jobs vs. The Work, homelessness & WANDERERing

[Skyalmian]

Meanwhile, moving up in spite of challenges:

[Skyalmian]
To: []@amazon.com May 15 at 12:03 PM

Hello,

I am a happy-to-report Amazonian graduate after five (5) months as an Integrity Staffing Solutions Associate at the [] Sort Center, having diligently put in much effort against many challenges, and it gladly paid off. :)

My request is about my future blue badge in that I have desired an updated photo that is much more professional than the "bad hair day" I had in November 2014 at one of Integrity's mass hiring events. I asked HR if new photos could or would be taken for such, was directed to on-site front security, who instructed me to contact you for permission for such.

In addition to being among thousands of others with badges in downtown Seattle (including the corporate / South Lake Union Amazonians), I am a "badge swag" fan and have worn the white badge not just everywhere but also when traveling, such as recent April trips to the Olympic Mountains to the west of Seattle. Being an Amazon.com proper Associate is now even more awesome. :)

With your permission, could on-site security snapshot a new photo to place on file for the upcoming badge? I have heard of the phrase, "If you don't ask, the answer is always no."

In filling out the new-hire forms, I spotted: "I authorize and acknowledge that Amazon will deduct from my paycheck the full cost of replacing those cards/badges." If this is one deciding factor, Amazon has my consent to do so.

Thank you for your time / reading. :)

[Skyalmian]
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Amazon.com Associate (as of 05/17/15)
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[V. V.]
To: [T., T.]
CC: [Skyalmian] May 15 at 2:43 PM

[T.],
I approve making a new badge with a new photo for [Sky].
Thank you,
[V.]

[V. V.]

Work hard. Have fun. Make history.

A little bit of "growing up" at work. I used to be overly shy, submissive, timid, etc. This is one example of directly going for something even after everyone else was telling me "No." :) (y)

Olympic Mountains to the west of Seattle

Sappho, Washington. I went there twice in April to see a mutual friend (friend of a friend) for four (4) nights each and we both considered the visits a success. I'm going back one last four (4)-night run (SLEEP!) this upcoming week (invariably / unfortunately during the "Mercury Retrograde" that starts on Monday, May 18) before a recent, sudden mandatory shift replaces my "Weekend Warrior" one with the previous 5 days x 4 hours standard. :/

I met Mick Dodge here in Seattle a week ago; he seems pretty cool. :)

cheezemurda49 sends me e-mails but many are ramblings that don't make much sense (incoherent and/or without direction) and tend to be examples of how much he needs to get out of "The Tunnel", get some real food, real sleep, etc. :/

(My activity in this thread is now primary to what I had intended for this one. ("I don't know where to begin."))

 

[CelticWarrior]

Here in So. Cal. Southern California, we have over 30,000 + homeless people and families. It would be a mistake to Stereo Type the homeless as somebody deserving of the situation they find themselves in. I have personally met some of them and while we tend to remember the ones whose Dip-stick don't touch oil, a great many are homeless because housing casts 80% of their monthly income, they have exhausted monies from DPSS (Department of public social services), They for some reason do not qualify for DPSS monies (criminal record, drugs and what-ever, they only get monies for 9-months out of 1-year, they do not qualify for further assistance or have fallen into a different category) and the monies you do receive is not very much. Many are scared and are greatly worried that something terrible is soon to happen. I concur with their forebodings that the future has Winds of Change before the Storm. Riders of the Storm Wyatt

It's possible many of these desperate individuals are on welfare because they either didn't work hard enough, have been treated unfairly or have lived beyond their means. But let's delve deeper into this issue.

I've been thinking about these points in this thread:

Gurdjieff:
"A man who can be a good obyvatel is much more helpful from the point of view of the way than a 'tramp' who thinks himself much higher than an obyvatel. I call 'tramps' all the so-called 'intelligentsia'— artists, poets, any kind of 'bohemian' in general ( Wikipedia describes "bohemian" as those who follow unconventional lifestyles, wanderers and vagabonds. ) , who despises the obyvatel and who at the same time would be unable to exist without him. Ability to orientate oneself in life is a very useful quality from the point of view of work. A good obyvatel should be able to support at least twenty persons by his own labor. What is a man worth who is unable to do this?"

...accustomed to deal with real values, an obyvatel values the possibilities of the 'ways' and the possibilities of 'liberation' or 'salvation' better and quicker than a man who is accustomed all his life to a circle of imaginary values, imaginary interests, and imaginary possibilities.

