Then don't? Leave that is. No-one is forcing you out. I don't know the ins and outs of the withdrawal of PM privileges and don't want to know as it is none of my business. However, if that is what has lead to this decision then it does strike me as being a rather petulant reaction to this. Forgive my bluntness but surely you have been here long enough to know that the Mod/Admin team would not have taken this decision lightly. Moreover, it would not have been personal and would have been well-intentioned with the best interests of all involved at its heart.
It is up to you, however, and if that is your final decision then please leave with my hopes that you find what you are looking for. I hope for nothing but the best for you and am sure that others here would say so too. However, you are willingly leaving a wonderful community here of supporting, understanding people. Why ditch that willingly? I would be heartbroken to leave here. It is the only place on the internet where I feel like I can truly be myself and not worry about being attacked or judged. I have found precious few people in real life who have allowed me that. So to willingly cast that aside over self-importance seems foolhardy to me. You have an opportunity to learn and grow from this. I hope that you take up that challenge. If not, then I wish you well.