Fluffy said:
I feel like I've slowed in rolling along on my pin wheel, and the only way to speed it up is to power it with consistently doing the things I have learned. I honestly can not figure out why I sabotage it when I KNOW the difference.
Maybe you don’t need to figure out the WHY - I think it often is a bit of a sideshow we are leading ourselves into. It is what it is, and the more important question is HOW - how do I get where I want to go?
I thnk that more often than not it is a matter of taking personal responsibility and to be ruthless with ourselves. You know WHAT you need to do and WHERE you’d like to go.
So draw a line in the sand, take the decision
once and then walk that path. The reason I said “once” is, that it is easier to take a stand now for the future, that trying to negotiate with myself on the HOW every single day.
So take a stand and move on - or as JBP is wont to say - “Pick up your suffering and bear it!”
But do this knowing that we all are in the same boat ...
:)