And

This just illustrates the idea, that there is no free lunch. Contractual, consensual work in 3rd density supports our ability to pursue the work which will allow the development of free will, and an astral body. I suppose your reading hasn't borne out the idea to you that you are, in fact, already bound and your soul a servant. It is only through work that you will release them. I feel for you and your situation, but, also am reticent to empathize with someone who refuses to earn his daily bread for fear of selling a soul which has already been sold. Your job is to work to release it.

I'm not disagreeing with the way you choose to live your life, but it seems that if you want to move on from this condition you better find a craft you feel comfortable trading for money. You sound like you'd also do well in the horticultural world. I work with trees and yes, I sometimes cut them down for people based upon supercilious reasons. I feed off the trees and the trees feed me. I atone by planting trees and gardens and paying back the debt of my family and my required sustenance by doing my darnedest to invigorate the natural systems which sustain me. In short, I consider it a symbiotic relationship.

Just out of conjecture here on the matter. If most people were to capture intimately what they view around them as a fully functional society, I would believe completely that whatever they described would be a flat out lie. There's a reason for this. It's exactly that people don't want to succeed or have trouble making a connection to working for an income which is due to a psychological flaw. There is an inherent weakness to remain devoted to an "I'll never do better" attitude. So, essentially, failure is set up from the moment poor folks plunder into their gloomy yet fantasy driven lifestyle. Interestingly enough, atop on their perch of an unconventional wanderer way of existence there is a desperate cry for help. With that in mind, the only way to pierce the fallacy that people aren't good workers for the sake of themselves or others is that they are really damaged by the system. I mean it could be anything like family issues, medical issues, drug habits, buying property too soon and living beyond your means. Perhaps you and others around you have had 'all the luck' but given the unfit conduct of how society is run in general it's not going to help anyone break out of their mental blocks.

Even for those whom have had the best family, education, wealth etc. They can and are most likely as deeply flawed in their habits. I see it in what is supposed to be the top positions in public and private sector. Mistreatment of others, psychopathic tendencies, poorly managed finances, and these are the ones running things? Back to the drawing board. There is no such thing as a truly functional society in this already developed-dysfunctional ticking time bomb of a population. But, give credit to those who deem it necessary to find the bravery to ask the hard questions. The work for self improvement/examination should be what most working class individuals aspire to, which can't be completed without a group who thinks and is very compassionate.

 

[Miss.K]

I don't think anybody chooses to be homeless to have it easy. Being homeless is really hard work. Begging for money is humiliating, and a really bad salary...

I think that most people who are not homeless have at some point not "worked hard enough, have been treated unfairly or have lived beyond their means."

The difference of who end up homeless or not, I think, often have to do with what kind of social network one has. If one have a good social network, one can usually stay on a friends couch for a while when falling, and gather strength to find a solution, but if one doesn't, the situation is very different.

I think the problem of loneliness can lead to homelessness. Loneliness can come sneaking, and little by little friends disappear. When it starts to be obvious it hurts, and usually people don't like people who are lonely and hurting, and if one is intelligent one knows that, so if one is both intelligent lonely and hurting, it becomes really hard to ask friends and family for help, because if asking for help and in return getting no help, but being looked down on with a mixture of pity and disgust, and being told that one is an idiot for having put one self in such a bad situation, and one has some pride, one will quickly stop asking for help.

People have a tendency to think that a problem they never had, is a problem they could never have, and so feel disgust for people who's problems are so severe that they can't be hidden. In my experience it is a lot easier to get help when one doesn't really need it than in situations where one really does.

It can be hard to get up again when falling far, because one has to psychologically be a lot stronger than anybody who hasn't fallen. OSIT

This video shows the difference:

https://www.facebook.com/prinzmarcus/videos/10152539820834179/?pnref=story

 

[Skyalmian]

'Blocks' (1) (2) have been mentioned before. I have to agree.

I've seen folks go from where you are to comfortable secure housing in a matter of weeks.

So why eight (8) months? It may be that the long-term'ers have major underlying issues acting as such. For example, my mother issues: _https://www.facebook.com/108205192i/posts/1669131496650501 . :(

Did you know the homeless population is largely made up of military veterans? Can't have these interdimensional warriors talk about it - their minds are cleared, and they are left to rot, so they can never talk about anything anymore.

