Buddy said:
I also wanted to ask why it is important to have evidence that this 'group is not alone on this planet' and how that would give 'the impression that maybe all is not yet lost.'
This group/forum is the only real lighthouse I've ever discovered, but the idea that there could be others out there who are genuinely waking up and working to help spread the word kinda overwhelmed me. It's like a ray of hope that there are others out there that aren't so lost. But the more I think about it, the more I realize I was crying just from the idea of it, not so much the reality. I really wanted to believe that for once this is the real deal, that it's not another alex jones or david icke, albeit more subtle. But alas, it is, and it's not even that subtle after reading everyone's analysis, it really helps immensely to regain the clarity I clearly lost while I was caught up in it and had my emotions triggered.
Thinking about it though, it's not necessarily a sad thing even if this group is the only group of its kind in the world. Help comes in the way of others who join this group and become collinear. So technically there really is an enormous amount of help out there, and it's not necessary for this help to exist totally independently of this group. In fact, I can see no better way for help to come than for everyone involved to do this together as one collinear and networked unit of like minds, hearts, and souls. Each member of the network is protected by virtue of being part of an objective network where "all for one, one for all" is how things are done, and the group benefits from each member that works to wake themselves up and in the process helps others do the same. This makes things much easier, safer, and much more efficient.
But the fact that my mind was so easily fooled is a good warning and lesson for me. Had I been more integrated with this group I doubt I would've been so easily befuddled. Anart said exactly what I needed to hear in the
Breathing Program thread:
Anart said:
I think that until a person has really and truly 'cleaned their vessel', that we are quite susceptible to pathological/sleeping behavior - it sinks in, stains us in some way and affects our thought processes in ways that are sometimes very difficult to track. It's as if this new (Real) 'us' that we are developing and fusing, is quite fragile at times; and the din and confusion of nothing but A influences for two whole weeks can really wreak havoc on a mind that is becoming Real. I have no proof of this, but there really seems to be something to the idea that clarity and objectivity is a signal that - until it is strong enough to emit on its own all the time, despite its surroundings - must be reinforced by external influences that emit a colinear signal. The overwhelming signal of this world is entropy - so when one begins to sound their own signal of increased order and creativity, it is easy for that to be overwhelmed or knocked off key by external influences that are not colinear.
I think this becomes less likely as one gets stronger, though - but that it may always be a possibility.
One other aspect that might be helpful to remember is that this is a process - and there will be times when it seems we are 'going backwards' when we really aren't - when things get more difficult, more frayed and that merely signals that we're about to 'pop it up another notch'. Usually, when I go through my most difficult times, I find, once I've reached the other side (which might seem like it takes FOREVER) - that everything is at a new level - even though I could have sworn that all was lost and that I'd lost all the clarity I thought I might have had. There are octaves, cycles and I do think it's a spiraling staircase, meaning that at times it might seem we're going sideways or backwards when we're really still moving up. (Though, that's not to say that we should delude ourselves when we're actually in free fall!) Just some thoughts...
It's such an apt reminder - I've seen this so many times with myself and others in the past. I've definitely been going through one of those "what is going on with my life" times that really is seeming to last forever. And maybe my emotions were really not all about JA, maybe it really is a bottled up emotional block with respect to how I feel about this group and my guilt/anger over my consistent inability to help. It's like the longer I spend not being part of the group, the worse I feel, and therefore the more difficult it is for me to return. And the more time passes, the more this feeling grows, and it really makes me dissociate to avoid facing this bubble. And I don't think there's any way to avoid having a crying fit in order to be able to heal whatever this is. I am beginning to feel like I haven't done enough crying in my life - like most of my issues that cause me to go into a self-destructive mode of existence are because I'm avoiding emotionally "facing" it. It's one thing to intellectually "realize" it, but I'm beginning to learn that until emotions kick in and truly FEEL it, which apparently means crying your heart out in a lot of cases, there is no real progress, no REAL understanding. It's just so hard to allow yourself to connect emotionally to things that have been buried for years, everything in you wants to resist at all costs!