience and also repeated sense of falling through- like bed didn't exist below me and I was just falling down.
They say hallucinations come about when fever goes over 40 and this is definitely the time to take antipyretcis so as to avoid the brain damage.
In any case this was weirdest flu I ever had and at times I literally felt that something has invaded my body in order to change it, but this could have been influenced by reading somewhere on this forum about viruses as nano technology.

2. Reality Split
Enormous fatigue with energy level close to 2 flat throughout the month. Also complete indifference to everything that accompanies the fatigue. Its not lack of emotions, or depression - more like who cares, whats the point anyway. This is for me very unusual as I tend to obsess about details. All the while there is persistent feeling as if the reality around me is made of some thin fabric that could easily be ripped. Sometimes it happens that in the middle of the certain situations I eject out of it and for short time I observe it from the side.


3. Grim Reaper Lurking
After Victoria died I noticed few very weird deaths here on my island. Being very small Forbidden Island has very law mortality when it comes to traffic accidents simple because its impossible to drive with high speed for long periods of time. Last week a whole family perished in bizarre accident.
There was also unusual amount of truly bizarre accidents all over the island leaving many people injured.

An acquaintance from the stable falls from her horse and is killed on the spot. Everyone was shocked with this news as she was a seasoned rider and had strong bond with her horse who was anything but bad tempered. Nobody knows what really happened as she went ridding alone.

Another acquaintance goes to family holiday and succumbs to mysterious illness. Within few days he is dead. Aneurysm in the brain. He was only 32.

Just before Victoria died I stopped talking for almost 14 days to my best friend (As a result of Work I have remained with only 2 very close friends). My friend acted irrationally over something and I decided I cannot put up with it anymore. Also I decided to learn my friend a lesson. Of course all wrong and not externally considerate.
By the time Victoria died I wanted to go back but every time I would pick up the phone I found it extremely difficult to go against my pride.
Victoria's death precipitated this wave of emotions and I immediately called my friend saying , either you or me can die tomorow and we cant part like this.
This was last Monday. Yesterday we had first rain after months of unbearable heat. Huge thunderstorms and everything. Just minutes after my friend was standing there admiring the rain a thunder stroke on the terrace and the house is still without internet, while computer is completely burned down.
There is little funny detail as well, my friend who was a passionate smoker decided to stop smoking while we were not talking. For a week or so my friend hasn't had a single cigarette and I feel as if my friend was abducted by aliens and switched as we are talking about the person that used to smoke 30 cigarettes a day.
I was always the one who can just quit and not smoke for days but my friend no way. But it happened, no nicorettes, no hypnosis or acupuncture , just one book. And my friend is also much calmer now. Very strange.

4. Unannounced Visitors
last week I also had a strange visit which I described here.
http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=12837.825

 

[mada85]

Throughout July and August and building in intensity until the time between Victoria’s passing and finding out about it, I felt an emotional deadness and heaviness, quite bleak and hopeless, with a kind of perverse enjoyment of negative and hating thoughts. This state grew very slowly and imperceptibly over the weeks preceding Victoria’s demise. I finally resolved it by active reasoning one or two days after Victoria died, but before I found about her death. It was like being suddenly released from prison.

A few days ago, the partner of a family member died quite suddenly from a heart attack at the age of 32.

I’ve noticed problems with quite a few electrical devices around me, at home and at work. The office printer failed completely, the office internet connection failed, my computer is crashing quite often, lights have failed, bulbs blowing.

 

[Beorn]

I’ve noticed problems with quite a few electrical devices around me, at home and at work. The office printer failed completely, the office internet connection failed, my computer is crashing quite often, lights have failed, bulbs blowing.

I had 4 instances where power went out.
The first was in a large retail grocery store. The store lost electrical power. They couldn't even use their computers for checkout and had to shut the store.

Second: while shopping in a mall the entire complex lost power. I've never seen this happen before.

Third: while driving through some traffic lights the lights suddenly turned off and started flashing and the street lights went out for about 50 meters all around.

Fourth: last night I woke up with a dream of a lizard making a kind of hissing noise. The power was out and it was pitch black. I started reciting the Prayer of the Soul and before I had finished power came back and birds started singing outside.

 

[Turgon]

I've noticed strange weather patterns this summer. Hail Storms (in the middle of summer?). Last week, we were hit by multiple tornado touchdowns. This is, to my knowledge, extremely rare, to the point of non-existent in the area that I live.