The elderly gentleman I 'adopted' as 'stepfather' (father figure) is one. :/

Also of note, two (2) nights ago I met a supposed member of Navy SEAL Team 5, who supposedly knew and hated Jesse Ventura because of a mission they were on together. He was clearly visibly homeless ("that look") and needed to get to Tacoma so I did give him funds after the SEAL mention, because I employ the four (4) techniques they use in order to keep putting one foot in front of the other no matter how low-energy or sleep-deprived I get.

 

[Skyalmian]

I'm not too fond of this area and may just go back to Hawai'i again, but not without some things acquired first. The cost of living / rent here isn't getting any better, more homeless continue to pour into the region, the specter of a potential earth change for here is unnerving, etc.

 

[Skyalmian]

Re: jobs vs. The Work, homelessness & WANDERERing: "Rock Bottom"

Since around Tuesday, June 16 I've been staying at a "SHARE / WHEEL" shelter called "Safe Haven". It's in northern downtown Seattle, the area known as Belltown, in an ancient art-covered basement of a 'sick' building that has had a long, "dark and dim", 'icky' history.

To put it simply, the 'hygiene' of all(?) homeless shelters is atrocious / horrendous. The abject depression, misery, nihilism etc. and the very high turnover rate of such places invariably causes them to be toxic, with high drama and entropy levels (theft is high) to where even basic, simple living things (like chores, communicating, proper planning, etc.) tend to not be done properly, if at all. In some cases it's physical, like Bed Bugs of Strife Bread of Life and DESC, and in others like Seattle City Hall and "Safe Haven", it's...these, that go active when the lights go out. "Safe Haven" in that latter regard is the worst place I've ever stayed at right after the April-August 2013 Hawai'ian Beaches "House of Horrors"—the population total is 30 officially, but maybe almost twice as many if counting what resides there in wait, many of them angry and/or uncompromisingly sexual ghosts.

"Fun."

I had this dream this morning as I was waking up... This train came rolling through but it was running hot, then the engine caught fire and ran off the rails...

It stopped in the woods, (a train track passing through the forest), and so it ran off the rails and stopped in the dirt right next to this... Chateau... A wooden nice restaurant... It was cold and a bit snowy outside, but I could see in the restaurant (SOTT, Cassiopaea website) all these []... All warm in their Chateau. But they weren't in there 'cuz they enjoyed the warmth, it was because they were AFRAID of the cold! (The cold, 3rd density life)...

Meanwhile this dog came and visited with me, we hung out in the cold, but our hearts were very warm.

It took me a while to get over anger, autophobia / low self-worth, and ego issues, but I fully / wholly understand now why the forum collectively resides in tightly knit communities / houses that have strong protective frequency fences as a result. Because "out there", at the edges of the yards where the lights don't really reach, the woods, and further, it is getting very dark, dim, and dangerous in the world... Very... Expect some clamoring desperate 'refugees' "wanting in" when full collapse mode begins. :/

The cheeze murda "solution" is no solution IMO. Rather it takes one further away from a potential practical solution where one would be able to develop along the lines that one wishes to - like "awareness" and "strength of being". So perhaps it would be more useful for tohuwabohu to use his energies to network about practical solutions to specific problems?

First 'they' will weaken FRV by any means necessary, including passive / by proxy. Then they will feed, if they can, on whatever they can. Then eventually one will be taken and torn apart in the dead of night.

For those that don't know, that think they can "go it alone" anymore, in these days, in these times, with what is and has been happening becoming more prevalent and worse and worse, the world as a whole is descending into a very dark darkness and one of the major aspects is all the horrors of 4th density showing up more and more.

On 2015-06-14 there was something akin to a "window faller" on a bridge on the Interurban Trail under power lines like these at nearly midnight in Kent, Washington, a flatland sea of warehouse complexes. That was followed by 30 minutes of crying.

I don't want to do this anymore, and I'm not sorry for leaving my mother. What happened to her was horrible (she's gone) and/but I don't need to destroy myself because I feel that bad about what happened—and all of "this" is precisely about what happened, in having deep feeling states being both the drivers of personal reality as it is, and blockers of anything better.

I've been using

To the end of homelessness, shelters, tar, ["living in"] dowtown Seattle, and other related low vibe things...

for the past few weeks with EE, and it's having its effects like April 2014's did.

 

[davey72]

Is there no way for you to get out of that city Skyalmain?

 

[Skyalmian]

Is there no way for you to get out of that city Skyalmain?

