Thank you all for the very interesting posts.
I also have "enjoyed" reading his older essays of more than two years ago. I admit that they were often "feverish". But in contrast to Violet's opinion, this was actually part of the reason why I enjoyed reading them. You see, I too was "feverish" at times, I admit. And here was a great writer who expressed my feelings pretty well. His essays also appealed to my intellect for they could dissect the worldly theatre so eloquently, often shining a new and very creative light unto the world stage. Nor did he shy away from using psychological and spiritual insight of the characters that make the world stage the way it is: the psychopaths, the different factions of the masses, the indifference, the ignorance, the need for waking up. All these things were there (IMO) in very short essays. And they moved me, literally.
So I thought and felt that here was a basically very good person, a soul, who was ever so close to gravitate towards a magnetic centre, or to further develop an already existing one, precisely because of the things that he was seeing. Considering the pressure that all these shocks must have created I figured that there was only one way to go, and that is "up" or to go further "within", as in repentance.
However, during such times (I think) one also becomes extremely vulnerable. The psychophage knows this, the false personality too, as it's very "life" is threatened. It is important to know this, to self-observe and to remain "strong", to have faith in the process of awakening. When I read his essay wherein he came to the full realisation of his own impending death, I thought that he really was strong, for here was somebody who dared to die without falling back to a "life after death" tale and other such false promises. Despite the terror of such insight he chose to remain a human person with the ability to feel for other people.
But it is also important to take a step back at times, to see the full impact that ones own anger or sadness has on other people, and to re-treat. I see several reasons why such is important. It solidifies ones many different energy pockets into a coherent centre. Without it, ones energy would scatter again in many different directions, while the inner centre is eaten away. It allows correction at times of ones own personality. Without it, the false personality will steal control of the reins, before one even realizes. It grows the emotional body by a process of deepening of feelings and away from superficial emotions. Without it, we will remain addicted to all those emotions, which are generated by buttons pushed by our environment, or ... pushed by ourselves.
I have the impression that K. has not retreated enough. Maybe there was too much pressure, financial and otherwise, maybe a lack of time. Maybe he grew bitter for the apathy of the people had not decreased much. I have a better hypothesis though. While reading his essays, I caught myself more than once pondering on the danger of becoming addicted to emotions. So maybe, by then, he was too much addicted to his own emotions, and it was anger mostly that he kick-started with his own essays.
I also have had the impression that at the time SOTT invited him to France, which he than declined, he was truly at a tipping point. The timing of a psychophagous handler passing by with a firm grip on the processes he was going through, could not have been better. For the pathocracy that is.
I also have "enjoyed" reading his older essays of more than two years ago. I admit that they were often "feverish". But in contrast to Violet's opinion, this was actually part of the reason why I enjoyed reading them. You see, I too was "feverish" at times, I admit. And here was a great writer who expressed my feelings pretty well. His essays also appealed to my intellect for they could dissect the worldly theatre so eloquently, often shining a new and very creative light unto the world stage. Nor did he shy away from using psychological and spiritual insight of the characters that make the world stage the way it is: the psychopaths, the different factions of the masses, the indifference, the ignorance, the need for waking up. All these things were there (IMO) in very short essays. And they moved me, literally.
So I thought and felt that here was a basically very good person, a soul, who was ever so close to gravitate towards a magnetic centre, or to further develop an already existing one, precisely because of the things that he was seeing. Considering the pressure that all these shocks must have created I figured that there was only one way to go, and that is "up" or to go further "within", as in repentance.
However, during such times (I think) one also becomes extremely vulnerable. The psychophage knows this, the false personality too, as it's very "life" is threatened. It is important to know this, to self-observe and to remain "strong", to have faith in the process of awakening. When I read his essay wherein he came to the full realisation of his own impending death, I thought that he really was strong, for here was somebody who dared to die without falling back to a "life after death" tale and other such false promises. Despite the terror of such insight he chose to remain a human person with the ability to feel for other people.
But it is also important to take a step back at times, to see the full impact that ones own anger or sadness has on other people, and to re-treat. I see several reasons why such is important. It solidifies ones many different energy pockets into a coherent centre. Without it, ones energy would scatter again in many different directions, while the inner centre is eaten away. It allows correction at times of ones own personality. Without it, the false personality will steal control of the reins, before one even realizes. It grows the emotional body by a process of deepening of feelings and away from superficial emotions. Without it, we will remain addicted to all those emotions, which are generated by buttons pushed by our environment, or ... pushed by ourselves.
I have the impression that K. has not retreated enough. Maybe there was too much pressure, financial and otherwise, maybe a lack of time. Maybe he grew bitter for the apathy of the people had not decreased much. I have a better hypothesis though. While reading his essays, I caught myself more than once pondering on the danger of becoming addicted to emotions. So maybe, by then, he was too much addicted to his own emotions, and it was anger mostly that he kick-started with his own essays.
I also have had the impression that at the time SOTT invited him to France, which he than declined, he was truly at a tipping point. The timing of a psychophagous handler passing by with a firm grip on the processes he was going through, could not have been better. For the pathocracy that is.