 

[flashgordonv]

Weather has been really weird in Australia too. The last three weeks have been summer like weather, when we are still in winter. There are bushfires burning in both Sydney and Melbourne, these are summer activities not for winter. Brisbane had a 34 degree day last week, the warmest day since records have been kept I believe. Really weird, very unseasonal weather to say the least.

 

[ana]

For me highlight two facts:

1st) a dream I have two or three days before knowing about Victoria's death, where I went to a kind of industrial estate, and there were symbols on the pavement of each building representing each of the individuals in this forum.

I enter in one of the buildings and a glass doors were opened leading me directly to a kind of laboratory where a machine start to scan me, I state that the scan was causing me pain in the hand and in the right eye but it continous.
Then I enter in a very small dark room where a dark man /being without definite form start to introduce me a kind of energy through the mouth (suffocation feelings) wich ran through my body (supposedly looking for a virus) shortly after this energy shot out of my mouth, and the dark man/being told me "you are now clean".
Then I start to feel a kind of emergency risk and I went to a corridor where I knew will find the members of this forum, then on of the members (a woman) come to me crying and screaming She said She was going to die and told me I had to warn the rest of the members who were in danger.
I start to run in the corridor opening all the doors telling them that the moment had arrived and we were in danger... I don't remember nothing more


2nd) The day before knowing about Victoria's death I was in my bedrom with my cat, and I start to feel a terrifying presence (I saw nothing only perceived), my cat jumps out of the bedroom and seeing him I did exactly the same, I wait about 15 minutes before feeling able to re-enter.

 

[Third_Density_Resident]

Weather has been really weird in Australia too. The last three weeks have been summer like weather, when we are still in winter. There are bushfires burning in both Sydney and Melbourne, these are summer activities not for winter. Brisbane had a 34 degree day last week, the warmest day since records have been kept I believe. Really weird, very unseasonal weather to say the least.

Yes, and I live near Brisbane. Let me tell you, it was unbelievable. The really odd thing was that the maximum of 35 degrees C wasn't reached until 4 pm. I know that maximums often aren't reached until 4 pm in Melbourne, but in Brisbane, it's unheard of! In addition to that, we didn't get any rain for nearly eight weeks straight. Only just this morning did we get a little rain.

Of course we had all the pro-global warming lunatics raving on about how this was "proof" of global warming, but they conveniently forgot that in August 1946 a very similar situation occurred with heat and drought. They also forgot that in July 2007, record COLD temperatures were recorded across much of the state.

 

[Smallwood]

These are not all August strangeness, but obstacles have been mounting up to me lately.

I have had a very, and I mean VERY bad brain-fog these last few weeks. The scariest thing is how persistent it is... I haven't felt any sort of mental clarity for atleast a month!

I fear it might be due to the renovation of our house and the fact that my room now serves as a kitchen, with all the poisonous Teflon fumes and what have you. Our new mini-stove also emits unpleasant and strong fumes whenever we prepare our food that I think might be toxic. I haven't eaten healthy lately either, but never before has it been THIS much of a problem. I'll try spending a few days outside, reading books to see if it will go away. Would probably do good to me anyway.

Also, another problematic aspect brought by the renovation is the fact that my parents now live in a room next to mine. This makes practising EE a little bit hard. I've tried to explain to them that I need one and ½ hours regularly of my own time, but despite that I have to deal with some of the eeriest behaviour I have witnessed from them. They know that I tend to stay up late reading the Net, but it is only when I'm doing EE that they actually tell me "Go to bed already". Mother with a voice that sounds as if she wasn't the one dictating her words, with father's voice filled with obvious disdain for the practise (not very surprising, but he sure knows when to fire all cannons). Luckily, this may soon change if all goes well, when we get our laptop back from the shop and I can move to another room in our house that is still habitable.



The most disturbing for me however was that 20 minutes prior to reading the In Memorium: PepperFritz-thread, I watched YouTube a video about a train that almost hit a pedestrian.