Maybe. And go where, and for what?

 

[davey72]

Perhaps only you can answer that. I suppose i made an assumption that you may not want to be where you are.
Have you ever thought about donating your time to say feed some of the people that you spend so much time with? This is just me, but i remember feeling much better about being in a homeless shelter when i volunteered to help feed dinner. Whenever i saw a truck, or church truck stopping to give people food, i often asked them if i could help. Personally i think that sort of thing helped me through those times.

 

[Skyalmian]

Have you ever thought about donating your time to say feed some of the people that you spend so much time with?

Odd timing to ask; $62.70 disappeared on holiday lunch at Denny's today for myself and two (2) longtime friends. (We all had steak-focused meals.)

There is free food in Seattle and a lot of it, but nothing close to paleo let alone keto.

 

[Skyalmian]

At the end of the living nightmare that was last week (worst in two (2) years exact), :/ I forced myself to order some "small potatoes", ones I had before but invariably lost.

(Small potatoes are better than no potatoes and apparently can tide one over for a while until better things become able.)

Meanwhile in the area: _http://www.thestranger.com/blogs/slog/2015/07/06/22503117/ballard-business-owners-get-seattles-homeless-away-from-us

 

[Skyalmian]

Homeless people are food. Disempowered, desperate, despairing, hopeless and helpless, they are the lowest of the low and the easiest and most fed on sub-sub class in the US ("kick them when they're down"). No support systems are objectively beneficial and are merely 'there' so the homeless can baseline survive while outputting maximum chaos, drama, entropy, severe depression, nihilism and general deep-negative energy to be fed on and further the disintegration death spiral process. All conditions they are subjected to are, for lack of a better word, inhumane, including the 'self-managed' shelters.

And there will be no positive end to it in a psychopath-infested-and-run country / economic and governmental system slated for fullblown severe, total collapse.

It could be much worse, eh? Like Iraq, Libya, Ukraine, Greece, etc...

 

[Skyalmian]

While psychopathic banking, corporate, real estate greed were busy gobbling up vast amounts of money and inflated-value property, they inadvertently created a faucet out which fresh, clean newly-homeless pour, who, in both their innocence and ignorance, promptly get caught by and sucked into a major whirlpool in this region, the homelessness vortex tar pit.

This was a rough sketch I made this morning that highlights a handful of the homeless services places by their http://thecasswiki.net/index.php?title=Frequency_resonance_vibration , with the innermost having the lowest FRV (the most chaos, drama, entropy, and 'Feeders'), the center being where ' https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spaghettification ' of/to one is most liable to occur (disintegration / destruction).

Some have been lucky enough to avoid the inner circles where the chronic homeless are trapped circling the drain due to their issues (mental, drug use), [arrest / criminal] records, drama / entropy fields of the places they saturate themselves in, etc.

Night locations are classified as far worse than Day due to both the different clientele that frequent them and the personal 'demons' / 'shadows' that "come out of the closet to play" at night. For example, DESC (night) is exponentially listed as closer to the center of the vortex due to the fact that all the bed bugs that infest the basement go active at night when the lights go out. (Parasites have very low FRVs and act as 'receivers' for negative waves, e.g. as explained in https://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,39067.0.html .)

This is complex and messy, and the list is a very rough sketch and far from complete.

(Amazon is only listed in my own attempt to place where it would be relevant for me. A full-color digital graphic designed in an office suite program would have lines like "$15/hour full-time" and accompanying yearly amounts earned versus the typical rental agreement's mandate of income being '2.5x' whatever the rent is in order to even baseline qualify, for example.)

_http://grist.org/cities/in-seattle-the-rent-is-too-damn-high

The system is completely out of balance and has resulted in metaphorical 'sinkholes', "tar pits", 'whirlpools' having "opened up".

In the old days, pre-2000s perhaps, this may have been merely an eddy, not a full-blown sucking vortex. As affordability disappears, so does escape velocity, requiring vastly increased income to compensate, solid / stable connections, etc.

Within the giant drain are sub-eddys within, branch-offs, as my friend noted during the discussion.

I suppose i made an assumption that you may not want to be where you are.

Correct. And again, go where, and for what?

The only major agenda item is a full drivers license, which, in the event of a potential Hawai'i return, may lead to stable work there, perhaps easily so given what resume now looks like thanks to employment in Seattle.

