Inner World VS Reality

[anart]

Anart - How can I know if my choices and actions are making the future better?

You can't. All you can do is do the best you can and have faith in the process. That's why knowledge is so important, it helps you do the best you can.

Not a white flag saying I am giving up on the work. This work is just about the only thing that has been constant, that provides tangible results and I believe in it.

What I am saying is that the C's said all there is are lessons, learning is fun. Ok well learning can be painful physically and emotionally and then yes you can be protected by this pain but I am not looking to go through more of it on my way to learning how to protect myself from it and then if I want to stand up for myself or make a decision how do I know its the right one.

It's a very difficult school, but here we are...

As Laura's signature reads:

He who learns must suffer
And even in our sleep pain that cannot forget
Falls drop by drop upon the heart,
And in our own despair, against our will,
Comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God.
Agamemnon, Aeschylus

 

[1984]

....and I know the only way out of what I don't like is to keep going through what I dont like...

Indeed you do know, Menna. Look how far you've come in Understanding since you've joined the forum. As well, you also understand the phrase 'no pain, no gain'. ;D Hang in there.

 

[SeekinTruth]

I think it will really help to make efforts to take the focus off yourself. Nothing in this life in the Matrix is personal. It just is what it is -- for everyone. "Finding yourself" in the overall scheme of things is important, and in my opinion, it only really works to keep learning without being crushed is to serve universal principles.

For example, do you really love Truth above all else? When you go through the suffering of this life to learn and grow, if you can make Truth your "god," it will help to continue on with the pain and suffering. Every time you make a decision, if you are doing your best to serve objective Truth for its own sake, with the best you can discern at that stage, it will be the right decision for your growth. This will also motivate you to keep stripping away all the lies inside you -- which is very painful.

Whenever your feeling down, overwhelmed or whatever, try taking a step back, being more gentle on yourself, and taking the focus off yourself. Do your best and accept what comes. Hope this helps.

 

[cubbex]

The other day I was thinking about it. I'm not a fan of this reality too, but not because I just feel antipathetic, just because the situation is a mess, and it depresses me that almost everybody wants to live in an illusion mode. I thought that here is just pain, suffering etc. but because pathological beings are ruling the world, abusing of that illusion mode people likes to live in, or maybe people live in this mode as a reflection of the ideologies these pathological beings have created. I'm not perfect, sometimes I serve as a vessel for this ideologies without noticing until I spot it. But life is beautiful, it has showed me its grandiosity, its variety, so I hold my breath and hope that one day I will be able to change things for better, don't know how although.

I've had what could be considered suicidal thoughts because I had those ideas that I don't, as others, need me to live with such weight over my back of not being completely happy, and have the life I would want but, thinking about reincarnation and all that, I see that is pointless to do it, I´m gonna reincarnate again and maybe restart all my lessons again, that I by no doubt want to do again, so I can't evade or stop to exist in this reality, maybe my actual personality but not my soul (or me in other words), I can lie to myself that I do if i can but I don´t like to do that because deception is worst than facing the truth. So I give the try to keep working, the best I can.

You know I have this fantasy that never expected to be inspired long long ago by serendipity while using of illegal substances ( sorry I know it's not good), that I will master myself and reach a higher point of perception, that my intellect as my emotional maturity will be like no one else, that I will be in peace as in oneness with everything, although I had these kind of experiences after doing the EE sometimes just walking on the street, those kind of experiences when even the simple things are so beautiful that you live in a state described before on the sessions of STO, when you don't "want" nothing, just because you love what you have in presence, and that you feel free, so free that you can love in the same way. But that will come with hard work, conscious suffering and knowledge, also I don't know if I'll have the opportunity in other life of acknowledge this special knowledge here. This is an especial period of the universe as I understand, not one easy to live through but I have a gut feeling that is an especial opportunity.

By the way what's that thread of Ghostly lover? I've searched in the forum with no luck.

 

[Aiming]

By the way what's that thread of Ghostly lover? I've searched in the forum with no luck.

Here you go.

 

[Menna]

"May i ask you Menna, who doesn't want to learn anymore, is it "you" or you? Have you asked yourself that question?"

bngenoh - I don't think its my whole being that wants to stop - I do feel that my intellectual center takes big striking blows during the learning process...After my body heals and my emotions subside and balance I get stuck in my intellectual center. I can no longer or don't want to create buffers to hide the truth. I see others do it and I know we arent in the convincing business its the persons choice to do so and the right thing to do is to let it be.

Iron - Seeing the building burning while everyone is inside smiling is a great analogy and I bet most people here would feel bad knowing all those people are burning regardless if they are good people or not or if its their path to burn its still hard to watch.

This wasn't a sudden post - I was feeling this way for month's prior after another lesson learned I had enough conformation to know that what I was feeling was new/strong so if I am growing then as a new feeling I wanted to get it checked to see in what direction. Couldn't think of a better place to do so...Thanks

 

[bngenoh]

This wasn't a sudden post - I was feeling this way for month's prior after another lesson learned I had enough conformation to know that what I was feeling was new/strong so if I am growing then as a new feeling I wanted to get it checked to see in what direction. Couldn't think of a better place to do so...Thanks

Now i understand where you are coming from Menna, a couple of quotes, which we need to be reminded of every know and then:

A: All are headed to 4th density. So, what does it matter, remember, transformation is always accompanied by some difficulty.

The gem cannot be polished without friction nor man without trials.

An idea that is developed and put into action is more important than an idea that exist only as an idea.

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[*]It is not work that kills, but worry.
[*]A feeble effort will not fulfill the self.
[*]Lack of knowledge is darker than night.
[*]One falsehood spoils a thousand truths.
[*]Smooth seas do not make skillful sailors.
[*]Do not look where you fell, but where you slipped.
[*]It is not what you are called, but what you answer to.
[*]Wood already touched by fire is not hard to set alight.
[*]If you don't stand for something, you will fall for something.
[*]For tomorrow belongs to the people who prepare for it today.
[*]When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.
[*]Knowledge is like a garden: If it is not cultivated, it cannot be harvested.
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