 

[vinny]

Also, another problematic aspect brought by the renovation is the fact that my parents now live in a room next to mine. This makes practising EE a little bit hard. I've tried to explain to them that I need one and ½ hours regularly of my own time, but despite that I have to deal with some of the eeriest behaviour I have witnessed from them. They know that I tend to stay up late reading the Net, but it is only when I'm doing EE that they actually tell me "Go to bed already". Mother with a voice that sounds as if she wasn't the one dictating her words, with father's voice filled with obvious disdain for the practise (not very surprising, but he sure knows when to fire all cannons). Luckily, this may soon change if all goes well, when we get our laptop back from the shop and I can move to another room in our house that is still habitable.

this sounds to me like the General Law rising up to put you back in your place as you try something new and powerful. I would suggest maybe trying to keep a 'low profile' if at all possible (sounds rather difficult in your circumstances, actually) by trying to make your own time, with the EE breathing program, not appear externally to be a big deal (even if it is).

 

[Smallwood]

Thanks Nomad. Yes, it seems that way. EE has already had quite a bit of effect on my emotional state, I feel less "emotionally constipated". Still, it is no less scary when I think about the way things have fallen just so that even now I find it hard to undertake such a simple set of excercises.

I will persist.

 

[henry]

If getting an hour and one-half in one shot is too much until the renovations are done, you could try breaking it up for the moment. If you can do some of the pipe breathing each day, and listen to the Prayer of the Soul each night, until you are able to get back to the entire programme, it might tide you over and help make it less conspicuous for your parents.

 

[Smallwood]

Thank you henry, that is really good advice actually, I will break it up as you suggested. I'm sure it will help in my situation.

 

[vinny]

Still, it is no less scary when I think about the way things have fallen just so that even now I find it hard to undertake such a simple set of excercises.

Indeed. This is a useful exercise in many ways, an achievable but still significant goal to be able to do this regularly - not only can it have the benefits talked about, but it also an exercise in self discipline. As Gurdjieff said, it is useful to concentrate exclusively on a small, simple goal first, (He was talking about this in the context of gaining control over one's little i's.) and when you find how hard it is to do this one simple thing consistently and consciously it can give you an indication of just exactly what we are up against, when we attempt to 'know ourselves' and be able to 'DO', and that our own mechanical nature as well as external circumstances will conspire against it.

 

[truth seeker]

A lot of distraction started happening around 2-3 weeks ago.

First I became really sick (stomach flu kind of stuff). The next day I found out from my father in the states that someone was contacting me in reference to a court case. (I have never done anything that would require me to go to court). The day after that a friend from the states emails me that she would like to come and visit within 2 days. My boyfriend says he now feels sick (he also "never" gets sick. The weekend passed uneventfully. Monday morning all three of us go out for less than 2 hours in which time a bailiff came, broke the lock and listed my laptop as one of the items listed for auction.

Now I had been waiting for this bailiff for at least 6 weeks to avoid the lock being broken. When we read the paper as to when he arrived, it turned out that he came like something within 7 minutes of our departure!

Then some miscellaneous piece broke off our sink. The last thing was a problem with our internet cable. It finally settled down for the most part after that.

It was great having my friend visit, but I couldn't really devote as much time to meditation as I usually do. I choose to see it as distraction and possibly a lesson in remaining calm.

 

[Username]

Something rather strange and very unusual happened to me this morning. I think that this is the right thread to post it (¡good idea Corto Maltese!). While I was walking in the street a lady of about 45 years old came to me and asked if she could say something to me. I said yes and then she started (I don't remenber the exacts words but these are the ideas she expressed): "You have to have faith. You have to believe in you. Once you'll start believing in you every thing will be better in your life. Once the Wisdom is in you everything will be different. God knows you. You are here to work for Him. When I saw you I knew that I had to talk to you." Then she asked what I was thinking. I answered that a part in me trusted her and that another part had doubts. She told that I didn't have to believe completely in what she was saying, that I should choose if I wanted to talk to her again and that she could give me a lot of knowledge. Then she gave me her cellphone number and left in a hurry to take a bus. Her name was Blanca (White in spanish). She looked like a normal person, had normal clothes, was rather kind and gentle and didn't looked like as someone who is campaigning for some church, sect or cult (although it could be a way of doing this). Her look was of a normal human being and her presence didn't caused me any negative feeling, rather a positive one... Well, how to interprete this encounter? Was she just a crazy woman? Was she rather a useful idiot send in my way to divert me from the right path? Or should I call her and find out a little more about who she is and what she knows? Isn't it obvious that in all she said there was this ego hook message of "you are a chosen one" to seduce me?