 

[Skyalmian]

:( [2015-07-26 08:00 UTC-08] Mars▪Uranus + Retrograde Venus: I was bowled over during a fight at DESC (someone took another's seat, and the guy pitched a fit and lost it). To my left / Gary's right, in the direction of the back doors, a guy tackled someone while heading toward the pillar to my right, bashing into Gary and knocking his coffee over, and completely taking out me in my seat (like looking at an incoming surprise train), sending me flying out of my chair to my right, with my phone, headphones, and bottle being violently thrown across the floor to front-right ahead of me, in front of the stairs. Some kind of squishy plastic thing (caulk from the floor?) got wedged in thr side of my phone and I need to use my Leatherman to get it out.

It could have been worse, and to be glad it wasn't.

 

[Skyalmian]

I'm trying to figure out why each and every Mercury Retrograde since the "Grand Fire Trine" one of October 4, 2014 plunges me back into the miserable depths of homelessness in some fashion (going from more comfortable / 'less' homeless to "very much" homeless with some acquired comforts (ex: a place to stay at at night) disappearing for a while)? January 2015's (was extremely bad), May 2015's (sucked and had me wandering Kent, WA at midnight (which lead to the encounter with the "Window Faller")), now September's... What's the symbolism? (Why?)

(I keep in mind that this d— 'era' began precisely during the aforementioned October, in Kailua-Kona, Hawai'i, via my stay in "The Tunnel"... :/ )

Of special note, and as I've remarked to others: this really is like being a part of some dark, alternate universe underlying the normal world one. Like, not residing in Seattle but altSeattle, a sub-surface plane of it... :/ Each Mercury Retrograde kinda like refreshes the immersion in it...

On Thursday, September 24, I will set foot inside the first actual house in all of Puget Sound... (to play "Dungeons & Dragons w/coworker). 11 whole f— months of dark underworld...abrupt change!

Like occupying a different mental, emotional, psychological (perspective, etc.) dimension overlaying the same physical space...

To the end of never enough adequate, optimal sleep for my brain, body, and soul.

To the end of homelessness, [staying in] shelters, [being covered in homeless] tar, ["living in"] downtown Seattle, and other related low vibe things...

Why is it that when I hated / loathed myself the most I "had it all" (had everything physically provided for), yet today I strive for objective self-love and have nowhere to stay, never ever ever enough sleep, no proper diet, no family, friends, etc.? Everything was inverted post-mother-collapse and am barely hanging on... I don't understand...

I'm looking for new family — there are adoption candidates — commitment isn't an issue, technically have been giving more than taking during the brief Sappho visits (osit)...

I appreciate, love, respect and trust myself with all that I am.

at the start of August lead to this mid-September:

Tidied that post up.

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:| [2015-09-17 13:33 UTC-08]

I don't care anymore.

Everything I do now, I do only for myself.

I found, very painfully, over the past few months, that I actually / objectively approximately trust no one at all, not even myself, thanks to this miserable piece of s— lifetime of suffering, of watching nearly everyone I cared about up to age 30 being coopted / corrupted / hijacked or outright destroyed by another or others; or ego and all its branch-offs ruining them; or pathological thinking and reasoning taking its vile toll; or ailments or injuries that for some f— up reason leave people 'changed' / 'different'. Technically at any moment any of those things could happen to anyone, if they haven't already, including to me. There is NO effortless safety to be found ANYWHERE. I've been laughing over the fact that precisely ALL the times in my life when I "had it all" and/or thought I was safest turned out to actually be the WORST.

Trust? Safety? Within and without? — Wrong planet, wrong realm, wrong time, wrong EVERYTHING. All actions are now exclusively for my well-being alone, even if they appear to be 'for' others.

No more 'volunteering' of info, unasked help 'for' others, etc.

I bought the clock for DESC, for me.
I bought groceries, for me.
I clean places, for me.
I do the dishes, for me.

Etc.

The funny thing is that 'caring' technically never mattered, or happened to do more harm than good each time due to intent with regard to others invariably backfiring, etc. ANYWAY.

I mean that if I buy groceries for the house, I did it for me, and don't care if it benefitted them.

I mean passive intent things...
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Drowning...
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Ongoing theory: "The Seattle Freeze" being a possible regional phenomenon in similiar fashion as it is 'easier' to make movies in Hollywood (the C Transcript quote is somewhere)? "Sleepless in Seattle" possibly being the same, too? (EM from plate tectonics and/or other?)